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APRIL 21, 2011 @ 08:45 AM | 50 COMMENTS


air passes through lips*

here goes another one.

if you see my debut set,its on FP and uh im fucking excited!
let me tell you HOW LONG ive dreamed about this.
thank you sg ,thank you thank you thank you.
the comments are amazing,really have just beeen overall nice and complimenting.

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*BEWARE:this blog will be of epic porportions and I have to worn you now/.




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first section:life latley.


so i went to LA a few weeks ago and had the time of my life,met amazing girls amd guy like evette Dot, sean meelajane odette , Missy Sash and 8mmate amazing mexican food!
went shoppping
ate more food.
it was so amazing there.
i HAVE to go back.
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ive been working alot and sucks alot
going to school and blah.
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finding myself in chat alot.
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instagraming my life away.
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and recently have joined a new fav group.
with things like this.
viva la TTC!

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oh yah baby.


my brother found out i was a suicidegirl...
yah.
hes the only person i cared about knowing and supporting.
well yah
he calles me and it went "lola i want to kick your butt but im so glad your chasing your dream,and im glad i could help you accomplpish it,i support you no matter what,but if i see you naked ill throw up"

so everything is fine :}
im debating on going to ohio soon. :]
so i could swoon over the girls or just live there.
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random other pics :]





oh i found my SGTWINS <3

and i have a facebook page check it out!
heres a link
hereeeee
and im really high writing this.....
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and some of you may know im a director of acapella group.
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{bbb}
may post a video so keep your eyes peeled.


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and want to know random facts about me?
here we do it myspace bulletin style haha ;]

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Eye Color: BROWN
Hair Color: BROWN
Height: 5'3
Favorite Color: PINK :]
Screen Name:
Favorite Band: LOLANAX@AIM.COM
Favorite Movie: house on the haunted hill
Favorite Show: TRUEBLOOD
Your Car: dont have one :[
Your Hometown: easthartford
Your Present Town: easthartford
Your Crushes First Name: HAHA GRAYWOLF
Your Grade: ENDLESS
Your Style: HIPASS
Have You Ever ===
Sat on your rooftop?: smoked on it too,
Kissed someone in the rain?: nope
Danced in a public place?: ofcourse
Smiled for no reason?: everyday
Laughed so hard you cried?: everyday,i love funny
Peed your pants after age 8?: no way
Written a song?: its what i do :}
Sang to someone for no reason?: haha all the time
Performed on a stage?: a few months ago
Talked to someone you don't know?: everyday
Gone out of your way to befriend someone?: probably oops :[
Made out in a theatre?: hah like twice
Gone roller skating since 8th grade?: oh yes baybay
Been in love?: iwould know :[
Who was the last person to ===
Say HI to you?: krystal
Tell you, I love you?: my roomate or boss
Kiss you?: my cuddlebucket.
Hug you?: my boss
Tell you BYE?: myroomate
Write you a note?: wow boss
Take your photo?: sean
Call your cell phone?:
Buy you something?: a 1 800 number
Go with you to the movies?: omg long ass time probably atomicc
Sing to you?: probably atomicc
Write a poem about you?: this dude
Text message you?: antigone suicide :]
Touch you?: my roomate
What's the last ====
Time you laughed?: i wake up laughing
Time you cried?: febuary
Movie you watched?: i dont know i was making out during it
Joke you told?: i cant recall,i pull pranks
Song you've sang?: some paramore stuff
Time you've looked at the clock?: 11:13 right now
Drink you've had?: coffee last night
Number you've dialed?: probably my work
Book you've read?: the end
Food you've eaten?: a sausage :} yum yum
Flavor of gum chewed?: chocolate mint
Shoes you've worn?: work shoes
Store you've been in?: my dunkindonuts
Thing you've said?: "multipass"
Can You ==
Write with both hands?: yes :}
Whistle?: yes
Blow a bubble?: i have to many tounge piercings :[
Roll your tounge in a circle?: same answer as above
Cross your eyes?: yesh
Touch your tounge to your nose?: nope
Dance?: yes
Gleek?: OMG YES!!!!!!!!!
Stay up a whole night without sleep?: beentheredonethat
Speak a different language?: spanish
Impersonate someone?: britney spears
Prank call people?: no
Make a card pyramid?: yes
Cook anything?: sometimes sandwichs
Finish The Line ===
If i were a ...: a dolphine id swim all day
I wish ...: i were more succesful
So many people don't know that ...: i perform in musicals.and am a hopeless romantic.
I am ...: a SUICIDEGIRL
My heart is ...: was left in ohio



