SuicideGirl: Lorelei
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AUGUST 26, 2003 @ 11:05 AM


Mother do you think they'll drop the bomb?
Mother do you think they'll like this song?


these dark mornings are filling me with dread, thinking about the end of summer. i hardly even noticed it was here, i was working so much. sigh.. now the kids are back in school again. i know how they're feeling: this SUCKS!
my housemates and i are having a huge labor-day yard sale this weekend. i have so much crap i hope i can get rid of. some worthy, big-ticket items, like a newer window air conditioner, never-used airbrush kit, bicycle... but also a lot of things i'll probably be forced to throw away at the end of the garage sale - a bon jovi cd, hawaiian party decorations, fake xmas tree...
it's amazing how much i hold onto. i don't know why it's so hard for me to get rid of things. partly, i feel guilty throwing away anything that's not truly garbage. if someone, somewhere could possibly use it again, i feel bad throwing it away. and ever since i was little, i always looked long and hard at something i was about to get rid of, to see if i could possibly metamorph it into something else. sometime into the future, it could be reincarnated to fill a new purpose. file into the "i might NEED this for something someday!" box. biggrin

i suppose it's not a bad way to think, amidst our wasteful consumer culture, but it does mean i end up with a garage full of STUFF that is useless to me. surreal
Comments
PaleEnchantress

Paleenchantress

Adams, MA
April 2003

AUG 26, 2003 12:43 PM

i have some new pics up my sweet grrrrrrl
x0x0x0x0

Mora

Mora

SUICIDEGIRL

New York, USA

AUG 26, 2003 01:29 PM

i DO I DO I DO I DO I DO!!!!!!! i need those things so bad right now its not even funny. you are a genious.

MC_escher

MC_escher

Irvine, CA
May 2003

AUG 26, 2003 05:10 PM

the pogues have the best drinking songs of all!

good luck getting rid of your stuff. I find it easier if I don't look directly at it and cover my ears.

JakeMarley

JakeMarley

I'm lost
October 2002

AUG 27, 2003 10:20 AM

Hey Lorelei, I am from a bit north of Cincy. Most of my friends live in Cincy. I just said Antarctica because I like to conceal my identity, since a lot of people don't like me much (hmm! wonder why?).

I noticed you were in the SGOHIO group, and I assumed you noticed my post because I am also in that group, even though I have never posted to it.

"Putting the kettle on" is just one of those phrases I picked up somewhere along the way, since I have lived so many places (and I am a fantical tea drinker). Nevertheless, I am and will always be a Buckeye/Hoosier. If you don't slash the Hoosier part in, that just means you don't live a mile from the Indiana border as I do.

Is Doug "robinbanks" (isn't Robin Banks a TV star or something, like 90210 or whatnot)? Anyway, looking like a younder Shane is not really much of a complement. Even I'm not sure when he broke his teeth all to Hell. BTW, do you have Danny Pope's "Acid Teeth" EP. I could upload it. I wouldn't feel bad doing so, since it took Danny like over a year to get the EP to all of us on the FOS list who paid for it. Hell, he might even give his consent, because the distro would be a lot more effective than what he got off the EP.

Anyway, I look and sound more like Shane does now, except that I'm really tall and have no facial hair (can't stand the scrub). My employment status floats between student and taxi driver and web entreprenuer, basically avoiding anything that would tie me down to anything. I write in my spare time, actually. That is not so hard when you live on a 36 to 48 or more hour day. 12 hours work, 8 hours writing, and the rest sleeping in a Seroquel stupor. And, no my therapist does not know where I keep my journal (btw, I also keep a blog and write many really long letters). My present therapist is different from the one that asked me to keep a journal. The original person's idea was for me to do a daily mood thing with slide bars and such to represent my affect for the day. I thought it was stupid because I could rarely rememeber why I chose a particular number on the slide the previous day - my meds totally bugger my memory. If they want me to chart my moods, I would have to do it by the hour, and to be that motivated I would have to be off the meds.

If anyone ever tells you there is a difference between psychoactive meds that their doctor prescribes and heroin, they're lying!!!

JakeMarley

JakeMarley

I'm lost
October 2002

AUG 27, 2003 10:46 AM

Lorelei, aren't you quoting Pink Floyd there. As muchas I hate that band, even I have some familiarity with their lyrics. I know I complemented your musical tastes, but Pink Floyd is one of the bands I overlooked. And Black Sabbath?

Anyway, I am wise enough to know that when someone starts quoting Pink Floyd, that ain't good news. It's time to call the docs.

Personally, the passing of summer fills me with immeasurable joy. The death of the year is a time like no other. Think of the crisp autumn air you will soon be sucking into your lungs. Think of driving down country roads, listening to the Pogues and the Clash, looking for those wonderful road-side apple cider barns. Think of giving kids Halloween candy. Think of Thanksgiving stuffing. Think of the REAL Christmas tree you might get to replace the fake one you (hopefully) sold. Think of that long, cold solstice night when you can look up at the sky and count stars until your head swims.

Summer is hot. It burns your beautiful skin and cooks your brain. Summer is bad! frown

Use the waning of this year to rid yourself of more than material things you don't need and remember not to collect what you don't need.

The years die, and fall away one after one before our eyes, but our memories live on. Live a full life, and feast on memories forever.

Whooooohooooo! Autumn is coming!

