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I've been quite active recently, but not with my blogs. I can't say that I'm sorry, because its been really hard to find the right words to blog down. However, I will attempt to put into words what life has had in store for me lately.
There has been a lot going on internally... which could actually translate quite well into an externally boring few months.
I haven't had much interaction with friends or family this past little while, but this has afforded me the opportunity for some SERIOUS self observation and reflection. And now, because of this, I am changing at a faster rate than I thought possible earlier this year.
Slowly, as I piece all of the puzzle that is my life together, I'm realizing this:
Quietly, I'm learning,
Slowly I'm growing,
More and more, I'm loving.
And yet, I still feel a 'net' of friction between myself and society.
I'm feeling as though society prompts us to take life as seriously as we can.
Do your best to fit in.
Mistakes are bad, and to some extent looked down upon. Yet, we are more likely to remember the bad things that people do, than the good they do.
Traditional ways of living, ( go to school, get a well paying job, work your way up the 'ladder' find a spouse to marry, have a family, live in a home that is surrounded by concrete/drywall/glass/brick on all sides)... I dunno. That all sounds lovely, but
WHAT IF you want to try living life a different way? I seem to run into dead ends when I attempt to ask a lot of people that question. Oh well, You can bet that in a few years from now, I will leave the city.
I'm sick and fucking tired of feeding a system that is diseased, and self serving. While the majority of us suffer just to get by, while at the same time we deal with such personal, and collective problems such as violence, outlets of misleading information, physical and mental disease, loss, betrayal, greed, addiction, and fear... Oooohhh Fear. Why I even let you into my psyche, I don't know, but I am devoting my life to ridding myself of it for good.
Before I get any further into this pent up rant, I will divert my course of thought into something more positive. :]
I'll start this by asking,
What is the opposite of fear?
Love. I'm starting to realize that one of the main goals of my life is to love. Unconditional love is a powerful friend, and a powerful source of strength that will never let you down. It can be difficult in reaching this state of being, but I think this quote sums this up nicely,
“The source of love is deep in us and we can help others realize a lot of happiness. One word, one action, one thought can reduce another person’s suffering and bring that person joy.”
— Thich Nhat Hanh
It doesn't take that much to do something through a source of love, and it can turn your whole world around in less than a second. Imagine what you could do for someone else...?
I'll admit that its harder for me to follow through on my words when I'm at work, because I feel trapped, in a way. Its not a natural setting, and when either you or the person on the other side of the counter is in a rush, it doesn't allow for me to take my time and genuinely get across the message from my heart.... Its hard at work. Maybe if I was a therapist, it would be different, but again, too many rules associated with being a therapist.
And, did I tell you just how much I hate rules? I've been ignoring some that could get me in serious trouble lately, but that is another story.
I'm learning new ways of taking care of myself that are helping to make me look younger than I already look, as well as grow my hair out really really fast. Look where its at now!:
“There is a life-force within your soul, seek that life.
There is a gem in the mountain of your body, seek that
mine.
O traveler, if you are in search of That
Don’t look outside, look inside yourself and seek That.”
— Rumi
Here are a few more pictures:
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The cutest hair style I've pulled off yet with my natural hair:
2. What is my favourite colour?
Its Yellow! Happy Sundies!
3.
I've gotten rid of Dormant Power. It was a nice try of a set, and there are some really nice shots, but I didn't get to show you what I wanted to show you. I will just wait for the right opportunity to shoot again, and make it happen. Besides, I don't want the set to waste away in MR. Nope... Not this lady.
I do want to do a new set sometime in the near future. I just haven't had the right opportunity yet. I'm stuck in Toronto for a while yet... If anyone could help a lady out with that, it would be GREATLY appreciated! 
And 4. signifies that it is indeed getting really cold outside...
This weather totally impedes on me being nude whenever I want to... 
Oh well.
Til next time, my friends.
xoxo
NOV 26, 2012 07:49 PM
The way things work right in a political and economical sense is really not the ideal for the people, not by far... But I believe things are changing. Gradually, step by step, but steadily. It's gotten to the point where people are refusing to just watch the rich get richer and the rest of the people having to struggle to get through each day... So, maybe one day we'll be living in a better, fairer world.
For now, we have to stay strong and do our part to change the world for the better...
It's getting cold there? Over here it's been quite the opposite, it's getting way too hot... Ocasionally raining with lowers the temperature to much better levels, but then it gets all hot again... I could use with some of that cold you're getting over there, wanna trade places? Just joking.
Cheers!
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❤ ❤ ❤ Who loves ya baby? 
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DEC 02, 2012 08:43 AM
Your welcome, Beautiful
I try not to compare as well .. when it gets tough, I just keep on roll'n but without the energizer bunny! hahaha
I definitely see the results of your methods ... your transformation is a beautiful thing to see ❤
peace and soooooo much love ❤
DEC 02, 2012 09:48 AM
Jeeze man I love your blog. Seriously. Great minds think alike they say. We could be brain sisters 
Hehe have you read/watched Joe Campbell? He talks about following your bliss, very must the theme of what you have been getting across. I applaud your thinking. Really. Brilliant. Hopefully through SG we can get to know eachother I hope your current journey is blessing you!
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