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ways to my heart....
everyone knows ive been single since valentines day of 10'
please be funny.
and sweet,dont text me everyday
give me a lot of space
dont try and make me look dumb
but DO be competitive
i love pranks,so must be gentle towards a good pranking.'
can handle my hot head "im puertorican sorry"
handle me in bed.
tell me things,im really easygoing.
cuddle with me when your around.
HAVE LIFE GOALS.

MY TOP FAVORITE TYPE OF MEN ARE:
1:pilots,its intense.
2:doctors.
3:surfers
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facts:i love pie
ive never seen starwars
im plannig to on going to medschool one day.
ive never not had a job
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i fall hard but rare.
ii have a terrible spelling problem,
english is my seicnd language.
at work people say "they must think your this hot girl,your so nerdy though"
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i have the handwriting of a 4th grader
i write alot of poetry
i direct an acapella group
i love house!
ive been to many shows.
i dont want many more tats
i am a casper fanataic!
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i cant cook anything but spanish food.
im 100% latina
i would do TERRIBLE things to demi lovato....
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ok bye guys love you

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<3

APRIL 15, 2011 @ 05:37 PM | 76 COMMENTS


I just went pink.
I may die.
I'm so happy right now.
Thank you all for everything.
Thank you Alissa.
Thankyou staff.
But most of all thankyou members.
It's you guys that make this Place fucking awesome.
I'm at work so I'm doing this from my celly.
I will write another epic blog for you guys once my set is up.
I really love SG.
Love Lolana
MARCH 8, 2011 @ 06:18 AM | 82 COMMENTS


before i start this i have funny photos to show yall.
many faces of Lolana.
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this is what happens when atomicc leaves her mac at home

no makeup FFTTTWW
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zoom imagekiss me face
zoom imagei dropped my tissue face
zoom imageim taking a poop face
zoom imagei just got my ass beat at COD face
zoom imagebitchs wanna fight me face
zoom imagehe just broke my heart face
zoom imageim having the best orgasm of my life face
zoom imagei just had the best orgasm of my life face
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zoom imagepoutylip face
zoom imageTHIS is my sexy face
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zoom imagei just got butterflys from a chat boy face
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OH
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MY
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iloveSG face







ok so here is my vacation recap.

SOME of you may know that i went on this bad ass 2 week vacation and ended up everywhere haha.
so here we go.

feb 12, 5pm

i have my bag next to me and am waiting for a grayhound anxious as heck because im going to
jersey for my first time!
and well on top of it all,i have to take a train from penn into belmar.
never have i taken a train.

ask me why would i be going to jersey for vday weekend WELL..
it was to meet fellow chatter
mattjames

hes such a nice guy and introduced me to some friends and he took me to WAWA
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[heheh i love saying wawa]
but well it was super fun and watched soem kickass movies.
but it was valentines day already and i had to go home :[
so i took my trip back to CT.

the reason why i had to go home?
because in the morning i was going to OHIO to visit alissa brunelli

[by the way count how many delays and cancellations i had]

i wake up SUPER nervous and well i realize my flight is delayed...
but by a little so i would still make my layover.

i arrive into philly [sadly no cheesesteaks]
and find out my flight is delayed...
yah terrible luck
so i call alissa all stressed because im not sure what to do.
shes like "its cool just tell me when you arive"
so i walk around and get on chat.
finally get on my plane and arrive in the glorious SG land
COLUMBUS OHIO.

