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Now that the month is almost over, I feel like I have some room to breathe, and can start to think clearly again.
I don't know about you, but this month has been pretty intense, and filled with unexpected twists and turns, on even the simplest of levels.
There were three eclipses these past two months that were said to influence the way we live, and these three astrological events were saying to let go of ideals, beliefs and habits that no longer serve you... Boy, did I ever feel this!
In terms of how birthdays go, I can't say that this was the greatest birthday. On the surface, I was thankful to have that day to be thankful for my birth. However, on a deeper level, I was going through a few things that had brought up issues from the "deep dark past" that everyone of us has.
For instance, this month I've really had to look at where I stand with how I attract what I get in my life. I would consider myself a pretty positive person, but I am now aware of a few negative thought patterns that have kept me with a limited view of my world. I consider money to be more of a negative thing than a positive one. Although, I'm beginning to see that it is neither good or bad. Its just a tool, and you can think of it as you want, but its still not going to replace human contact, unless you solemnly want it to.
I feel as though getting off the grid is the only alternative to the encapsulating magnet of big city life. Yet, I'm bringing with that feelings of anger, and by doing so, limit all the possibilities that can come out of mind, as to what I can do in the present that can ward off my dissipating love for the city. Slowly, my attention is starting to drift out of the past, its starting to loose its fixative interest in the future, and is finally tuning into the right now.
I talk a lot about how important freedom is to me, and yet I feel so dependent on the system I'm trying to get out of... Sometimes I sit there with this realization and can't help but go "WTF?!" Whoever said that we can go through life skipping developmental stages, for whatever reason... I can definitely relate to that. Luckily, all of the changes that I've been introduced to this month have helped me reconnect to a part of me that was tucked away deeply within my subconscious; One that I thought I'd never again get to experience. There are feelings of negativity about that may have served me in the past to defend myself. I now know that those same feelings that I still hold on to are my mind finding comfort in the routines that have helped me cope with life when I was less able to acutely express myself. They serve me no longer, and there are days when I let this turn into frustration, and other days where I turn this into courage. Its not easy, and I can't say that progress will be completed over night, but I am optimistic that with proper observation, coupled with some discipline and motivation I can overcome any block that I create for myself, whether I see it as that, at the beginning of a challenge, or not. I will just embody freedom, until it becomes undeniable that freedom is what I've obtained. Its funny... I talk of freedom as a destination, when like happiness its not. Just wanted to make this clear. I am free in the moment of the present, and want to extend the feeling of freedom to mean that of peace, and inner joy. Nothing is permanent. As long as I am aware and want to change my situation, it will change.
There are a few more fundamental thought patterns that I'm being asked to reevaluate deeply this month, but these three are the most prominent focal points for this month.
On the surface, it feels like life:
Kinda. Then I think about the positives of this situation, and am just left with gratitude. So, I've finally started to drop my worries that were piling up from a few months ago. Because there is only the present moment.
Other than that, Pumpkin came to visit for a week last week, and I can say that I had a really enriching experience with her. She was super nice, and didn't mind sharpening her debating skills with me with our hour long conversations. This is something I don't get to do as often as I'd like. I learned a lot of new things, and was able share some wonderful moments with her in the backyard I call Toronto's parks, and envelopes of nature.
We also shot some photos. BUT, this will also be covered in a later blog... Sorry for any in conveniences this may bring. Pumpkin was also able to meet and shoot with Ale and Sif. I'm really excited to see all of her work when its ready!
All in all, I'm feeling optimistic that life is moving forward, and that I can at any point do what I feel is right to help me through this life long journey. Right now, what resides in my heart is motivation. I'm motivated to find what truly resonates with me, so that I can be the best me that I can be.
Thank you for reading, thank you for the birthday wishes from my last blog,
and I love you!
Until next time,
xo
I don't know about you, but this month has been pretty intense, and filled with unexpected twists and turns, on even the simplest of levels.
There were three eclipses these past two months that were said to influence the way we live, and these three astrological events were saying to let go of ideals, beliefs and habits that no longer serve you... Boy, did I ever feel this!
In terms of how birthdays go, I can't say that this was the greatest birthday. On the surface, I was thankful to have that day to be thankful for my birth. However, on a deeper level, I was going through a few things that had brought up issues from the "deep dark past" that everyone of us has.
