I got my freak on.







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This week started badly, and has ended pretty awesomely. I have some amazing friends.

You were so beautiful, even at your worst. You were so kind and you didn't deserve this horrible illness, I'm so sad to see yet another one of you wonderful ladies go. I will miss you always, I thank you for inspiring me and the others to recover, even when you couldn't.

I hope to see you again one day.


Uni is amazing, I've made some amazing friends and really got into my course. We made a crazy viral film the other day using our costumes: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cTrs8hVI-BE

I've done loads more work, I've been working my ass off and I'll photograph them soon.

Kisses and love from your small blonde friend.

I've never felt so sick in my llfe. Amsterdam was amazing, this week my life has been turned upside down. I have no idea how this happened, all I know is I want to curl up and avoid it until it goes away.

I've been a busy girl, and here are the resullts.



























Thank you all so much for your kind comments, I didn't expect the response you all gave to my last blog. Things are marginally better now, I feel a lot better anyway.

AMSTERDAM MONDAY!

I am a fucking mess. You don't love me, you are so closed minded and hurtful; I don't understand why you are even still here. I don't know why I'm still here when it seems you are disgusted with everything I believe in.

So my 20th birthday was topped off with a bang. A really awesome gathering of my nearest and dearest in my home town. Fuck I don't want to be twenty. As I haven't actually spoken the words, I'm twenty in response to the terrifying question, 'How old are you?', It's not actually real yet.

I failed at my 365 for a few days, but I'm back on track and I'm not going to slip off the radar again. This was mainly due to three things: Being adopted by Knightsbridge folk, My laptop being so shit that it doesn't have a functioning battery, and mainly being lame.

I've fallen in love with Knightsbridge, the people, the place, the food, Greenwich seems like a lifetime away now.









for my birthday i received: a beautiful gold mulberry bag, some much needed cash, the amazing book Geek Love, a couple other wonderful books, some journals, deadwood boxset, a membership to the chelsea club gym, and lots of love.

Apart from that, I STILL haven't seen Avatar!

p.s go check out Bow's amazing new set, Soul Meets Body

Big Love.

it's my birthday and i'm going to have a motherfucking party thank you very much.








I love you all.

It's a new year. Time for new beginnings, new aspirations, new adventures and lots of work.

To be honest, I feel exhausted even thinking about it.

I turn twenty this sunday. I'm fucking terrified. I was barely 18 when I started here, and the idea of no londer being a teenager scares the hell out of be. I'm the most irresponsible person in the world. I dress in big people's clothes, and have a big person's life, but all I want to do is to be looked after by my mum.

I started a 365, just like everybody else. Call me a lemming but I thought it would be a great way to positively document my recovery, day by day, just as I live it.



















I haven't left the house all day, we are snowed in. I spent today finishing my university project and throwing up. I don't know what's happening to me, I think it must be a bug, but it's been 3 days and i certainly can't afford to lose any weight and undo the good work we've done.

I start my HRT's next week.I've heard they are a bitch, does anybody have any experience of them?

over and out.

Today I reached my target weight. A new start in 2010? I really hope so. Going to see the girls today made me realise how far I've come, to not slip back into the way things were will make 2010 a very successful year indeed.

I think I'm leaving Illustration. I want to join the circus if my bones allow it, either that or to go into medicine. I suppose they couldn't be further from each other, but Medicine is my father's profession, which I've always excelled at and found fascinating, and the doors would be somewhat already opened for me.

Maybe.

I got some incredible christmas presents:

This kind of sums my life up right now.

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year

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