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SO, its been a while!!!
how is everyone?? i hope the new year brought some happiness somewhere, as it didnt my end
its been a trying few months, so havent really been on with anything which sucks.
i was just looking through some old SG pics and suddenly im buzzing to do another one, got abit more ink and ive lost abit of weight so might do a new me thing, in the summer, i might do another one
il have to see how the new boyfriend feels about it though, yes a new boyfriend, i guess thats one good thing thats happened in the new year; he is my silver lining. i think its love people, and hes actually nice to me, makes me feel uber sexy, hes quite the gentleman and plus he can pick me up like i weigh nothing, its nice to feel like a woman!!
il give you a picchor hahhh
although it looks like he doesnt.. he is actually into me haha
and i just like this pic, my hair looks really red
il try and keep abit more up to date, thats if anyway actually reads this haha
Maddie xxx.
how is everyone?? i hope the new year brought some happiness somewhere, as it didnt my end
its been a trying few months, so havent really been on with anything which sucks.
i was just looking through some old SG pics and suddenly im buzzing to do another one, got abit more ink and ive lost abit of weight so might do a new me thing, in the summer, i might do another one
il have to see how the new boyfriend feels about it though, yes a new boyfriend, i guess thats one good thing thats happened in the new year; he is my silver lining. i think its love people, and hes actually nice to me, makes me feel uber sexy, hes quite the gentleman and plus he can pick me up like i weigh nothing, its nice to feel like a woman!!
il give you a picchor hahhh
although it looks like he doesnt.. he is actually into me haha
and i just like this pic, my hair looks really red
il try and keep abit more up to date, thats if anyway actually reads this haha
Maddie xxx.
HOLLLYY SHITTT!!!
its been way too long!! im so sorry for vanishing for ages, so much shit going on its actually ridiculous. none of it good really either haha yayyy.......
how is everyone??!!? excited for christmass. i frickin well am!! well. it good either be one of the worst or best christmases ever, i hopes its the best <3
ive got an addiction to ebay at the moment, well to be honest ive been like it for a little while now!! but literally cant stop spending on little things for my best girl. shes gona be soooooooooooo spoilt at christmas but i luff her and she truelly deserves it <3
me and her. two peas in a fucking pod <3
me being me
my handy work
on a train and caught the plane. oo rhymsies.
oooerr
:] there we go. beddibies now, HARRY POTTER TOMORROW! AHHHHHHHHHHHH <3
Love
Maddie xox
its been way too long!!
im so sorry for vanishing for ages, so much shit going on its actually ridiculous. none of it good really either haha yayyy.......how is everyone??!!? excited for christmass. i frickin well am!! well. it good either be one of the worst or best christmases ever, i hopes its the best <3
ive got an addiction to ebay at the moment, well to be honest ive been like it for a little while now!! but literally cant stop spending on little things for my best girl. shes gona be soooooooooooo spoilt at christmas but i luff her and she truelly deserves it <3
me and her. two peas in a fucking pod <3
me being me
my handy work
on a train and caught the plane. oo rhymsies.oooerr
:] there we go. beddibies now, HARRY POTTER TOMORROW! AHHHHHHHHHHHH <3
Love
Maddie xox
everything is so confusing isnt it.
halloween <3 i love this girl sooo much
and oh my god. i am in love with this woman!
only just found her but oh my. i am smitten, just AMAZING!
anyway i need to stop lusting haha
halloween <3 i love this girl sooo much
and oh my god. i am in love with this woman!
only just found her but oh my. i am smitten, just AMAZING!
anyway i need to stop lusting haha
its too bad my eyes wont stop doing this all the time
hope everyone is okay. i think its definately time i did a new set. dont you?
