eughhh my life is sooo boring, seriously, i dont actually have one, its like i get up, mope about, watch films, check me emails then go to sleeep

i wish that i had a job and that it was something frickin awesome and i loved getting up for it eughh, i mean i f-in love singing and being on stage n shiz but until that goes further i want something to live for, i wana freakin life and to see the world and meet some amazing people that show me different ways of living
the sunset was soooo amazing tonight, i just sat on my windowsill in my pjs, even tho the air was so cold i had my window fully open and it was just likee ahh so thats what i live for!

Oh yeh i had ma all important gig t`Other night, went well, got through the first round, was was even cooler is that it was thick with snow there so when i wasnt singing i was outside playing in the snow, got a few pics Of that night


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singaaalinggggggsssss and a pretty tree that was Outside with some snowsss
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i wana be in all of these places, doing these things

these jobs fascinate the geek in me more than anything

and finalllyy

sorry fOr the million pics, just wanted to share the pictures i live my life through <3

xxxx

TODAY has been fucking awful, seriously

fell out with all my band cus they were being so frickin petty and nasty and ive been like crying alll day so my eyes are like mahoosively puffy, i hate it when you realise how two faced some people are, i have way too much faith in people so i dont understand how some people can be so horrible, i really dont, it just hurts, Oh man im crying again i neeed to mannnn uppppp!!!! i need to get some strength and to find out why im like why i am, but seeing all the helpy people next month, it cant come quick enough, im so exhaused and fed up with everythingggg

but on a lighter note, thankyou so much for all the love on my videos, it means sooooooooooo much to me that you enjoy them and puts a well needed smile on my frumpled face haha is frumpled a word? if not, its my new invention

remember that guy i was on about a while ago, i really dont like him now, hes said some awful stuff to me and after much consideration i am back with my devoted ex, who is everything i need right now, he helps me so much with my crazy head and hes like my little angel i adore him, i really do, i wasnt so sure about him to start off with, which is why we first split up but now i feel that magic so much, so weird but good how things can change,wish everything else was good

but yeh so happy about that but everything else, seriously ergg so hard to breathe and get through each day


my and my angel on valentines day xx

look around your world pretty baby, is it everything that you hoped it would be <3


do i blog too much? sorry if i do, i just like ittttt
so excited for tomorrow, gona well spoil my bloke, wish i could see my girl too dammnnn

ive uploaded two videos one of my band which is not too good but its a song i wrote so and then just a coverrrrrr so check um out if you pleaseeee

my night is planned out with channel 4 movies, fun fun fun, i need some munch though which i do not haveeee
but nevs mind, i took some bitey finger pics cus i was bored, and up`d the contrast to bring out me hairrrr yeeehhh!!! also i hope you have been commenting on Galda`s bloomin beaut set!!!

okayyy rambling done for now, i think


trying to be seductive i think, i dont do it very well


i like this cus of the colours

goodbye for now, have a good day tomorrow everyone

Love Maddie x

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII !!!!!!!


hey there now ive got your attention, you NEED to check my girl out
her set is amazing, and it deserves to bought cus shes an amazing girl and the photography is pureeeee beautttttt




OM NOM NOM!!!
So go check Galda! out now


thankyou kindly xxxxxx

musiiccc!!

in response to the other blog, our band has got some crap recordings but at easter we will be doing some more so i shall link you up

i tried to upload a vid but im stupid so ill figure out how to do that another time when im not falling asleeeeeep :p

ive also a nose ring now instead of a stud, im tryna get used to it, i think i like it?


hope you like thee shizzzz

muchos love n that xxx

QUIT YOUR JIBBA JABBAAA YOU AINT HURT YOU PATHETIC


hiiii all.
sorry havent posted for a little while, been poorly and alot shiiiit going on.
been doing alorra band prac for an important gig next week, so scared, its like round one of a competition and i hope to GOD our bands gets through. eeeekkkkk.

