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My snake escaped. I now live on my own, with a python roaming round loose somewhere in my apartment. I also think she chewed through the cable to my fridge and that's why it's not working. I don't know if snakes do that, but i'm blaming her anyway. Let's not think about that, and look at some photos instead.
and the new nose:
and the new nose:
The healing process is a funny thing, it is gradual, it is relentless. Day five after the op and I still feel as bad as when I came out, but I know for a fact that the pain, the swelling, the bruising, the stuffiness, the bleeding is all pretty much gone. It's like I need the original pain back to appreciate how much better i feel now, I have to remind myself to keep myself in check, otherwise I end up wallowing in self pity and that helps no one.
and I may have purchased a buzz lightyear jacket.
I completely forgot about the band 3 Doors Down, they used to be my ultimate favourite band, and I was gently reminded about them just a few days ago, so i went nuts and ordered their entire discography from the internet, now that's arrived i have no intention of ever listening to anything ever again.
It's taken this long to meet him, but he's incredible. He is everything I want and need, and he wants me too, which I am still shocked about. I understand life a little better now, everything does happen for a reason, I have appreciated being single these six or so months because it's made me a better person, I am no longer insecure or solitary or restricted. I have my own life, my own passions, and I've found someone who I can seriously see sharing my life with. He gives me butterflies, and he makes me not want to think about any other man ever again. I can declare myself no longer single, and it came when I was least expecting it. I am the happiest I have been in a long long time.
I am slowly working my way through your lovely messages, sorry I've been so useless lately, I don't come on here so much anymore, I miss the friends i made and the things we did. Saying that, the SG night at Punk was pretty fun, I got to hang out and talk to some really amazing girls, I miss some of them already.
p.s.
Kisses x
and I may have purchased a buzz lightyear jacket.
I completely forgot about the band 3 Doors Down, they used to be my ultimate favourite band, and I was gently reminded about them just a few days ago, so i went nuts and ordered their entire discography from the internet, now that's arrived i have no intention of ever listening to anything ever again.
It's taken this long to meet him, but he's incredible. He is everything I want and need, and he wants me too, which I am still shocked about. I understand life a little better now, everything does happen for a reason, I have appreciated being single these six or so months because it's made me a better person, I am no longer insecure or solitary or restricted. I have my own life, my own passions, and I've found someone who I can seriously see sharing my life with. He gives me butterflies, and he makes me not want to think about any other man ever again. I can declare myself no longer single, and it came when I was least expecting it. I am the happiest I have been in a long long time.
I am slowly working my way through your lovely messages, sorry I've been so useless lately, I don't come on here so much anymore, I miss the friends i made and the things we did. Saying that, the SG night at Punk was pretty fun, I got to hang out and talk to some really amazing girls, I miss some of them already.
p.s.
Kisses x
Dear Nose. We've worked well together all these years, you've done a lot for me, I don't know that I would be the person that I am today without you, but after twenty years of residence on my face, I feel it's time I take you in a new direction, tailor you to fit my needs and aesthetics. Essentially, it will still be you, but you won't look the same anymore. People won't recognise my Jewish heritage when they see you, and people won't insist that you are in fashion, and give me character. You'll just be a nose. I'm not sure how I feel about that, I'm not good with farewells and I'm going to miss you dearly some days. I'm hoping that it subsides after a while, and I can appreciate your new form fully and without regret. It's been a long time coming, some may even say I've held off as long as I could, I didn't want to cause you pain intentionally, and I'm not sure yet how the rest of my face will react, I hope it's favourably and you can all work together again, although the dynamic may change, in essence, you'll all still be together.
I have to warn you, it's soon. It's happening at nine o clock on monday morning, I'm not sure if you can tell time, but if you can, at least you know. I've heard it isn't too painful, so you shouldn't worry about that, we've prepared for it, you and I. We'll pull through. I hope you don't decide to be bitter about this whole affair, and decide to rob me of my identity, I'd hope that we've come too far for that, we haven't always worked in harmony but ultimately I'd like to consider myself a friend, no hard feelings. Take care nose, farewell, I'll miss you, I promise.
x
p.s I've met a boy, he's australian and he's rather wonderful
My kidneys are playing up again, I've been peeing blood for almost a week now. As I write this I'm sitting on my bathroom floor, it's 6am and i haven't slept because of the pain, I can hear people going to work. It's marginally depressing.
I'll leave you with a photograph of the nose as it is now, before the surgery, and I'll give you one after.
And if you happen to be in the London area this saturday, come down to our very own Suicidegirls night at Punk.
