So my 20th birthday was topped off with a bang. A really awesome gathering of my nearest and dearest in my home town. Fuck I don't want to be twenty. As I haven't actually spoken the words, I'm twenty in response to the terrifying question, 'How old are you?', It's not actually real yet.

I failed at my 365 for a few days, but I'm back on track and I'm not going to slip off the radar again. This was mainly due to three things: Being adopted by Knightsbridge folk, My laptop being so shit that it doesn't have a functioning battery, and mainly being lame.

I've fallen in love with Knightsbridge, the people, the place, the food, Greenwich seems like a lifetime away now.









for my birthday i received: a beautiful gold mulberry bag, some much needed cash, the amazing book Geek Love, a couple other wonderful books, some journals, deadwood boxset, a membership to the chelsea club gym, and lots of love.

Apart from that, I STILL haven't seen Avatar!

p.s go check out Bow's amazing new set, Soul Meets Body

Big Love.

it's my birthday and i'm going to have a motherfucking party thank you very much.








I love you all.

It's a new year. Time for new beginnings, new aspirations, new adventures and lots of work.

To be honest, I feel exhausted even thinking about it.

I turn twenty this sunday. I'm fucking terrified. I was barely 18 when I started here, and the idea of no londer being a teenager scares the hell out of be. I'm the most irresponsible person in the world. I dress in big people's clothes, and have a big person's life, but all I want to do is to be looked after by my mum.

I started a 365, just like everybody else. Call me a lemming but I thought it would be a great way to positively document my recovery, day by day, just as I live it.



















I haven't left the house all day, we are snowed in. I spent today finishing my university project and throwing up. I don't know what's happening to me, I think it must be a bug, but it's been 3 days and i certainly can't afford to lose any weight and undo the good work we've done.

I start my HRT's next week.I've heard they are a bitch, does anybody have any experience of them?

over and out.

Today I reached my target weight. A new start in 2010? I really hope so. Going to see the girls today made me realise how far I've come, to not slip back into the way things were will make 2010 a very successful year indeed.

I think I'm leaving Illustration. I want to join the circus if my bones allow it, either that or to go into medicine. I suppose they couldn't be further from each other, but Medicine is my father's profession, which I've always excelled at and found fascinating, and the doors would be somewhat already opened for me.

Maybe.

I got some incredible christmas presents:

This kind of sums my life up right now.

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year

!

x

I don't know how to feel. 2009 has been the year of death. although, I could say that about 2007 and 2008 also. Maybe I'm just more aware of it. I miss her. I miss the way she smells, the way she laughs when things arent funny, the way she licks my face when she goes to tell me a secret. I miss the colour of her skin, and the sound of her voice.

I feel so lost, and I'm such a moany bitch.

I just got back from Barbados, the jetlag is killing me, I'm so sick.







I'm twenty in two weeks, I'm losing my hair, I can't imagine not being a teenager anymore, i feel like such a child still

The really good news? My recovery is going really really well. I have three more weeks until I'm completely discharged from the programme, almost a year since I was diagnosed and admitted. It's felt like the longest year.

I have some amazing people in my life, one person in particular. I don't want to spoil it, but things seem to be going really well. I think I'm falling in love again.

This site kind of bores me now, I don't feel any attachment to it. if and when I shoot and submit another set, I think I will remember what i was so excited about, but for now the one set a day thing means I get angry when i see amazing sets that don't get bought, so i've stopped looking altogether.

Sleep time. xxx

So It's been a bit of a crazy couple of weeks. Crazy in the sense that nothing has really happened, but my life has been turned upside down.

I'm doing pretty well in terms of my recovery, Some of my friends aren't doing so well, but I think that's actually driving me to be healthy, instead of dragging me down.

Another picture from Steve:



A photobooth:



And a couple more photos from New York.











I'm fucking obsessed with 90210 right now. Obsessed.

Peace.

Finally. Thank you staff, you bought a really amazing set that deserved to go up. I hope this is the future.

p.s. i do love all the sets but yes i am referring to the beautiful and unique viking

I was inspired by bitten's blog to list all the things i am thankful for on the first thanksgiving I've experienced firsthand.

I am thankful for my amazing family who has been so supportive this past year
I am thankful for being accepted into Camberwell School of Art
I am thankful for Bow, Disco and Abbiss being in my life.
I am thankful for my wonderful boyfriend, I love him despite his many flaws.
I am thankful for the staff at the hospital who were encouraging, stuck to the rules, and were very often mean for my own good.
I am thankful for all the other girls in the Unit, and I am thankful for the time I spent with the girls we lost along the way
I am thankful for my beautiful apartment
I am thankful for my gorgeous baby sister, I'm not so thankful for the terrible toddler masquerading as my other younger sister.
I am thankful for the amazing opportunities to work with photographers like 2shadowland, LeeGillies, and tmronin.
I am thankful for the chance to visit Prague, Athens, Tunisia, and New York
I am thankful to staff for purchasing two of my sets this year when so many other amazing sets did not get purchased, I am so grateful and so undeserving.
I am thankful for the weight that I have gained, as it means i can buy regular clothes!
I am thankful for being part of the PETA campaign
I am thankful that this year is ending so much better than it started.

and I am always, always thankful for boobs.

Good news: New York was awesome. I shot with tmronin, watched the thanksgiving macy's day parade, ate the most amazing cheesecake ever, rode in a limo, drew on a blackboard table and had pizza at grimaldi's in brooklyn.











Bad News: apparently I have grade B osteoporosis now. I don't quite know what it means, I find out on monday so i'll give you the low down then!


I am so so jet lagged, I arrived at 8 this morning, i'm all over the place. I feel like watching porn and eating cookie dough ice cream.

On to bigger and better things.

Slutty Myspace-esque pictures? I think yes.





and a curvier, happier Lyvia to boot.





plus, pre make up halloween pictures,





i am addicted to twitter follow me bitches

Ipswich was so nice, I miss the girls so much it hurts. I feel a massive sense of lonliness in Greenwich. At least I have two months of veronica mars recorded to get me through the long nights. sorry i'm so bad at replying to massages, I'll get back to you all i PROMISE.

p.s check out the new Peta2 campaign

http://breakshearts.peta2.com/?c=p23887
I'm so happy to have been involved!


that's all folks, night night.