Happy and sweet Valentine's Day my friends!

~Lumiere

In the middle of the night I've finally completed all my duties. Now it's time to listen to the silence and enter some kind of holiday mode. Everyone else is sleeping which is very nice cause I really need this peace and loneliness. That is what makes my Christmas these days.

I feel calm, content and lucky. I don't need anything else but I know I'll get a lot more. I'm thankful for my life as it is right here, right now.

Here's a crappy phonecam pic from last year. I love my pretty little sister and she's here again with me <3



I wish you all very relaxing and beautiful Christmas!

I'm very ashamed to admit it's been years since I've walk out of my local library with tons of something else than nonfictional stuff. It's time for me to think about something else than advancing my studies. I really need something that takes me away and shows me this world from some other perspective than my own beacause at the moment I don't find my own wievs too inspiring.

I decided to begin my escapist textual travels with Simone de Beauvoir cause I find her words encouraging, appealing and of course empowering. Just what I need right now cause my self-esteem and fragile comprehension concerning the direction of my life seem to have vanished during recent lifechanges. Or maybe it's this age when you finally realise life is actually passing you by. I'm getting so old (chronologically) and I should have done so many things to be able to relax and feel I made it. But I didn't and it's ok but it still sometimes hurts.

If you have some book recommendations for these purposes and for these kind of moments I'd be really glad if you could leave me a comment.

Good morning, I'm Dr. Pain...