I'm crying in front of my computer screen.

I cannot explain why. I know why, but I can't tell it to you. It's too hard, too difficult for me.. I have some big health problems, they will never disapear.. and it's fucking hurt me, sometimes...

I should explain, I should tell you. But I'm just not able to talk about it.

Sometimes I'd like to re-born.. be different... and not have to suffer my whole life becauses things I can't influence..

I have to be brave, but now, I just can't...



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EDIT : 08/04

I'd like to apologize for yesterday. You're really sweet and your comments made me better. My body has some problems, yeah, but yesterday it wasn't suffering. But my mind was sad and that's why I wrote this yesterday...

But today I'm fine !

Some good news :

- P-Mod is still working on my set and should finish soon ! Yeaaaaah.

- I should receive pics of my fashion shooting of last sunday today or tomorrow ( and of course I'll show you as soon as possible !! )

- Today is a great night : BEER-BEER-BEER-FRIENDS-MUSIC-CIRCLE ( to explain : presidents and members of the 25 others circles of students of the city came and we sing song of each circle, drinking bear and having fun. Nice moment ) (Oh, yeah, we are all totally drunk at the end : Imagine : drinking a beer after each song ^^ )

- Sun is shinning.

- I love you


S'you soon and thanks again for your support, guys and girls...