and instantly i see alissa and her animal winter hat haha<3
this is what happens when i go to ohio meet alissa and she has a camera,i instantly feel the need to undress infront of her




during the set sunshine came by and can i just say that girl is smokin

after the sets
alissa and i just how out for a little and talked and shared our love of SG together
and she brought me to this place called dirty franks?
now let me tell you its so cheap and the hotdogs there are made so ridiculously but somehow come out amazing like heaven.
just look
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after that we called up radeo and bribed her with icecream haha
we went to her salon and all together went to this place called lemongrass
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and met all these cool ohio people [gosh was i nervous]
after drinks we took radeo back to her car and alissa drove me back to my hotel room.
once i had to get out of the car i was instantly sad,i really do love the feeling you get from being in ohio
and the bond and friendship between the girls<3


scary hotel story

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ok so this is the story,i stayed at the baymont inn by the airport and i walk to the front desk the clerk is young but looks a wee bit sketchy..but not sketchy enough to be scared...
i get my key card and walk to find my room,i walk and walk and walk and cant seem to find it...
finally,i get to the back area wheres it like really dark and eerie,and i find my room.
i go in,check everything and i noticed the tv doesnt turn on,i didnt really care since i was super tired and all i was gunna do is go into chat and fall asleep.
i had a 7 am flight and it was about 12
i get into bed and from my view i notice under the counter there a square shapped cut whole in the wall,and all i saw were wires and dark,again didnt bother me too much since i was SUPER tired.
i get into bed and start undressing and all the lights so out...
i get up [ad currently only in panties]
and call my brother and say like hey um does this hotel have a sleep timer if its late and like the lights go out..
my brother goes like what..jail?
and i say yes
he goes no lola get your shit and get out of the room
so i grab my ky and put clothes on and walk to the front desk.
he escorts me back to check the room out and cant seem to turn the lights on,
i grab my things and get a new room..
10 minutes later....
the lights dont work in the new room but the tv does...
wont risk it.
we find me another room,
this time half the lights dont work but the tv does,
i deal with it and say "if i die it all doesnt matter i shot a set and im tired"
i try and sleep
3 am.
i hear shuffling outside my door...
i go back to bed
530 am
wake up because i might as well leave for the safe airport lol.
{they did have a complimentry breakfast}
{i passed}



ok so im at columbus intl and i fly to chicago for a layover!
can you say sumper pumped and the airport is amazing


i walk around come back and see my flight is.
DELAYED.
uhg
walk around come back,my flight is
CANCELLED.
and theres only one other aue clair flight SO i must wait like 7 hours in chicago...
now what must you do if you are stuck in chicago with 6 hours to spare.
you call up chatters
so i wake up justlostone and tell him im in chicago and this our chance to meet.
hes like "ma,your playin right?"
im just like no jlo im not..
"aight be there in 20"
i walk down the escalator and istantly see his beanie
and get this HUGE smile on my face.
we got coffee and share apastrie,and talk..well argue because its what we do.
we walk back to the front of the airport and just sit and people watch.
it was nice.
but it was time for me to back in.
so i say my goodbyes and go back in.

a few hours later.
i arrive in the small town of eau clair,wisconssin.
instantly i can tell it was small.
the airport has one terminal
one gate
and only is open on certain days.
hah yah i know.

my brothers beautiful sister picks me up..its been almsot a year since ive seen them.
and the 2nd time in four years that i have seen him.
she says "were gunna go see carlos"
im so pumped because he works in this haunted banbury place building
and the fact that i get to see him
[story of the building]

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The Reputed History:
Banbury Place consists of a labyrinth of 13 old buildings that used to be a rubber factory.
In building number 13, an electrician was accidentally electrocuted while working after hours on an air-conditioning unit. His charred body wasn't discovered until the following week.
There was a major fire in one of the buildings resulting in a fatality.
Building number 4 is chained shut with a huge metal chain, and the interior is overrun with rats.
There is a maze of underground tunnels that connect the buildings. Occasionally homeless people will utilize them as a makeshift domicile.
One of the buildings used to be a shoe factory. For some unknown reason it was shut down in mid-production and the equipment and materials were abandoned. Partially assembled shoes, pieces of rubber, and open bottles of glue are still sitting there as if the workers just suddenly evacuated the building in the middle of production. One rumor is that the company moved to Chippewa Falls and is now the Red Wing shoe company.


