MASSSSIIVEEEE PPPEENNISSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

now i gots your attention

how gay is it that my newest set "Big Red Book" is still in member review, tbh i think it deserves front page cus ittssss weeeeheeeewiiickkeeedddd! moohahaha

go show me some love yehhh

http://suicidegirls.com/members/Maddie/albums/site/18965/

you know you wana take a cheeky peeeeeeekkkk



OH AND!

mwaahhh xxxxxx

Oh harrroooowwwww

how is everyone?
im uber ill as per, sick of it, on my second lot of antibiotics, dont no why cus they dont friggin work! rarghh

ive been lookin at alot of open university courses, im thinking i might make myself do one, i dont want to regret not studying what i want, they`ve suggested a really interesting one for me which is Geoscience, om nom nom! and all the units in it grab my geekyness stupid amounts! if i complete the course and pass i will be awarded a Bachelor of science, Honours degree in Geoscience, that sounds so stupidly sexy to me i cant even explain, i would LOVE to be able to say that i have one of those!
in the course i get to study fossils, history of live, darwin and evolution, planets and space, shit loads of jizz worthy stuff, if it gets me THIS excited surely i should definately do it right?!

apart from that theres not much else to say except keep on showing lyour lovely love to my set and keep showin love to eachother! :] hehe

peace x


me drunk and on the loo, lovely

x

HAAPPY BURRRRFFDAAAY TO MEEEEEEE
SQUASHED TOMATTOEESSSS AND PEEEEE
HAAAPPY BURFDAAAYYY DEARR MYSELLFFFFF
HAAAAPPPYYY BURFDAAAYYY TOOOOO MEEEEEEEEE


EEEEEEPPPP :]





xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

im tired, sad and want to be cuddled up with my boy

but on the other side

its my birfday on tuesday WOOP WOOP!!

that is all, love x

ten wishes

i wish i had confidence in myself

i wish my family was happy and well x

i wish my parents won the lottery so they could get the best care for my pappie and go and see the world and live their dreams x

i wish i was a good girlfriend and didnt feel like such a burden to him x

i wish i was slim and beautiful

i wish i had lots of close friends that cared

i wish i was clever

i wish people would see that we are destroying the world and to realise that we just live on it, it is not ours to destroy

i wish i had motivation and determination

i wish for people to let their good sides overrule their bad, the world would be so much better

these ten wishes were just written for completely randomness, ive got so much going on in my head and i dont no how to vent it, sometimes i just wana write and write my mind onto these blogs but everytime i attempt it, i never no where to start, theres just too much

i feel so lost, so empty and so dissapointed
i dont no what i want to do with my life actually no thats bullshit, i wana work in science but im so terrified i will fail because Of how much i suffer from anxiety and stress, and the fact that im just not that bright
i love my singing, i love being on stage and people coming up to me asking me to sing, its amazing, but
its just eugh theres something missing

i fucking wish that everything would just sort itself out in my head, but i no that i, alone have to do that

im so dissapointed in the human race and its an awful feeling, no offence to anyone at all as i am also human, damnit! haha but i just want so many people to see the world threw my eyes, i cant stand to look at builders working on countryside, it makes my blood boil, what fucking right do they have to take away homes for animals and just the plain beauty, arent there enough fucking cities already!
we are just an infection to this world, day by day, taking away a little bit more of the beauty that once was, and when weve taken everything we can, we will find away to go to another planet and suck all of the life out of that, just like a plague

Obviously there are definately the good people in this world that do their best and try as hard as possible to be good to the planet but some, gah, the fucking government, for example, are you really that thick?! id do such a better job and i think england would turn into a hippy country, which would be awesome

i just dont understand how people can not just LOOK LISTEN and ADORE




seriously HOW?! i just wish everyone will look with their hearts and see the beauty, it actually makes me cry haha
one day i will be rich and buy as much as i can of every rainforest, so noone can touch it and it can stay beautiful and preserved x

im sorry for this massive blog, its only the tip of the iceburg of all the things that are going on in my head just needed to vent a little bit and sorry if i offended anyone x

anyone know what i should do with my life using facts from this lengthy blog??!!!! advice would be most helpful!

xxx

soooooooooooooooo unbelievably tired even though ive slept all day pfffttt, i feel sick too cus i jus had some chocolate while watching harry potter 3 hehehe

the other night i went out basically because i felt like it, it was one of those nights where your like, im not gona drink but then end up trashed hahaa i felt like celebrating because im all happy about my set
my friends band was playing so i went to see them because they are fricking awesome, i was skankin for ages, i saw so many people that i knew years ago was awesome!!