JakeMarley

JakeMarley

I'm lost
October 2002

AUG 27, 2003 11:36 AM

Hmm! We seem to have crossed postings. You must be going to work or something. I finished up a really long day sometime in the early morning hours, then I started drinking. Believe it or not, that is not my habit - usually it's a bit of SciFi on the telly and off to bed. Tonight, however, I have written like a mother fucker. First an 8 page letter to my friend, then replies in SG, drinking all the while. I am starting to sober up now, and my head is throbbing like a conga drum. Soon I will end this day and submit to Seroquel oblivion.

I do not have access to the link you gave me, but I imagine if the singer of "The Boys..." has bad teeth, Shane would be quite the hero. Don't show him "If I Should Fall From Grace..." One really comes away from that movie with the realization that Shane is just as human as the rest of us; he just happens to have a genious talent with a pen and paper. Hero worship is not for Shane MacGowan fans, despite how fanatically we might love his words.

I am doing a site for a band also. That is what I spent a good part of the early night working on. They are called Croatan. Think of Thelonius Monk as a 30-something punk rocker, and really pissed off, and you might get some idea of what Croatan sounds like. I have described them as a lover's spat on stage, or like beating yourself in the head with a hammer. They really push the envelope where musical theory is concerned, which is not the norm for a noise-punk band, but they are experienced musicians, and need more room than the genre really allows. Not many bands impress me, and I'm not really a snootish sort of person. It's just if I've seen something before, I'd rather listen to who did it right (THe Pogues, The Clash, The Velvet Underground, Blondie, The Furs, go on, you know 'em). Anyway, I hope to have their site up when I launch my new servers next month. I will be leasing from ServerBeach, so things will be kick-ass.

I've done a shit load of student sites, but most are pretty geeky. The Croatan site is the first artistic site that is totally my vision. Well, actually, I clear everything with the band first, but they haven;t had any problems with things yet. I have been more self-critical than anything, never being satisfied with my own work on the site, thinking it has to measure up to the band's genious. The CGI shit isn't done yet because I am waiting for all the stuff that is packaged with the servers. So, no, I don't really have anything to show yet. Even the croatan.com index page still links to the old croatanzone.com site.

Blah! I'm half way between drunk and sober, and I have a really big headache. Sorry for blathering on so.

JakeMarley

JakeMarley

I'm lost
October 2002

AUG 27, 2003 11:45 AM

BTW, you write "Jaysus!" Do you read Brendan Behan? He always writes "Jasus!" when he is immitating elderly Irish matrons. It's a real hoot!

Stirfry

Stirfry

Cleveland, OH
September 2002

AUG 27, 2003 04:04 PM

nothing like getting reminded at the last minute. lol.

i'll see you there.

Barroomhero

barroomhero

USA
August 2003

AUG 27, 2003 08:27 PM

Is it the end of the summer already?!? Holy shit! Well, at least that means it will cool down a bit up here.

Stuff is the bane of my existence. I cannot find the room I need for all of it. I have too much but it never seems like enough.

Glad you liked the "waiting" comment. And waiting I am, with great anticipation. love See you soon here!

And by the way, what a perfect song for a poem! I must say it is genius! I love it. Gotta love the rooster! Any specific reason for the love of the old morning crower? bok Sorry, I am in a weird, underslept mood. Forgive the itinerent ramblings. Have a good night and/or day!

Stirfry

Stirfry

Cleveland, OH
September 2002

AUG 28, 2003 02:52 PM

you rock! i had a ton of fun last night. i'm glad we got to hang-out and look forward to seeing you at the party.
if any other good shows come up or you just wanna' get a beer ,let me know.

i'm listening to the CD i bought last night. thanks for reminding me... i loved them.

wink kiss

Kingbugs

kingbugs

I'm lost
December 2002

AUG 28, 2003 06:17 PM

When I lived in Tremont, I used to put my old stuff, not quite junk and undoubtedly junk onthe tree lawn and within minutes, sometimes before I got up the stairs, there'd be people carting it off. I used to time them. It was crazy. as I was moving out they flocked like greedy eyed junk muslims to a trash Mecca.
Good for them, I'd say. I've been known to trashdive meeself.
But then I caught the token neighborhood retarded guy going through papers and shit I had in a SEALED garbage bag. That got me a bit nervous...

Stirfry

Stirfry

Cleveland, OH
September 2002

AUG 29, 2003 07:34 PM

i'm already wanting to see them again,lol.

Saturday 9/6:
The Epoxies (Dirtnap Records) with The Applicators and Intelligent Knives
$7 21+/$10 under 21
at: The Lime Spider

http://www.thelimespider.com/main.htm

The Lime Spider is located at 207 S. Main Street in Downtown Akron, between Church and University Streets, across the street from the Civic Theatre.

ARRR!!! ARRR!!!

justray

justray

Akron, OH
OLD SKOOL

AUG 30, 2003 05:12 PM

Any friend of Stirfry's is a friend of mine....WELCOME to the little world of danger we like to call SGOH my god, no you didn't.

Oh and if you haven't seen stirfry's sushi roll prepare your self for i'm sure it will be making an appearance on the 19th.

I hear it stopped doing shows on cam, b/c it was taking up to much bandwith.

snickers now, but is looking forward to gettin flamed by stirfry when i least expect it.

Stirfry

Stirfry

Cleveland, OH
September 2002

AUG 30, 2003 09:12 PM

lovelier than you?! i gotta see this!

ARRR!!! wink

Stirfry

Stirfry

Cleveland, OH
September 2002
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