also! i went to the gym today! first time in like a year, felt well freakin good. gona start going twice a week again and get sexeehh. (hopefully)
got me SG welcome pack through the post the other day, i was SO excited seriously. almost weed. well... not really... but i was that excited.... errmmm....
anyway goodbye for now.
ill leave you with some pics from my most recent band practice eee! x



me singalingalinggg

having a photo shoot and i have to be stupid in the occasional photo or i feel too serious



xxx

okay so finally got some pics of the new tatts

eugh feel soooo crap today, had a well bad night, which sooks so been such a lazy bum all day, seriously only just got ready and its 7pm, i dont even know why i just got ready!! HUFFFFFF. i want loads of new films to watcchh to take up my boring illness!

also i feckin quit college yesterday :s ooft my head is rather messy right about now. but blahblah on to the pictures!!!

me being a posey betchh

the arm tattoo nom nom nom!!

yehhh!

the big ass back one, its not finished but it hurt so much that i couldnt get it all done cus im a wus but seriously. OW!

hope everyone is well and shizz,

love maddie x

hello everyone

had such an amazing gig last night and im gettin my new tattoos today eeeeeeeee, so all is good for now!!
ill put up a picture later on the ink

also how hot is tarion CORRRR. well love her set!

anyway this pic is for DEVOUS cus he wont leave me alone hahaha joking he wanted to no what i looked like right now so this is it. stages of gettin ready so i look uber silleh

love love love xxx

hey guyyyss

sorry for my morbid blog the other day just needed to venttt and thankyou so much, you are all so caring and lovely hehe!

i decided to have a bit of a change the other day so i cut my hair and put a fringe in and got my nose pierced haha was a random day! my nose is quite sore, its annoying cus of all the crying ive been doing, i dont really no what to do so im doing alot of dabbing on the nose area ahhaaa and yes you needed to no that!!

got sooch a bad headacheee OWWWW!
but heres two pics for you xxx

lots of love xxx

HEARTBROKEN.

right i need to moan my ass off somewhere where he cant see!

im sick of love. it fucking sucks!!! rargghh im listenin to jose vanders (if you havent heard her, check her out) and shes making me feel soo ridiculously sad for some reason.
she uses lyrics like "realising that she'd found the one who knows just what it means to save the last chocolate button no matter how tasty it seems" and "pick me apart, uncover my heart,its yours"
ohh goooddddd. ive decided im as unlucky as bridget jones. i think thats why i love those films so much cus its just me!
basically, i have such bad luck with guys. ive fallen stupidly in love 3 times now, because i like to give my heart away like its a packet of crisps. the first person i was with for years and there was always kinda another girl he was always interested in, he never cheated though but i always felt i wasnt good enough and when we used to see a really pretty girl, i used to let go of his hand incase he was ashamed of being with me, anyway after all of that finished,and a fair few months later, i fell for another guy who wooed me with his charm and smile, i knew i was fallin for him but i couldnt stop because i had faith in the fact he would want me. but alas he turns round and says im gettin back with my ex.
its been half a year since that and im in love again,with someone who yet again doesnt want me. i dont no why i do it!! i tend to always be like this one will be different but they never are. he told me he was in love with me and now suddenly im not his type and hes not interested in me like that anymore, funny that, its like i let people in to crush me. why cant he just want me the fact that there is always another girl stuff is taking its toll on me, ive always been insecure as hell and im slowly losing all liking in myself.

i no people say oh theres plenty more fish in the sea and that but what happens when you only want that one fish, and he swims away and you left with a broken heart. i had hope in the fact i could get him back and somehow become attractive to him. but i guess, if thats lost then theres no point in trying..

your probably thinkin im stupidly pathetic, but love is the most important thing to me and without it, i am nothing more than empty shell, sitting in the darkness.

WHAT SHALL I DO GUYS?! i need heart healing medicine ASAP!!! gona go cry now haha. damnnn.

"your eyes have faded, im in pieces. i cant cope without your kisses"

xxxxx