i should be rushing but i'm not in the mood.

got that shoot today, little bit nervous, and i feel super bloated. ughhhh

i went to take a photo of the finished tattoo yesterday and my friend had 'borrowed' my camera til friday, so no photos yet.

i really want a puppy, or a tiny tiny kitten. but i'm not allowed because of uni next year.

it's a hard life

oh and my parents don't know i do suicidegirls, as they think i'm this sweet innocent thing, and i left my folder of all my pictures from my last set up on the screen, so my mum saw that first thing this morning.

she didnt actually look me in the eye when she left. it was amazing.

argh i'd better make a move
x

afternoon ladies and gents

so i just got back from the interview, i say interview but it was the most informal thing ever. i'm so glad it's over though.

and i didnt realise, but wimbledon's actually fucking miles away. i dont know if i could do that every day.

i still hope i get it though.

i got a really nice text today, it made me smile. it said; 'i totally miss you.'

from someone that is so ridiculously guarded with his emotions.
this is probably the sweetest thing he's ever said to me, and i totally miss him too.

tattoo tonight, my roses will finally be finished. i shall put up photos when it stops looking super scummy.

excited!

i'm actually in the best mood ever today.

i have my interview for wimbledon on tuesdayy, so i'm so excited!
although my portfolio is still in pieces.

i have a photoshoot next week, so that is awesome. plus, money money money. oh and that reminds me, i got paid today!

plus i've been speaking to this boy again, and that's made me happy


good day.

blah blah blah.



thats exactly how i feel.



also, i'm not even going to college tomorrow, and i'm going to bluewater with my mother. don't i feel like the coolest person on the planet.

college sucks arse, so i'm actually in the best mood ever right now. especially with the thought that i dont have to get up at half 5.

my grandmother wants us out of the house by 12 though. thats when her gentleman friend comes over.
i came home once when he was here and she sent me out of the house. i had to wait in a side road in my car for an hour and a half as i couldn't find any friends that day.


thats granny.

she creeps me out, but in so many ways i hope i'm like her when im older.

x

i have work today. i so need to get out of there, it depresses me. i don't belong, and they make that quite clear.

i'll just have fun while it lasts

i cant wait to get a real job...... wait did i seriously write that?

so my first set went up yesterday

i was like ridiculously happy until i read the comments on the blog subscription post thing on my myspace

and some guy said i wasn't even a suicidegirl, and someone said i had a fatass.

niiiiiiiice. that'll be the last time i read that.

i did have the most amazing weekend though, i wandered up to londres and took a walk along the thames.

it was one of the best weekends i've had in a long time, and with my set going live to finish it off!

just wonderful.

i. feel. like. hell.

i had trifle this evening, breaking my rich tea biscuit diet. i felt faint after about 3 hours, i spose 7 rich teas are like a pre-pre snack for me though.

had a good day, work was ok actually, my new manager is lovely, i was so scared. i walked into work also, so i felt a little bit healthier. although it was like a gazillion degrees and i was wearing black tights, black coat, black bag, black shoes and a scarf. people looked at me like i was insane.

going to get some sleep, up at 6 for hellish college.

oh i cant wait to get kicked out.

ugh, so i'm still here.
had the worst day EVER yesterday, as my father is devoid of emotion and is what we would typically categorize as an insensitive bastard, but today's been a bit better, i woke up this morning and got a taxi to the mall, on my own, and bought lots of pretty things. probably the reason i'm having such a good day is because of the lack of human contact.

i really miss everybody back in england though, how sad is that. it's been three days, and i'm really homesick, this never happens. i was saying to my boyfriend yesterday that the tables have completely turned, usually i regard greece as my home and england as my temporary living situation, but i dont know how, or when it happened, but i've fallen in love with england. greece isn't the same anymore.

