Sigh, yes, I know, I'm overdue for an update. My presence here sucks ass. I'm a bitch for not answering any of my email. But I will try to string some words together . . .(Apparently as it turns out, I have ADD, so no wonder I could never sit still enough to complete stuff or finish the millions of things I start at once! Why has no one ever pointed this out to me? It's a struggle!) Anyway . . .

Today I simply have got to announce there's a multi in Members Review showcasing me and my sweetest Annika in sultry heat whilst clue-hunting - please go check it out : Personal Effects !!! I love her a great deal. I joke around she's my wife, so every time she calls, my phone lights up naggingly with "MY WIFE" - which is very endearing to see. I should have gotten JUST a little more drunk as to take worse advantage of her . . . *ahem* Also, props to Zoetica as always, & forever.



Oh! And not to mention the supernifty craziness that is the (free!) iPhone app - the Flip Switch! Featuring me and a whole host of other SG lovelies <3 It's just a simple app, but I love the retro idea, that it's made new and modern.




Onto comments I frequently encounter :

1) What nationality?
I am Taiwanese mixed with Dutch.

2) Ew, you don't have tats or piercings!
My god, if you GAVE me the money I TOTALLY WOULD. Shit. I totally DON'T KNOW where to get money for things like that. Also, I don't know if my skin will take it well, that I have to find out, but it does NOT make me any less HARDCORE than the rest of the gals here. ^_^ You have no idea . . .

3) You're anorexic! You're fat!
I am neither. I am on the slender side, with a lot of parts that really need toning up and firming.

4) You look too young.
WHAT? I'm 27! Halfway to 28! Hah. (Gag.)
I have wrinkles!

5) WTF? You live in a castle?
Yes, I have for the past 7 years. It is a late 1920's castle. Absolutely beautiful. Also absolutely expensive, which is why I'm usually preoccupied with work, monetary matters and other boring & stressful stuff.


Onto other stuff . . .
Since I obviously suck at emails (sorries!), it's better to try tracking me on Flickr or on Twitter. You'll be more likely to get a response from me there than here.

I'm in the middle of a lot of massive hopes. I moved into a castle with someone who promised it was forever & ever. Well, it didn't turn out that way. I thought, well, I like the place so much, I'll stay anyway. While it was, I think, still better than the option to move back home to Mom's (my mom is very conservative and old-school in scary ways) - I DO NOT RECOMMEND LIVING WITH AN EX EVER. It was one of the hardest things I've ever done, mentally. I thought I could do it, but no, it's not that easy. It wasn't so much that he brought other girls home - that I didn't care about - it was looking at him every morning and thinking, "You failed me. You failed us. How could you? Why would you? I did fucking everything I could."

Long story short, it's obviously a BAD place for me, so I'm really wanting and hoping I'll move out, sooner than later. Like, in 2-3 weeks! I don't even KNOW if it's feasible. I would have moved out a long time ago, but my credit was shot from trying to support life in the castle (Rent is halfway to $4K, and I paid upwards of $2K, I know - I was young and foolish, haha - I thought love was the only thing that mattered, and that's only true if it is not one-sided . . . ) and every roommate I tried to find had a pet (I'm very allergic). But with the economy the way it is now, perhaps landlords will be more sympathetic about my bad credit.

Finally --- I've found a possible & seemingly supercompatible roommate after 3 years of looking. Except, I have no money. Brilliant. I pretty much have hardly any nice clothes left, no bank account, no paypal account, used up all my life insurance, my car insurance even!, did all kinds of tricky things, uhm . . . I did everything but sell my computer, which I still lack parts to get it fully up and running.

Which leads me to . . . Are any of you interested in prints?!
Help a girl out a little? Help me move away from a place of heartbreak, of utter disappointment, and help me start anew? I've never needed a fresh clean slate as much as right now - I either remain trapped in this castle, or trapped with my overbearing mother, or onto something so much more promising and hopefully will allow me to JUST BE ME and be more of a situation that will allow me to grow and become a better person with a better life and . . . everything.

I'm considering doing these prints, with archival ink
(lasts 100+ years / Epson Ultrachrome K3),
on primed *CANVAS*, small, about 5 x 7 inches.
Yes, it's me fancifully covered in blood
$7 each?




I can also print bigger sizes on silver rag (super nice photo paper) of any of my set pictures, although I have to ask Zoetica for that and that might take time as she's a very busy gal! Price would be dependent on paper size, but I suppose a 8 x 11 would cost about $18 (each ink cartridge can run up to about $90, and there's 8 cartridges to worry about!).

I might also sell the pink shredded sweater thing I was wearing in my first set. Gosh, I mean, I have hardly anything left, I don't know what to sell . . . Anyway, I really need to pack up and go and leave all this negativity and bad luggage behind. Somehow. (My possible roommate can't wait, hence the rush of moving 2-3 weeks come what may, or I'm just stuck in this unfortunate place forever?! No . . . !!!)


Anyone wanna buy this oil painting of mine?
It's gigantic! About 40 x 50 inches. Theme is Beauty & the Beast.
(Yes, I am a painter, so I would like to move, find a cheaper place,
and actually concentrate on my goddamn talent instead of always
stressing about where money is coming from for rent.)
If you want it, it's yours for $1900 with shipping included!





There's another painting, it's very, very old. Done in 2001 or something like that. It's a rockabilly / pin-up style portrait based off Dita Von Teese. It's 12 x 12 inches, flecked with gold, done in oil, and super fucking cute! $120 with shipping included.





Much appreciated if you pass on the info to anyone who might be interested in prints or paintings. Thanks for any help you can possibly give! HELP ME MOVE ON ~ ! ! ! XOXO's GALORE !!! Now, I wrap this up with this picture I took of a rose :



--- my love is like a red, red rose // that's newly sprung in june