Its June!
For the first time in a long time, it's one of those days where once you look out the window, you know its going to rain all day...

Perfect day to reflect:

Despite recently becoming a complete hermit, I have still managed to meet a lot of new people lately.
Meeting Glitch and Tita was lovely! They both have so much joy and positivity to them, that I find very charming!
I've met a lot of other cool SG's, All with their own distinctive personalities. However, there are a few people in general who have really made a strong positive impact on me. One is an SG, three are not.
The SG, I'm talking about is Alle. I'm not sure if you have noticed, but She makes me swoon very hard! From the first time I met her, I felt as though our eyes were flirting to each other, then I went to say hi, and have loved her ever since! So glad I was able to live in Montreal for a few months and see her! I am going back to visit her in the summer.

The First night we met!

Wish I still lived there, but everything happens for a reason, I believe. There was apparently a tornado in Montreal this past weekend...? That is UNheard of! I hope nothing bad ended up happening over there!

I really miss Montreal. My boyfriend and I had the SWEETEST apartment there! Ask Shazzy; That's where we shot this:


I like the lifestyle that my boyfriend and I had there. We were both free to think and be who we wanted to be without judgement, without any outside commitments. We were just both committed to growing. He is working a lot now, and I have no job, so I have to do my best to stay busy and get a job, so that I can stop thinking of the past so much, and work towards the bright future that I know I'm in for.

Hence, the second person I'm talking about is my boyfriend. For the very first few days of January 2011, from the 1st to the 4th, I was beyond pissed, really bitter, apathetic, and just did not give a fuck. All of a sudden, my ego had taken over completely...I was about to go into an angry rabbit hole. I felt as though I was just wasting my life on efforts that I truly believed in. Only to have them thrown back at me all warn out and bruised. -I was through.
I was still actively modeling, and would use Modelmayhem to get most of my contacts at the time, because I sadly could not get an agency to represent me. I decide to take my mind off of the bitterness I had sheltered myself with. As I was browsing the site, I come across my future boyfriend's page. (That sounds so cooool to say!! ) Anyways, the first thing I noticed about him was that in every photo he had up he looked like he was a different person. Like he was good with expression, and that he could get the vision of the photo across so well! So, I let him know, telling him that he has a really diverse , and interesting look. I just wanted to leave it at that, and got something to eat. Only to come back to my computer and have a message back from him saying the same thing for me in return. He asked if I wanted to be in a photo shoot with him, and we were going to meet the next day to talk about it.
When we did meet, the first glimpse of him that I got was probably one of the weirdest feelings I've ever had! I was met with yet a face different from any of this guy's photos, but I knew it was the same guy. So what did I do? I panicked a bit. "What the hell is going on here?" Why did my heart jump and my mind basically scream just now?" The first feeling I had was not a good feeling; Nor was it a bad feeling. I was in complete shock.
We begin talking, and my mind is fixed on, "Okay lets get this photo shoot thing going, bud... This will not be a date. - I bet to my best friend that instead of talking about the photo shoot its going to be a date, then she rebutted that I shouldn't get so ahead of myself. I wasn't! I just had this feeling...
Surely by the end of the night, we had not talked about the photo shoot. We went with my two friends for drinks- when I still drank on a regular basis- and they ended up saying they approved o this guy. Then I blert out, "What? ..." I didn't want what was happening to happen. The first thing I noted about him was that he is a very interesting person. Surely enough; A year and a half later, we are still very much important parts of each others lives. To make this as short as I can make it, our personalities work extremely well together, and I'm really happy that I decided to be open minded enough to get to know him.

He's on the right with the pointed hat. My good friend is the guy on the left
And, silly pictures from last year:


I REALLY need to take more pictures of/with him. Good thing its warmer out now!
The third and forth persons- That is a funny story!
When I turned 22, I went to my favourite bar in Toronto, The Madison. I was suppose to have a lot of people show up for a birthday party, but May is bad timing for parties, because so much is happening after Universities get let out a few weeks before. So two of my friends show up. These two ladies were Japanese, and we were learning Japanese and English off of each other, so it was really nice to see these two there with me! I saw a few of my friends, had a few drinks with them, was blushing at the site of this one server there, and had one of the security guards think that shared mutual feelings towards love... It was a really silly night. As the bar closes, I end up getting a tea at Tim Horton, where I heard Japaneses Conversation. I turned to the sources of the conversation and say, " You... you're Japanese, aren't you? Lets be friends!!" - I was really drunk at this point... So blunt... I know!
Well later that week I became a part time tour guide two Japanese guys, Akira And Takuma. They had to go back to Japan a few weeks after we met, but they were able to see some fireworks for Victoria Day. One night, we even stayed out all night, walked around the neighborhoods of Toronto, and ended up talking about Frederich Nietzsche! I know a lot's happened in Japan since 2010, but I still would like to see them again. I hope they are okay!

Akira is on the right Takuma is on the left


I know that I write my own life story, and that I will be in the place I want to be, so I will press on forward, so that I can achieve the level of success that I'm after. I'm doing my best to be healthy, to be patient, and be knowledgeable.
Just continue to recognize beauty when you see it, and create it, when you cannot find it.

Annnd! Thank you for the love on both of my sets!


Canadian Beavers was a really fun set that was shot in the midst of a thunder storm back on the main land of the city. We made it on the Ferry back into the city just as the rain had hit the island!

Dormant Power is obviously a personal set. I would say this is an expressive set, to the point where there is a bit of sadness or melancholy to it. This was my statement to SG that I am the process of renewal. I have recently had to shed preconceived notions about life, to make way for the strengthening of who I really am.
Dormant Power was my declaration that lifestyle changes needed to be made, if I want to be able to define success for myself.




And guess what?
I'm going to be shooting a set in another month or so. You'll get to see my short hair... AHHH! I am going to further explore myself, spiritually, and so, I am thinking of doing this set outdoors. I know a really beautiful place, where I even saw a humming bird yesterday! I want this set to further demonstrate the slow but steady evolution taking place within me.

These two song are really near and dear to my heart!



I would love to get some of the lyrics to this song tattooed on me. Once I get over my fear of needles...

Going to enjoy the rest of this rainy day, and prepare for the future ahead.
Lots of love, SG
xoxo