so pics from the cali trrip hopefully up soon but just as soon as i get home i get bad news...so somehow i got a severe staph infection that even though the doctor told me it was the man eating virus kind, he did diagnos it as MRCA.. which has apparently been all over the news lately.. so im pretty freaked out cuz its hard to treat with antibiotics because the strain is resistent to alot. i go back in for a check up tomorrow morning after spending most of the night in the ER last night. and was told to stay in bed and rest. with not alot of walking since its on my knee.

there for the point to this is who has wii and who wants to play wii games with me online? i just got animal crossing today and still havent figured it out but im sure i will. i am also addiciting to DR. mario..lol..so if you want to send me a private message with your wii numbers so we can link up togther that would be great!! im getting really lonely over here... cuz all my good girl friends have been out fo town or not near by and sitting in the house all day by yourself with no one to talk to kind of sucks...

any one wanna be my gamer buddie?

ahh.. the last month... HAS BEEN RIDICULOUS!! i think i seriously fell off the earth.. between work and stress and everything in between i felt like a zombie....
on top of it i think a mix of the stress. bills. and some other random shit i have developed really bad anxiety. there for not being able to sleep at all. like maybe 4 hours a day. crappy...

but on better news that i think will help im going on my own little vaca... CALI!!! back to the west coast. first time since i have moved out to the east coast in about 2 years.. my whole fam is coming. well the sisters and the mom from oregon. it will be nice. i miss that place soo much. it will be good to have all the sisters together again in one household and having my neice and nephew there. i cant wait. i fly out tomorrow and stay for a week. so im sure there will be a bunch of weird photos to come.. i have to say me and my sisters may be complete opposites but we have one thing in common. we have the most strange since of humor. probably the grossest. but very strange.

heres an old pic of us all together from youngest to oldest... i think i was like 12 or 13. can you tell which one is me?


on other news my bday is coming up... and since my 21st bday wasnt as i had planned it to be... uuughhh... im making my 22nd even better. i already have a theme. and thanks to my awesome friend who is a MUA and is awesome at airbrushing.. were going as " all about the schene" basically as metro station, meg and dia, or any other horrible pop punk stupid crap that is out now yup ITS IN!!! so fake horrible airbrushed tattoo's of really bad lyrics, hair that you could only tell is a guy or girl if you can see bumps for boobs. i think you get the point already.. its gonna be great!!

my weekend adventure!!!
ahh so much fun!!

pictures to tell the story of lots of beer, eventually spilling lots of beer, merch bins, good friends and hotels in asbury park being responsible and not driving home drunk.









ahhh i need to have more fun like this... i miss being young and stupid having good ol'clean fun... well... some what clean...
you all know what i mean.

so just got all my stuff for valentines day.. it's one of my faves to celebrate with friends... cant help it.. to me, its more like my xmas with them.. i always make sure i get some cute elementary style card someones way... if you want one, let me know and send a private message with your address so i can mail them to you!

le sigh.....

i miss my mom.... i miss oregon.. i miss my old friends....

maybe its the weather but something for me is not right in the air. i think i really just miss my home, my family, and friends. going a year and a half without seeing my mom then spending 3 weeks together. leaving her at the airport yesterday was the hardest thing i have ever done.
which scares me if i ever do go back home for a visit. i dont think i would get on that plane back to jersey. i dont know i think i just need to get away somewhere for a week with no cell phone no internet.. just escape from the world for awhile. get my head back on straight. figure out what is more important. my life here on the east coast that doesnt make me happy. or my old life back home.. or maybe just a new one somewhere else..

i can feel im getting that bug again. after a certain amount of time i cant live in one place for to long. i get bored or unhappy and i pick up leave and start somewhere else. i think its that time again... now whether thats healthy or not. im not sure... but it makes me feel better.

on brighter news i do have one thing to look forward to this week. brooklyn.. photoshoot day! really excited .. she's another girl i havent seen for awhile and i miss the shit out of her...

alright enough for now.. in the shower and time to get ready for work..

eh sigh...
so this is suppose to be the best month of the year to make money at work right now..

ya welll IT SUCKS! i made $16 last night... FUCK THE ECONOMY!!! it frustrates me....
where my fans at?? come give me your money so i can make some money!!

anyways... my mommy comes on tuesday for a whole 3 weeks.. so excited!
and then again thinking about home it made me miss my bestest... i love her so.. if any one ever wants to know about the tattoo on my wrist.. these next pictures will explain this and why i love her so.


and this is why i love her even more

she lets me put my face in her boobies!
i wub you lear

HAPPY BELATED TURKEY DAY EVERYONE!!!!

alright so here are some of the bored at work pics i mentioned.. as well as some more goofy ones of me and the other love of my life.. Sebastian... my adorable boxer....

getting ready for work with the puppy..


this is what he does when i blow dry my hair.. he hates the hair dryer.


my bestest lady.. we are car pool buddies and best buds.. my ultimate jersey girl.


stipper shoes!!!

AHHHH SOOO EXXXCCCCIIITTTEDDD!!!!!

See my set here: Machete -- Slippery



alright i am very very tired right now.. i just woke up .. i worked late last night.. was suppose to be done at 1 and then didnt get out till about 3 then an hour drive home.. and i got to do it all over again today...
needless to say im a pooped nugget.

but i wanted to go on before i take a shower and start getting ready for work to thank every one for the wonderful comments.. i dont know if any one knows but i still get nervous as hell everytime before a set goes up that people will like and leave me nice comments. i think im much more critical on myself though.. but of course all my friends and the Brookechete cheering squad never fail.. you guys are all the best.. and i love everyone..

and a big thanks to brooklyn for being my best friend and working with me.. this last year has been awesome.. im so glad that i met her.. and alll the other SG's i have met along the way.. i dont think i need to say any names. they know who they are just by first lap dance and comeback kid gang bang!!! you guys are awesome!!!

maybe its getting into the holiday spirit but i just really wanted every one who comments on my sets or just takes their time out of the day to comment on my blog or to just friend request me.. i appreciate it all and it means alot to me..

so thank you again to everyone and if you havent seen the set yet you got to check it out..

P.s.
im taking my camera to work tonight so i can take some fun new pics of my work hair.. cuz its colorful and full of extensions.. lol.. so over the weekend get ready for some crazy strip club hair and clothes!!!

sorry i have not been doing my usual blogging for the fact that my computer basically had a heart attack and died on me last month.. and with everything going on.. new job, new room mate, trying to go home for thanksgiving it really was the last thing on my mind to fix..
i feel silly but i did really miss out on a bunch of stuff going on here.. friends new sets, friends going live, friends coming back.. which usually i am pretty good about staying on top of everything like that and making sure that these girls now i support them... so even though i have probably already apologized to them im doing it now... im sooo sorry i stilll love all you ladies soo much!!!

i would like to let everyone know that my job worries are over.. i just in the last month have went to a new club and left the old one.. its soo much better... theres camera's every where!! no old gross trying to touch my boobies any more... and the major one... I MAKE DOUBLE THE MONEY!!!!!

i dont have much time going to go to a show in asbury.. i will update later on in the week..

i love and miss everyone on here and i will hopefully be back in the game of making my usual smart ass remarks for everyone.. cuz i think the sg world was not complete with out those.. they are quite famous. even ask brooklyn.