For instance, this month I've really had to look at where I stand with how I attract what I get in my life. I would consider myself a pretty positive person, but I am now aware of a few negative thought patterns that have kept me with a limited view of my world. I consider money to be more of a negative thing than a positive one. Although, I'm beginning to see that it is neither good or bad. Its just a tool, and you can think of it as you want, but its still not going to replace human contact, unless you solemnly want it to.
I feel as though getting off the grid is the only alternative to the encapsulating magnet of big city life. Yet, I'm bringing with that feelings of anger, and by doing so, limit all the possibilities that can come out of mind, as to what I can do in the present that can ward off my dissipating love for the city. Slowly, my attention is starting to drift out of the past, its starting to loose its fixative interest in the future, and is finally tuning into the right now.
I talk a lot about how important freedom is to me, and yet I feel so dependent on the system I'm trying to get out of... Sometimes I sit there with this realization and can't help but go "WTF?!" Whoever said that we can go through life skipping developmental stages, for whatever reason... I can definitely relate to that. Luckily, all of the changes that I've been introduced to this month have helped me reconnect to a part of me that was tucked away deeply within my subconscious; One that I thought I'd never again get to experience. There are feelings of negativity about that may have served me in the past to defend myself. I now know that those same feelings that I still hold on to are my mind finding comfort in the routines that have helped me cope with life when I was less able to acutely express myself. They serve me no longer, and there are days when I let this turn into frustration, and other days where I turn this into courage. Its not easy, and I can't say that progress will be completed over night, but I am optimistic that with proper observation, coupled with some discipline and motivation I can overcome any block that I create for myself, whether I see it as that, at the beginning of a challenge, or not. I will just embody freedom, until it becomes undeniable that freedom is what I've obtained. Its funny... I talk of freedom as a destination, when like happiness its not. Just wanted to make this clear. I am free in the moment of the present, and want to extend the feeling of freedom to mean that of peace, and inner joy. Nothing is permanent. As long as I am aware and want to change my situation, it will change.
There are a few more fundamental thought patterns that I'm being asked to reevaluate deeply this month, but these three are the most prominent focal points for this month.
On the surface, it feels like life:
Kinda. Then I think about the positives of this situation, and am just left with gratitude. So, I've finally started to drop my worries that were piling up from a few months ago. Because there is only the present moment.
Other than that, Pumpkin came to visit for a week last week, and I can say that I had a really enriching experience with her. She was super nice, and didn't mind sharpening her debating skills with me with our hour long conversations. This is something I don't get to do as often as I'd like. I learned a lot of new things, and was able share some wonderful moments with her in the backyard I call Toronto's parks, and envelopes of nature.
We also shot some photos. BUT, this will also be covered in a later blog... Sorry for any in conveniences this may bring. Pumpkin was also able to meet and shoot with Ale and Sif. I'm really excited to see all of her work when its ready!All in all, I'm feeling optimistic that life is moving forward, and that I can at any point do what I feel is right to help me through this life long journey. Right now, what resides in my heart is motivation. I'm motivated to find what truly resonates with me, so that I can be the best me that I can be.
Thank you for reading, thank you for the birthday wishes from my last blog,
and I love you!
Until next time,
xo
Hello All!
Today is my 25th Birthday!
Thank you to those who have wished me a Happy Birthday already. I can feel the love!
I hope everyone has a wonderful Saturday, and
Today is my 25th Birthday!
Thank you to those who have wished me a Happy Birthday already. I can feel the love!
I hope everyone has a wonderful Saturday, and
Much love to you all!
I'll have moer to update on one of these days.
Very recently, life has presented me with a wonderful gift, in the form of a new friend.
Her name is Cheri!
All I can say is this is the beginning of a beautiful friendship!
We both love yoga, tea, metaphysics, and mary jaaaane, among other things.
Everything else is great. I'm in the never ending process of learning. No text books, No examination.
Not a whole lot I can say about life, at this moment.
The arrival of Spring can't be more anticipated than now. There are 12 more days of winter, and am so ready to say goodbye to winter.
Until next time,
xoxo
Ooo! And, I hope I'm not to late, but
Happy International Women's Day!
Her name is Cheri!
All I can say is this is the beginning of a beautiful friendship!