all the people out here look at me like i'm a freak, and i'm pretty conservative when i'm here. my family is falling to pieces; my 49 year old father and his 25 year old wife arent even speaking, and my poor sister is in the middle. not to sound like a jealous sibling or anything, but she gets all the attention too, i mean thats to be expected, she's a cute new baby. but i rarely come ove, and i'm only here for a week, and my father hasnt even had a conversation to me. poor tania (my stepmother) cant speak english, bless her heart, so we speak greek, which my father is furious about as he wants me to speak english around the baby so she's bilingual too.

it's all very confusing. i spend most of my time hiding in my room, on the phone to my friends in england, and i had a bit of a cry on the metro yesterday, so it hasnt been the dream holiday so far.

and guess what? i just dont tan. my skin REPELS sunlight, i swear. i'll post a before and after picture when i leave.

last summer when we went to italy, everybody told me that i was the only person they'd ever seen get WHITER after sunbathing. no joke. i'm just not human. its the only explanation i think. either that or i'm not greek after all and my parents have fed me one big lie. i'm not sure which is more probable.

so this is a nice albanian gentleman who gave me a rose while we were stuck in traffic. usually they get narcy if you dont have any money but he just said, dont worry pretty lady, heres a rose to brighten your life. well he said it in stilted greek, but its all just as nice.



oh and here's my almost adolescent stepmother with anamaria, this photo made me laugh.



i can't wait to come home, although i have a photoshoot tomorrow so i'm pretty excited about that.

i'll update when i know more

xx

so this is my beautiful sister anamaria karagianni





she does this thing where she cocks her head to the side and smiles but looks kind of stoned. also she's getting to the age where she realises that she can manipulate us, so she pretends to be asleep when we come in the room. god knows why.

today i think i actually had the laziest day ever, i got up at half one, have some breakfast, went for a swim in the pool, ate some more, went to the mall, came home and watched baywatch, it was awesome.
i've said about three words to my dad though, which sucks, but he's preoccupied with anamaria so it's difficult to have a conversation.

i started tai bo again, i forgot how good it felt. i ached a little after, but it was worth it. i'm going to try to make it part of my new routine.

i started thinking about ideas for a new set today, i want to get one shot as soon as my current set gets queued, but godknows how long that will be. i'm going to try to rope the beautiful akemi into shooting me another set, as i felt super comfortable with her.

all in all, it's been a good day, i bought some fabulous shoes, and a dress for my sister's baptism, so this perked me up.


i'm off to get some MORE sleep. although i've decided to go for a run tomorrow.ugh. i might wait til the evening though, when it cools down, as i think i may melt otherwise.

kalinixta paidia!

goodnight
xx

i'm in greeeeeeeeeeece!!

i'm so happy to be home, although my friend jessie left yesterday, which was a bummer.

but still, i've got to see my sister for the first time since november and she is soooo cute.

i'm going to take some AWESOME photos of her tomorrow, and i'll put them up.

i went to a great party yesterday, i dressed up and everything, i fekt like a girl for once, it was brilliant. although getting on a plane after 5 hours sleep is never advised. i feel like hell.

i bought some ridiculously chocolatey creamy amazing cake, and i'm slowly but surely making my way through it. you should see the smile i have on my face, i'm actually beaming it's so good.

oh and why do people try to make conversations on planes? if i wanted a new best friend, i wouldnt be facing away from you with my head in a book and my headphones in. maybe i'm just super antisocial but a plane journey isnt going to be the beginnings of a budding friendship, so why bother

ha. i bought britney's album, just out of curiosity. my boyfriend has this conspiracy theory that its not actually britney singing, and that its the record company going 'oh shitt what are we going to do, she's in rehab again! we need some good press.' so they make some random person sound like her, to boost her image again. i mean seriously, where would she have the time to record, what with being in court and being crazy and everything. it would also explain why she cant sing her own songs.
i'd like to think this is true. i think she's amazing though, in some insane way.

i'm getting my tattoos finally finished next week just the colour on the roses left, and then i can start on my shoulders, cannot wait! although i'm going to be broke again.

well i'm going to shower and be clean and climb into bed and watch prison break and finish my wonderful cake

xx