It's a new year. Time for new beginnings, new aspirations, new adventures and lots of work.

To be honest, I feel exhausted even thinking about it.

I turn twenty this sunday. I'm fucking terrified. I was barely 18 when I started here, and the idea of no londer being a teenager scares the hell out of be. I'm the most irresponsible person in the world. I dress in big people's clothes, and have a big person's life, but all I want to do is to be looked after by my mum.

I started a 365, just like everybody else. Call me a lemming but I thought it would be a great way to positively document my recovery, day by day, just as I live it.



















I haven't left the house all day, we are snowed in. I spent today finishing my university project and throwing up. I don't know what's happening to me, I think it must be a bug, but it's been 3 days and i certainly can't afford to lose any weight and undo the good work we've done.

I start my HRT's next week.I've heard they are a bitch, does anybody have any experience of them?

over and out.