We both love yoga, tea, metaphysics, and mary jaaaane, among other things.
Everything else is great. I'm in the never ending process of learning. No text books, No examination.
Not a whole lot I can say about life, at this moment.
The arrival of Spring can't be more anticipated than now. There are 12 more days of winter, and am so ready to say goodbye to winter.
Until next time,
xoxo
Ooo! And, I hope I'm not to late, but
Happy International Women's Day!
Every one of us is unique, and beautiful.
Be weird. Be quirky.
Be you, no matter who stands on the other side.
Each one of us has a fire inside of them that colours their soul with vibrant and unique hues.
I want to send out good vibes to anyone and everyone that reads this, and or needs this.
The universe is not out to get you, not out to sabotage me.
So why be so serious, Why take life so...
Seriously?
Lot of love, light, peace, insight, and joy!
I just wanted to share that.
I receive so much love from you! I only hope to return it in my own unique way.
Be weird. Be quirky.
Be you, no matter who stands on the other side.
Each one of us has a fire inside of them that colours their soul with vibrant and unique hues.
I want to send out good vibes to anyone and everyone that reads this, and or needs this.
The universe is not out to get you, not out to sabotage me.
So why be so serious, Why take life so...
Seriously?
Lot of love, light, peace, insight, and joy!
I just wanted to share that.
I receive so much love from you! I only hope to return it in my own unique way.
24 days left of winter, and there is another storm on the way...
Whoa! It Grows! 
xo
My words can only begin to express who I am becoming... I let go little by little,
So that I might become who I really am.
There is a delicate line between being your own influence, and seeding from the influence of others.
One day, I feel as though my path is clear, as the sunlight begins to accompany these tired wings.
Another, it seems as though being true to myself can't take place... It brings great injury to my soul.
Why I haven't figured out my place in life yet, I feel this is the gift within the curse.
It's in there, I know it is...
That divine energy that manifested my original motive into a physical being.
The pure light dancing within the pulse of my expanding heart...
It tells me not to dwell, not to fear, not to stop being yourself in the name of another.
I must Trust myself, and let go of what no longer serves me. That that which is no longer in alignment with my soul's purpose.
All of the dried, tried and "true" that encases my life, like the caterpillar's cocoon.
I want to be reborn, finally... I'm anxious to create expression, with the little that I've learned so far.
Layer's of decay... old dreams, old beliefs, old perspectives, they slowly flee the skin, day by day.
Those marks have started to fade away, now that they've guided me here.
I am the single flame deep inside my soul, that will remain intact by my acceleration, growth.
Realization is brought on in the most nurturing of ways, these days.
I'm so much closer to forgiveness, and unconditional love.
The intoxication of my spirit's real desires is seeping through the illusion of the times.
Let this introspective inspiration come alive, and grant me my wish for purpose.
"It's good to leave each day behind,
like flowing water, free of sadness.
Yesterday is gone and its tale told.
Today new seeds are growing."
- Rumi
xo
So that I might become who I really am.
There is a delicate line between being your own influence, and seeding from the influence of others.
One day, I feel as though my path is clear, as the sunlight begins to accompany these tired wings.
Another, it seems as though being true to myself can't take place... It brings great injury to my soul.
Why I haven't figured out my place in life yet, I feel this is the gift within the curse.
It's in there, I know it is...
That divine energy that manifested my original motive into a physical being.
The pure light dancing within the pulse of my expanding heart...
It tells me not to dwell, not to fear, not to stop being yourself in the name of another.
I must Trust myself, and let go of what no longer serves me. That that which is no longer in alignment with my soul's purpose.
All of the dried, tried and "true" that encases my life, like the caterpillar's cocoon.
I want to be reborn, finally... I'm anxious to create expression, with the little that I've learned so far.
Layer's of decay... old dreams, old beliefs, old perspectives, they slowly flee the skin, day by day.
Those marks have started to fade away, now that they've guided me here.
I am the single flame deep inside my soul, that will remain intact by my acceleration, growth.
Realization is brought on in the most nurturing of ways, these days.
I'm so much closer to forgiveness, and unconditional love.
The intoxication of my spirit's real desires is seeping through the illusion of the times.
Let this introspective inspiration come alive, and grant me my wish for purpose.