Love Maddie xxx
thankyou so much to everyone thats been messaging me and commenting me, it feels like ive got more people that care on here than in real life. which is kind of sad :[
you are all so wonderfull! and i love that your taking time to write me long messages about what you are or have gone through.
life is so shit. it feels like ive been brought into this world by the freakin devil and made to go through all this shit to see how i cope. which might i add, i am not. AT ALL!
and i hate that there is nothing i can do really. except try and help my parents as much as i can, which might i also add, i am completely awful at that too, i am the worst daughter ever, i just snap all the time and find it hard to do stuff for them cus i get overwhelmed with anger. i mean what the hell is with that? how can i be such an awful person to the people that i love, when they need me. :[ :[
i guess its all down to the fact that i cant actually handle everything thats going on, i feel like im breaking.
but yes, didnt mean to go off on one again. just wanted to say thankyou for your support!!!
i really do appreciate it. just wish i could have people like you in my actual life, i need to be cuddled :[
on a lighter note....
weeesttttsideeeeeee.. ahem.
me being grumpy
poseyposey. me and the girl thats recently taken control of my life alittle bit, ive been best friends with her since me and her were just 3 :]
thankyou for reading! i think il moan when i need to on this now ahha
much love
Maddie xxx
you are all so wonderfull! and i love that your taking time to write me long messages about what you are or have gone through.
life is so shit. it feels like ive been brought into this world by the freakin devil and made to go through all this shit to see how i cope. which might i add, i am not. AT ALL!
and i hate that there is nothing i can do really. except try and help my parents as much as i can, which might i also add, i am completely awful at that too, i am the worst daughter ever, i just snap all the time and find it hard to do stuff for them cus i get overwhelmed with anger. i mean what the hell is with that? how can i be such an awful person to the people that i love, when they need me. :[ :[
i guess its all down to the fact that i cant actually handle everything thats going on, i feel like im breaking.
but yes, didnt mean to go off on one again. just wanted to say thankyou for your support!!!
i really do appreciate it. just wish i could have people like you in my actual life, i need to be cuddled :[
on a lighter note....
weeesttttsideeeeeee.. ahem.
me being grumpy
poseyposey. me and the girl thats recently taken control of my life alittle bit, ive been best friends with her since me and her were just 3 :]
thankyou for reading! i think il moan when i need to on this now ahha
much love
Maddie xxx
i feel like my whole world is falling apart.
i can actually say for once in my life, everything is absolute shit.
seriously, there isnt one good thing going on. im on edge every second of every fucking day and i only need to be slightly pushed and im in tears. im snapping at my parents all the time and as IF they need that from me, but i cant stop, im just so angry.
in the words of bilbo baggins "I feel thin, sort of stretched, like butter spread over too much bread."
im so exhausted and feel like im not actually here anymore
things that im feeling:
- angry
- dissapointed
- worthless
- broken
- lost
- blank
- unwanted
- burden
- bitch
- confused
- worried
- anxious
- insane
- hopeless
- alone
- no friends
- aching
- selfish
so many fucking more that i feel and that i think i am.i swear its not normal to feel all of thiiss AAAGHHHHGHGHGHIDFOUJHSOJF. how do i keep going when i see nothing worth living for?
this dude has been on me all day aswell, tellling me i cant sing or play guitar and that im like "every other cocksucking talentless bitch" which i thought was nice.... ...
eugh i need a break. i need some time to just breathe.
but then again, thats me being selfish as hell, i hate that about me. when i think about what my dad feels and my mum. and all im thinking is that i cant frickin cope!
selfish selfish. and im even thinking about not doing another set because i feel like a dirty slut even though i think no SG is a slut at all, just me, and i think about if my dad knew
im so ashamed of myself for becoming what i am now.
what the hell am i on about, i dont even no who i am but i know that it makes me feel ill
you know what, im gona shut up now.
:[ sorry had to let out my mind for a sec lol x
i can actually say for once in my life, everything is absolute shit.
seriously, there isnt one good thing going on. im on edge every second of every fucking day and i only need to be slightly pushed and im in tears. im snapping at my parents all the time and as IF they need that from me, but i cant stop, im just so angry.
in the words of bilbo baggins "I feel thin, sort of stretched, like butter spread over too much bread."
im so exhausted and feel like im not actually here anymore
things that im feeling:
- angry
- dissapointed
- worthless
- broken
- lost
- blank
- unwanted
- burden
- bitch
- confused
- worried
- anxious
- insane
- hopeless
- alone
- no friends
- aching
- selfish
so many fucking more that i feel and that i think i am.i swear its not normal to feel all of thiiss AAAGHHHHGHGHGHIDFOUJHSOJF. how do i keep going when i see nothing worth living for?