The Investigation:
Banbury Place used to be the Uniroyal plant where they manufactured tires.
Apparently it was a tenant who died of an accidental electrocution while growing marijuana plants. Further information is pending.
We have found no evidence of a major fire resulting in a fatality.
We are not aware of a Red Wing shoe factory in Chippewa Falls, but there is a Mason Shoes factory there. Apparently there never was a shoe factory in Banbury Place.


The Reputed Phenomena:
Every since the person was killed in building 13, people have heard strange sounds such as moans, screams, and the hum of an old air conditioning unit. This building is alleged to be the scariest.
In building 4, people have sensed a eerie presence.
People have reported seeing strange figures and shadows down in the tunnels.


we leave and i take a nap
wake up and realize i havent taken pictures.
and become depressed
and insane with taking pictures of everything.
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so the days are normal we go out to eat
i played on googletv
took pictures
met cute boys
met an australian boy
bonded with my brother
visited the UW eau clair campus and loved it :]
went to a rocky horror picture show showing/skits
i gues all the college kids dressed up as ccharachters rom TRHPS
and pranced aorund and sang
threw rice
had newspapers
threw toast
danced haha it was intense.
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i woke up and had awsome pancakes and milk out of BAG!
haha it was SO good.
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it was finally sunday and time for me to go home
and it starts snowing...
flights cancelled for 2 DAYS.
yah..
so in those days i drank rootBEER.
hehe
and went to A&W mmmm :]
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and went to the MALL OF AMERICA!
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and went to this store called ragstock
[that store could convnce soomeone in living i the midwest to never leave!]
and i have gloria jeans<3
look at engagment rings haha
go to crazy resteraunts
like buba gubba shrimp
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and become a chaparone for drunks who convice the waiters i lived in the town where the haunting in connecticut was haah
nad find a store called "lola"
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i fell inlove with WISCONSSIN.
the little community and their accents and the cute tattoo shops and ahh it was adorable.
but it was time for to go home
and the airport had gelato waiting for me
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at the airport i get a call from my roomate saying i was just deliverd a dozen red roses.
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2 flights and delay and missed flight later..
[because obama was at my airport]
i finally arrive home and see my roses
amazing vegas_ sent them to me
gosh that man puts giggles in me<3
but yah thats been really it.
ive been working at stuff talking time off from CHAT
[click the spoiler if your a chat kid and feel my anger]


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I still think your a cunt and stupid for putting my business out there.
heres a video for you too

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fuShlbZcauU
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everybody knows I’m a motherfucking monster
conquer, stomp ya, stop your silly nonsense
none of you niggas know where the swamp is
none of you niggas have seen the carnage that I’ve seen
I still hear fiends scream in my dream
murder murder in black convertibles
I kill a block I murder avenues
rape and pillage a village, women and children
everybody wanna know what my Achilles' heel is



So this is where my blog was SUPPOSED to end,since i thought better things could not happen.
Maybe its the fact that im FINALLY appreciating things
Or my luck has just turned and that i dont really see the bad anymore.
Or is there any?

When i got home after writing this blog
I come to find a pacakage waiting for me,saying LOLA...
I automaticly know its SG involved...
Fearing the fact of ANTHRAX i wrap a scarf around my face and go outside and open the package.
Seems like someone,got me something off my wishlist.
A cactus pup.and a 8 inch bastardino at that!
I start to tear because i absolutly cannot belive someone on sg cares enough to buy me a toy.