"It's good to leave each day behind,
like flowing water, free of sadness.
Yesterday is gone and its tale told.
Today new seeds are growing."
- Rumi
xo
Starting this short blog out with a special song:
(Yeah)
(Sing a song, brother)
If the sun refused to shine,
I don't mind, I don't mind.
(Yeah)
If the mountains fell in the sea,
Let it be, it ain't me.
Got my own world to live through
And I ain't gonna come near you.
Now, if 6 turned up to be 9,
I don't mind, I don't mind.
If all the hippies cut off their hair,
I don't care, I don't care.
Dig, 'cos I got my own world to live through
And I ain't gonna come near you.
White-collar conservatives flashing down the street
Pointing their plastic finger at me.
They're hoping soon my kind will drop and die,
But I'm gonna wave my freak flag high . . . HIGH!
Hah, hah
Falling mountains just don't fall on me
Point on mister Businessman,
You can't dress like me.
Nobody know what I'm talking about
I've got my own life to live
I'm the one that's gonna have to die
When it's time for me to die
So let me live my life the way I want to.
Yeah . . .
Sing on brother,
Play on brother . . .
I would love to theme a set around this song!
I'd also like to dub this song as my anthem for the 25ft year of my life, (Which starts in the month of May).
Niel Young- 'Old Man' was my anthem for the 24th year of my life.
If you don't know the song...
"Old Man"
Old man look at my life,
I'm a lot like you were.
Old man look at my life,
I'm a lot like you were.
Old man look at my life,
Twenty four
and there's so much more
Live alone in a paradise
That makes me think of two.
Love lost, such a cost,
Give me things
that don't get lost.
Like a coin that won't get tossed
Rolling home to you.
Old man take a look at my life
I'm a lot like you
I need someone to love me
the whole day through
Ah, one look in my eyes
and you can tell that's true.
Lullabies, look in your eyes,
Run around the same old town.
Doesn't mean that much to me
To mean that much to you.
I've been first and last
Look at how the time goes past.
But I'm all alone at last.
Rolling home to you.
Old man take a look at my life
I'm a lot like you
I need someone to love me
the whole day through
Ah, one look in my eyes
and you can tell that's true.
Old man look at my life,
I'm a lot like you were.
Old man look at my life,
I'm a lot like you were.
I'm So happy that so many of you had said hi to me on my last blog! Every hello put a big dorky smile on my face.
Thanks!
I hope everyone had a fantastic Valentine's day! Even if you were alone, just know that everyday, you are loved. :3
Out of all the cards that were floating around on the internet this Valentine's day, this card gave me the most chuckles...
We have 35 more days of winter! *loud cheering*
I really don't like wearing all of these layers!
This spring, I'll start a new semester at the school of nature.
Translation:
I'll be spending lots of time outside, and hopefully in secluded nature. Nature is one of my greatest teachers, and I always enjoy being out in her classroom. I'm really excited for warmer weather!
Recently came across:
From a wedding in 2011
MY Valentine's day is today... (aside from every other day, as well!)
Did you hear about the Meteor that hit Russia this morning?
Crazy! My Heart goes out to all of those caught in this blast!
Keeping a straight face can sometimes be really hard...
Emanuelle = Pure hotness on the front page!!! One of my favourites for sure!
A couple other of my favourites:
My witey Elliott-Tights
Alle- Breathe Me
PinkZilla- Get It Started
Vice- Nihil Novi
(Yeah)
(Sing a song, brother)
If the sun refused to shine,
I don't mind, I don't mind.
(Yeah)
If the mountains fell in the sea,
Let it be, it ain't me.
Got my own world to live through
And I ain't gonna come near you.
Now, if 6 turned up to be 9,
I don't mind, I don't mind.
If all the hippies cut off their hair,
I don't care, I don't care.
Dig, 'cos I got my own world to live through
And I ain't gonna come near you.
White-collar conservatives flashing down the street
Pointing their plastic finger at me.
They're hoping soon my kind will drop and die,
But I'm gonna wave my freak flag high . . . HIGH!
Hah, hah
Falling mountains just don't fall on me
Point on mister Businessman,
You can't dress like me.
Nobody know what I'm talking about
I've got my own life to live
I'm the one that's gonna have to die
When it's time for me to die
So let me live my life the way I want to.