me and my best bum x


this is an ex of mine who does all my ink and another best mate who is stupidly inspiring to me as she had a 7 year fight against cancer and won the battle <3 she gives me hope for my pappie x

anywaayy gona pay attention to harry potter now, heh, why cant i live in a world like thatt huffffff

thankyou so much for all the love on my set, still so excited about it, glad you guys are too!

mwah mwah mwaahhh xx

AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH IM SO FUCKING EXCITED!!!!

i woke up this morning like eeeeppp and then my computer wouldnt work which caused me to stress the hell out but eventually i got here wooooppp

cant believe it was all featured and shiz aswell ahhhh i need to chill out

i wana thank each of you for commenting, its SOOOO very much appreciated, i cant believe how much its liked but of course i did have the honour of Holley taking the pics and Galda faffing about with my hair and what not love you both!


eeep eeeepppp eeeeeeeeeeeeep

love to alll!

love a very exicted Maddie x







x

new settttttttt!!!

"Big Red Book" comes out in, i think, two days, the 31st

ahh so excited!!!!! make sure you show super amounts of love

eeep eep eeeeepppp

xxxx

HAAARROOOOWWWW


okay so i feel like this week has been jam packed full of shiz
ive been trying to do more stuff to keep my mind occupied! went frankies and bennys on friday, honest to god their food is made by the gods NOMMM, so fit i had pizza, garlic doughballs and then like the godfather of all chocolate puds, was epic <3

and of course, tuesday i did my new set "Big Red Book" which i shall be uploading very soon to this wonderful site, shot by the lovely Holley and witnessed by Galda being a prat in the background making me giggle constantly haha, was so fun i absolutely adore the set and i really bloomin hope you do too! XD

and and AND then i went blackpool on sat, the beach is actually amazing, got way too drunk but it was okay cus everyone else was

he doesnt like photos so i tend to pull faces and he just looks grumpy

me and my fecking amazing sister, LOVE her with all my heart x

this rollercoaster, oh my days. i about weed. to be fair the view at the top was actually mega but then it shot down like a crazy ass crazy thing and my head almost fell off so stupidly high but amazing!

big willie lololololol ahh the joys of being immature

me and the boy in the sunset sun, noms

amazing sunset, i edited a couple of them just because of the colours, i wanted to bring them out more



seriously, cant get over how beautiful this was and how beaut the pics are. absolutely AMAZINGGG


theres something about the ocean. especially when the sun rises and sets over it, it never seems real when im there just because of how spectacular the sea against the sky is. it really takes my breath away.
i could take pictures of that scenery all my life and never get bored, because it never ceases to amaze me, let alone take away every ounce of fear and worry that i might be feeling.
one day i plan to live next to the ocean where every morning i can look out and immediately be at ease with the world, it will happen, i promise it to myself. the beach is my home x

Maddie xxx

ALLLOOOOOOOOORRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!

i feel like ive been away from this site foreverrrrr, ive been really ill with tonsilitus grr so ive been in bed for
days but im about recovered now thank the lord!
hopefully shooting a new set soon eeeeeppp excited!

ya no whenever i start to write these things im always like yeehh shit loads to write but now my mind has gone kappowww and i am left blank as a chav in rome.

ill just moan for abit for now until something else pops up... im really struggling dealing with being at home at the moment. my dads seriously ill and its just like a hospital, doesnt really feel like home and my dads kinda just not my daddy right now, i wish i could fix him so my mum would stop crying. i try and ignore it all but i end up feeling really selfish and even more shocked when i think about it again. he cant really do anything right now and his depression has got really bad again so hes just really really shit. its so hard to handle. i just want to run away for a while and clear my head cus its so jam packed full of so much crap that doesnt need to be in there.
i went to see my psychiatrist for the first the other day, was so nerve wracking, i hate talking about my head but im having to do that again on tuesday for another one OH YAYYYYYY. haha but never mind.
anyone no someone that can make my pappie better and make my head not fucked up?


meh meh meeehh MEEEEHHHH enoof of thee sadness for this blog
heres some pikchooorssss from my weekend for you to oggle at!

major posinnggg me and my girl <3 i actually love this girl, she makes me knees go weak and my heart beat faster <3


i adore this pic,i think it shows how close i am to her the most beautiful girl eveerrrr. the dude behind me is my tattoo guy, hes a legenddddd


lickk my lollipop, this girl is my hero and she looks after me so much


me and the milky bar kid XD

meeeeeee

thought i might aswell put up my back tatt up cus i finally decided to take a picc....

righttt, think im gona go crash now, "awful tired now boss" (what film is that from eh eh? i shall award the person that guesses it first with a errr errmmm yup and no googling it you hear!)

take care all, Maddie xxx