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THEN today at work was a little diffrent my friend mitch went to jail on the 3rd and mailed a letter to the manager of my store,in the letter it says things like how they wont give him his antidepresants and how lonley it already is and how its nice to sleeep all day,and the end of the letter without mentioning anyone but our boss,he says and tell lola to write and send pictures to me like she promised.
And in the front it reminds me again to.
And this feeling of purelove and sadness turns my heart into mush and my insides into stones.
And for a good 20 min i start to go into this mellowdramatic phase claiming i cant workhere anymore!
The STORY BEHIND THE BOY.

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so his name is mitchell and we wroked together for almost 2 years and he was the guy who could easily put a smile on anyones face,he had his mistakes but he was so hurt from the world that he just couldnt show his love other than erarticly but it was nice at time.well when he first was hired the joke was that he had a crush on me,as months went by i could tell it was true but he was like my work bestfriend,then xmas came by and he got me exactly what i wanted! It got to the point where he said he would leave his wife if i gave him a chance..and the reason he always bumped into me was because i was his dream girl...but he really wasnt my type...i mean NOTHING i could just stand haha we got along but thats it,we shared secrets but there was nothing more on my behalf,it broke my heart when he would come in tearing about his abusive realtionship and how he was so upset with marrying her but it was alla amistake,i was always there for him,and then when he told how his wife and him were home togetther and cops came in and foun drugs on the table he automaticlly took the blame.[all the drugs were hers] and even tough he hated his wife,he knew she just wouldnt be able to survive in jail.so he took the blaame and now hes gone for a year,and by that time idk where ill be but i will always remember him and stay in contact,i will write to him all the time and send him pictures of the life he had on the outside and it just breaks my heart because he just never deserved it.


So after that my day was ok..
It was POURING OUT TODAY,and i hear a beep and say hello how can i help you
A man on the intercom says an umbrella please
I laugh and say i dont have one and i have to walk all the way to the bus stop
I take his order and he drives up and asks wheres the umbrella less girl?
I say me?
And he proceeds to pull out his umbrella and give to me and says i have so many
And right there my heart melts.
And i say thank you so much
Idc what anyone says but if theres a god out there,after 18 years i havent loved him so much.
And let me tell you
I lost my ipod touch the other day and my room is haunted but,it doesnt matter because life is so good right now.
I may not have a bf or even a someone but i dont need that ,i tend to forget that im only 18 and love is SO far away and i swear i wake up thinking,
Im running out of time as if i were 28 or something haah.


i think im gunna visit Homemadeshank,well probably end up conversating over his most beautiful gf/future baby mama shyla
WELL,im getting over my cold with no medicine and its taking long.
But whatever haah.

Lolana out.
xoxo
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ps:heres a poem if you like to read my stuff.

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ive got scars where i shoulda had beauty marks. ink stains where your hand shoulda laid. im a mess i tell you. all i can do is write for you,dammit write for you



and they tell me i should stop using my pen as my weapon but ive done it for soo long.

ive got scars on my wrist from when i tolld myself if i dug the ink into myself

everything would flow from me.

as easy as the blood flow

and now ive got ink stains all over my hands and face,

if i could just replace it all with you warmth maybe id get better.

and here i am writing for you

agonizing over you

wimpering over the whole ordeal

ive got deadly poems where i shoulda

had pictures of us in the grass or at the park that day.

and the ink is goin no where yet everywhere

but right out of me as my body rejects it.

i just felt that maybe i wouldnt have to write for you again

that maybe it would just write itself on my mind

in my dreams.

but it wont

so i cover up my scars

because i dont got a single beauty mark.



MARCH 3, 2011 @ 08:54 PM | 10 COMMENTS


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FEBRUARY 19, 2011 @ 08:58 AM


this is what happens when you give me a pair of sg undies,a camera,a upset heart and tie it all with a bow and put a wisconsin sticker on it.
And then all the sudden mayday comes in "baby I understand that your making new friends,and this is how you get by"
[play video then look at pics ]



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