Yeah . . .
Sing on brother,
Play on brother . . .
I would love to theme a set around this song!
I'd also like to dub this song as my anthem for the 25ft year of my life, (Which starts in the month of May).
Niel Young- 'Old Man' was my anthem for the 24th year of my life.
If you don't know the song...
"Old Man"
Old man look at my life,
I'm a lot like you were.
Old man look at my life,
I'm a lot like you were.
Old man look at my life,
Twenty four
and there's so much more
Live alone in a paradise
That makes me think of two.
Love lost, such a cost,
Give me things
that don't get lost.
Like a coin that won't get tossed
Rolling home to you.
Old man take a look at my life
I'm a lot like you
I need someone to love me
the whole day through
Ah, one look in my eyes
and you can tell that's true.
Lullabies, look in your eyes,
Run around the same old town.
Doesn't mean that much to me
To mean that much to you.
I've been first and last
Look at how the time goes past.
But I'm all alone at last.
Rolling home to you.
Old man take a look at my life
I'm a lot like you
I need someone to love me
the whole day through
Ah, one look in my eyes
and you can tell that's true.
Old man look at my life,
I'm a lot like you were.
Old man look at my life,
I'm a lot like you were.
I'm So happy that so many of you had said hi to me on my last blog! Every hello put a big dorky smile on my face.
Thanks!
I hope everyone had a fantastic Valentine's day! Even if you were alone, just know that everyday, you are loved. :3
Out of all the cards that were floating around on the internet this Valentine's day, this card gave me the most chuckles...
We have 35 more days of winter! *loud cheering*
I really don't like wearing all of these layers!
This spring, I'll start a new semester at the school of nature.
Translation:
I'll be spending lots of time outside, and hopefully in secluded nature. Nature is one of my greatest teachers, and I always enjoy being out in her classroom. I'm really excited for warmer weather!
Recently came across:
From a wedding in 2011
MY Valentine's day is today...
(aside from every other day, as well!)Did you hear about the Meteor that hit Russia this morning?
Crazy! My Heart goes out to all of those caught in this blast!
Keeping a straight face can sometimes be really hard...
Emanuelle = Pure hotness on the front page!!!
One of my favourites for sure!A couple other of my favourites:
My witey Elliott-Tights
Alle- Breathe Me
PinkZilla- Get It Started
Vice- Nihil Novi
Life's a gift to let your body free.
Be who you want to be.
The night has come for connection.
Stand up and let yourself go.
Music is life; Life is music.
Its all underground in my house.
"I do not exist to impress the world. I exist to live my life in a way that will make me happy."
-Illusions, Richard Bach
[What I look like these days...]
I'm not very talkative lately... Not in the conventional ways.
The update will come when it's ready. There will be a suprise in there, as well.
Although, this is the first blog of the year for me, I'm beginning to stop being directed by time.
Slowly, I'm beginning to open my eyes... open up my senses to the magic that surrounds us all.
More, and more, I'm turning into a weirdo. But that's okay... I'm tired of amusing other people.
I am learning to be free.
Welcome to Tumblr's interpretation of what is going on in my mind.
]
To be Continued...
P.S
I WANT MY WIFEY ON THE FRONT PAGE AGAIN! Just look at her... How can you say no to that face?
Elliott- Tights
Let's make it happen!!
Be who you want to be.
The night has come for connection.
Stand up and let yourself go.
Music is life; Life is music.
Its all underground in my house.
"I do not exist to impress the world. I exist to live my life in a way that will make me happy."
-Illusions, Richard Bach
[What I look like these days...]
I'm not very talkative lately... Not in the conventional ways.
The update will come when it's ready. There will be a suprise in there, as well.
Although, this is the first blog of the year for me, I'm beginning to stop being directed by time.
Slowly, I'm beginning to open my eyes... open up my senses to the magic that surrounds us all.
More, and more, I'm turning into a weirdo. But that's okay... I'm tired of amusing other people.
I am learning to be free.
Welcome to Tumblr's interpretation of what is going on in my mind.
]To be Continued...
P.S
I WANT MY WIFEY ON THE FRONT PAGE AGAIN! Just look at her... How can you say no to that face?
Elliott- Tights
Let's make it happen!!