this dude has been on me all day aswell, tellling me i cant sing or play guitar and that im like "every other cocksucking talentless bitch" which i thought was nice.... ...
eugh i need a break. i need some time to just breathe.
but then again, thats me being selfish as hell, i hate that about me. when i think about what my dad feels and my mum. and all im thinking is that i cant frickin cope!
selfish selfish. and im even thinking about not doing another set because i feel like a dirty slut even though i think no SG is a slut at all, just me, and i think about if my dad knew
im so ashamed of myself for becoming what i am now.
what the hell am i on about, i dont even no who i am but i know that it makes me feel ill
you know what, im gona shut up now.
:[ sorry had to let out my mind for a sec lol x
A DATE IS SET!
for a new shooting of the wonderful MMMEEEEEE haha :p
im so excited!! few weeks to prepare meself heh
join me in getting excited pleaseeeee :]
Love Maddie xxx
for a new shooting of the wonderful MMMEEEEEE haha :p
im so excited!! few weeks to prepare meself heh
join me in getting excited pleaseeeee :]
Love Maddie xxx
HEELLLOOO MY LOVELIEESS
im sorry ive been gone for ages, my laptop started smoking so i had to wait to get a new one but im back with a bloody thumping headache BOO need a spliff nomnom
how is everyone doing then? ive missed so many wicked sets going up, tell me which ones youve seen that you bummed and ill have a gander and bum them too
i went to norfolk the other week and i never wanted to stay somewhere so much, went with ma boy and my lovely parents, (we go everyyear heh) and everynight pretty much,we just sat in a secluded spot on a cliff and watched the tide and the sunset,while playing guitar and sharing some joints, was so fucking perfect, hate this normality!
i did the lottery for the first time the other day and no i didnt win :[ but i really need it, i wana take my daddy over to america so he can get the best treatment and get better and make my mommas dreams come true, i need it so much, im so terrified every single day :[ i hate feeling this sadness
my lovely daddy and my gayface x
my momma and pappie, i love them both so much x
me and ma bootiful sister :]
my sisters nephew, he is bloody adorable!
me and my nomnommmmmmm hehe
my little friend
beautiful mm, if i close my eyes i can still feel the soft sea breeze on my face
this was cool x
my baby in the beautiful sun x
then just a recent one of me :] just because!
enjoy the pictures! cus i do hehe
safe xxx
im sorry ive been gone for ages, my laptop started smoking so i had to wait to get a new one but im back with a bloody thumping headache BOO need a spliff nomnom
how is everyone doing then? ive missed so many wicked sets going up, tell me which ones youve seen that you bummed and ill have a gander and bum them too
i went to norfolk the other week and i never wanted to stay somewhere so much, went with ma boy and my lovely parents, (we go everyyear heh) and everynight pretty much,we just sat in a secluded spot on a cliff and watched the tide and the sunset,while playing guitar and sharing some joints, was so fucking perfect, hate this normality!
i did the lottery for the first time the other day and no i didnt win :[ but i really need it, i wana take my daddy over to america so he can get the best treatment and get better and make my mommas dreams come true, i need it so much, im so terrified every single day :[ i hate feeling this sadness
my lovely daddy and my gayface x
my momma and pappie, i love them both so much x
me and ma bootiful sister :]
my sisters nephew, he is bloody adorable!
me and my nomnommmmmmm hehe
my little friend
beautiful mm, if i close my eyes i can still feel the soft sea breeze on my face
this was cool x
my baby in the beautiful sun x
then just a recent one of me :] just because!
enjoy the pictures! cus i do hehe
safe xxx
i have the most amazing boyfriend in the whole world
seriously, i will explain soon but i just want everyone to know right now!
I LOVE HIM!!!!!!!!
he is my angel xxx
hehe xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
seriously, i will explain soon but i just want everyone to know right now!
I LOVE HIM!!!!!!!!
he is my angel xxx
hehe xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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