I have to warn you, it's soon. It's happening at nine o clock on monday morning, I'm not sure if you can tell time, but if you can, at least you know. I've heard it isn't too painful, so you shouldn't worry about that, we've prepared for it, you and I. We'll pull through. I hope you don't decide to be bitter about this whole affair, and decide to rob me of my identity, I'd hope that we've come too far for that, we haven't always worked in harmony but ultimately I'd like to consider myself a friend, no hard feelings. Take care nose, farewell, I'll miss you, I promise.
x
p.s I've met a boy, he's australian and he's rather wonderful
My kidneys are playing up again, I've been peeing blood for almost a week now. As I write this I'm sitting on my bathroom floor, it's 6am and i haven't slept because of the pain, I can hear people going to work. It's marginally depressing.
I'll leave you with a photograph of the nose as it is now, before the surgery, and I'll give you one after.
And if you happen to be in the London area this saturday, come down to our very own Suicidegirls night at Punk.
Summer's almost over here, I can smell Autumn in the air and I don't like it.
In spite of myself, and circumstance, I've had a good summer. it's the first summer being single and instead of being filled with promiscuity and bad judgement like I feared, it was spent really getting to know people, doing things I could never whilst I had a boyfriend, I had no one to worry about or think about but myself.
Not that it matters, but the whole summer was spent completely sober, I was worried that singledom was no fun unless you were drunk, but I've disproven that!
The highlights of my summer have been:
meeting this amazing girl.
finding out there are so many sweet shops in my area.
and getting my beautiful snake pythagoras.
In spite of myself, and circumstance, I've had a good summer. it's the first summer being single and instead of being filled with promiscuity and bad judgement like I feared, it was spent really getting to know people, doing things I could never whilst I had a boyfriend, I had no one to worry about or think about but myself.
Not that it matters, but the whole summer was spent completely sober, I was worried that singledom was no fun unless you were drunk, but I've disproven that!
The highlights of my summer have been:
meeting this amazing girl.
finding out there are so many sweet shops in my area.
and getting my beautiful snake pythagoras.
Got up at 4am with my mother to drive to the airport only to realise we were a day early.
I wasn't even remotely surprised, it's a typical day in my mother's life, last year she didn't realise her passport had expired, the year before she picked up some other poor woman's luggage and had no clothes the whole holiday. I've got the 4am start to look forward to again this morning. awesome.
Also, some idiot at my insurance company thought it would be a fantastic idea to give me a brand new 5 series bmw as a courtesy car. Fucked up the alloys already, of course, but at least I look cool.
I've developed a slight obsession with drawing birds.
I went to a wedding:
Played some strip poker with bow
and went to Chessington's world of Adventures.
xxx
I wasn't even remotely surprised, it's a typical day in my mother's life, last year she didn't realise her passport had expired, the year before she picked up some other poor woman's luggage and had no clothes the whole holiday. I've got the 4am start to look forward to again this morning. awesome.
Also, some idiot at my insurance company thought it would be a fantastic idea to give me a brand new 5 series bmw as a courtesy car. Fucked up the alloys already, of course, but at least I look cool.
I've developed a slight obsession with drawing birds.
I went to a wedding:
Played some strip poker with bow
and went to Chessington's world of Adventures.
xxx
Come thursday, she will be my new housemate:
I have been shooting a lot.
I've been decorating:
And my car was hit by a big car.
That's all folks, show me your week in pictures
I have been shooting a lot.
I've been decorating:
And my car was hit by a big car.
That's all folks, show me your week in pictures
Some days I'm fine, like really fine, and then some days I'm a fucking mess.
Sometimes I will go two or three days without thinking about you, and then on the third day, I'll find something we bought together, or someone will ask how you are and I'll break down. It isn't normal, not after this much time. I need to remember to hate you for all the times you took me for granted, the time I found all that shit on your computer and you lied about it, and all the ties you told me since, I need to hate you for the way you disregarded a two and a half year relationship, and cut me out of your life, without seeming at all fazed. I hate and love days like this, I hate them because I know you don't have them, and I feel pathetic, and I love them because I know you never got to feel as amazing as I did, because I was really in love, and I guess you just wasted two and a half years of your life. I feel sorry for you for that, I wish you could have felt what I felt, maybe you'll understand one day, maybe you won't, but I'll be fine, I'm moving on and it's not because of you.
Sometimes I will go two or three days without thinking about you, and then on the third day, I'll find something we bought together, or someone will ask how you are and I'll break down. It isn't normal, not after this much time. I need to remember to hate you for all the times you took me for granted, the time I found all that shit on your computer and you lied about it, and all the ties you told me since, I need to hate you for the way you disregarded a two and a half year relationship, and cut me out of your life, without seeming at all fazed. I hate and love days like this, I hate them because I know you don't have them, and I feel pathetic, and I love them because I know you never got to feel as amazing as I did, because I was really in love, and I guess you just wasted two and a half years of your life. I feel sorry for you for that, I wish you could have felt what I felt, maybe you'll understand one day, maybe you won't, but I'll be fine, I'm moving on and it's not because of you.
