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last night i got home from the emerald city comicon in seattle, &as awesome as it is to be home, im so sad that its all over! meeting all of the other SGs was a blast, &staff members jorie and viquiv were amazing too...i just wish i could have spent more time getting to know you girls!
miss sedora was lovely enough to put us up for the weekend -- i cant thank her enough! it was SUCH a fun weekend, but i was beyond exhausted by the end of it. i cant wait till the next convention! 
(me & the awesome wilwheaton)
&some stolen from doxies blog:
(charm, doxie, marigold, kara, blyss, madeleine, me, doxie, amelinda, silencia, sedora, skully!)
a little while before that, me and miss silencia ventured even farther north to vancouver, BC to shoot with the always amazing cherry. there simply arent words for what perfect hosts she and matthew are...thank you a thousand times over!
other highlights include: meeting miss moira (we were lucky that her stay and ours overlapped! ); meeting maiwan at one of the BC burlesque festivals events; spending more time with glitch; relaxing &tea &talking &giggling; gorgeous weather (even if it was still really chilly); deliciousness in the form of sushi &other japanese yummies, bizarre canadian shirley temples, gelato, the foundation, and loads of candy; parking tickets; and puking. okay, maybe the last two weren't highlights, per se, but they happened!
(me &silencia, by mr. matthew)
(on the way to dinner)
&some stolen from silencia:
(me, moira, cherry, silencia, &glitch)
&before THAT, lyxzen got her drivers license (finally), &finalized all of the name change business, too:
me &silencia leave for our california road trip next week, &wed love to shoot a set or two, but we cant seem to get a hold of any of the photographers along our route...cross your fingers for us, &if youd like to support our cause, you know what to do!
to switch gears a little bit, ive been having some really weird anxiety lately. i was initially thinking it was PMS, but its too frequent, even on-going now. these mini-vacations helped for a bit, but now im getting the anxiety while im away from home, too. i just have this overall feeling of dread &panic, not really about any one thing in particular. i feel like there are a million things i should be doing, but i cant seem to work up the motivation i used to be able to...has anyone else had to deal with this? if you could share your exeperiences, or any words of encouragement or advice, itd be a big help! something tells me watching shitty romantic comedies on my netflix instant viewing thinger ISNT the cure... 
MAY 12, 2008 11:36 PM
That was one big-ass fun weekend for you!
A friend of mine went to Emerald City... her first ever con. She was giddy about it. I need to introduce her to the San Diego one, Hoooooooooooly shitballs. She would DIE.
As for photographers, I don't know, sorry.
I'm not even gonna put my name out there... heh 
MAY 13, 2008 05:48 AM
thank you so much for all the wonderful pics and the nice update. It was a wonderful read. You are one of my faves so I always look forward to hearing from you. As for the anxiety, etc. I have bipolar and borderline personality disorder so anxiety and panic is part of my daily life. I don't have much advise since everyone is different, but I keep a daily journal so I can sometimes track what triggers my episodes (when you are in one, its kinda hard to figure it out). Also, maybe talk to your doctor and he can give you a mild anti-anxiety medicine that you can take as needed. I'm on Klonopin, but thats not mild. I think the journal might really help. It doesn't stop my episodes but it at least helps me be aware of what triggers me so then I can work on overcoming those fears. Mind you, i didn't say avoid them, cause then you would probably just be a house-bound wreck, but overcoming them. I hope this helps some and if you ever want to talk about it, Just hit me up. Im a good listener. 
MAY 13, 2008 11:03 AM
I loved the pics...thanks so much for sharing!!!!
That looked like such a fun weekend. It made me wish I was there.
I can't wait to see the set you did with Cherry...two of my favs 
About the anxiety, dark_chylde had a good idea about keeping a journal so you can track your triggers. It probably wouldn't hurt to talk to the doc. about a mild anti-anxiety med either. I don't suffer from anxiety, but my mom does. She takes a mild med. daily and it has helped her a lot.
Another thing that can be helpful is to learn some deep breathing techniques to help stop the anxiety when it's happening. Meditation can help also. There are some great books that teach these things to help with anxiety if you look in the bookstore in the psychology or self-help section.
Good luck!
MAY 13, 2008 11:10 AM
great pics
looks like a great time
hmmm... anxiety... when i get that way i take a nap, but i seem to be a genius at procrastination and ignorance and that helps too, but i wouldn't recommend those 2 things
naps and some meditating relaxation, even for a minute or 2, helps alot to focus and relax just breeathe and concentrate on nothing but letting the stress and anxiety loose and float away from the body
MAY 13, 2008 11:14 AM
I don't have any good advice for the anxiety, I think. I had a couple incidents where I felt panicked before my trip to WA. I was worried about money, event planning, etc... I ended up dealing with it by working overtime. I think this worked because it occupied my mind and I wasn't able to think about the things that were making me anxious. It also helps that I like my job and that I was also solving another problem... the money. So, I don't really think that applies to you. But, maybe it can. What do you like to do? Maybe you can fill that time when you feel anxious with something like volunteering/ doing something that you enjoy? I dunno! 
MAY 13, 2008 02:51 PM
sadly, dear, i had to go all the way to medication. oh well, so my biology is deficient, whatever. 
that, plus the discipline to live a good life, elimination of toxins (at least cleansing often), and a powerful sense of self-worth is all you really need. find a way to help yourself relax and remind yourself that all is good. not everything can be done at one specific moment. as long as you're not wasting away, you're doing well!
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