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How many ways can you break a heart?
And can it happen slightly?
what is love like?
And could you be the most beautiful woman in a man/woman eyes?
And how about this...
Could you Be inlove with someone who's inlove with someone else?
Could you feel beautiful in a person eyes,if you know someone else is being their muse?
I dont want to say that I can answer any of those 6 questions..
But I can answer two.
And I don't like it one bit.
And can it happen slightly?
what is love like?
And could you be the most beautiful woman in a man/woman eyes?
And how about this...
Could you Be inlove with someone who's inlove with someone else?
Could you feel beautiful in a person eyes,if you know someone else is being their muse?
I dont want to say that I can answer any of those 6 questions..
But I can answer two.
And I don't like it one bit.
It was just 11:11
And I didn't wish for something that was actually rooted by a superficial idea.
But for the best.
And I didn't wish for something that was actually rooted by a superficial idea.
But for the best.
I really love talking about sex.
Not like hey talk dirty to me,unless
It's in the middle of sex or something.
But idk maybe it's because I'm young and sex is so cool,and all I want to do
Is think of ways to have better
Sex.
I know this may sound super strange comming from me,but idk
I guess call this a "dirty secret" of
Mine.
But yah no worries,I'm gunnanwrite a real blog soon.
Not like hey talk dirty to me,unless
It's in the middle of sex or something.
But idk maybe it's because I'm young and sex is so cool,and all I want to do
Is think of ways to have better
Sex.
I know this may sound super strange comming from me,but idk
I guess call this a "dirty secret" of
Mine.
But yah no worries,I'm gunnanwrite a real blog soon.
10 Years ago today I was in 3rd grade (I think)
I remember sitting in my desk and teachers kept running in and out of the class room.
And one of the students was pulled out of class.
They let us all go home early.
So I get to my house and my big brother was sitting on the couch watching TV
So I sit down next to him as they show clips over and over again of the planes crashing in the world trade center.
The smoke going on for what looked like miles.
And it seemed like the attacks were never ending.
My family and I used to take trips to NYC every summer with my family that was here from puertorico and act like extreme tourist.
I can still perfectly remember that august 2001 trip to the world trade center
Standing just outside of it next to huge flower pots.
And then going inside,getting on a elevator and go up as high as possible.
And I remember the kind black lady behind the desk,and royal blue carpet,and holding on to the separator that kept people away from the glass.
And I remember thinking how scary it was to be that high up.
Or how my cousin was on that plane,but landing in Boston.instead of leaving from there.
My heart goes out to every person who's lost somebody due to the 9/11 attacks.
I made my house do a moment of silence for all the firefighters and police officers who's lives were lost 10 years ago today.
God bless.
Love,lolana.
I remember sitting in my desk and teachers kept running in and out of the class room.
And one of the students was pulled out of class.
They let us all go home early.
So I get to my house and my big brother was sitting on the couch watching TV
So I sit down next to him as they show clips over and over again of the planes crashing in the world trade center.
The smoke going on for what looked like miles.
And it seemed like the attacks were never ending.
My family and I used to take trips to NYC every summer with my family that was here from puertorico and act like extreme tourist.
I can still perfectly remember that august 2001 trip to the world trade center
Standing just outside of it next to huge flower pots.
And then going inside,getting on a elevator and go up as high as possible.
And I remember the kind black lady behind the desk,and royal blue carpet,and holding on to the separator that kept people away from the glass.
And I remember thinking how scary it was to be that high up.
Or how my cousin was on that plane,but landing in Boston.instead of leaving from there.
My heart goes out to every person who's lost somebody due to the 9/11 attacks.
I made my house do a moment of silence for all the firefighters and police officers who's lives were lost 10 years ago today.
God bless.
Love,lolana.
Im in sort of a bad time and it sucks so hard.
i have to pay all these bills.
i dropped my phone in the toilet and now im phoneless and its driving me insane.
and i dont have the money for a new one.
dont have internet at home.
my birthday is the 23rd.
and i probably wont get a single thing,i dont expect anything its just well maybe a card.
the worst part is my self asteem is to shit.
i feel lke a big part is this site.
fuck,september is miserable.
and just wish this would all go away.
all this damn rain really doesnt help one bit.
the fact that im trying my hardest not to gain feelings for this guy doesnt help...
i lost all my pictures from comic con,LA and hell city fuck im so upset.
il try to upload what i do have with my next blog.
some of my fave pics from my set
i have to pay all these bills.
i dropped my phone in the toilet and now im phoneless and its driving me insane.
and i dont have the money for a new one.
dont have internet at home.
my birthday is the 23rd.
and i probably wont get a single thing,i dont expect anything its just well maybe a card.
the worst part is my self asteem is to shit.
i feel lke a big part is this site.
fuck,september is miserable.
and just wish this would all go away.
all this damn rain really doesnt help one bit.
the fact that im trying my hardest not to gain feelings for this guy doesnt help...
i lost all my pictures from comic con,LA and hell city fuck im so upset.
il try to upload what i do have with my next blog.
some of my fave pics from my set
I've been lurking the site a lot lately.
And all I want to say is how disappointing some people are.
Whatever happend to the love of alternative modeling...
All people seem to care about is arguing about how this and that are unfair.
Shut up.
If you loved the alternative modeling industry,praise it with every bit of change,
Love it with every new direction it takes.
Yes, fight for what you love and feel is right.
(like staff photography or business aspects)
But dont do it for attention and approval,that's just sad.
And don't you dare point fingers at the ones that have done no wrong.
Fuck,I'll always say I'm a fan before a Suicidegirl.
And all I want to say is how disappointing some people are.
Whatever happend to the love of alternative modeling...
All people seem to care about is arguing about how this and that are unfair.
Shut up.
If you loved the alternative modeling industry,praise it with every bit of change,
Love it with every new direction it takes.
Yes, fight for what you love and feel is right.
(like staff photography or business aspects)
But dont do it for attention and approval,that's just sad.
And don't you dare point fingers at the ones that have done no wrong.
Fuck,I'll always say I'm a fan before a Suicidegirl.
so this is my unofficial blog,there will be more later but
first off i wanted to say its gunna be amazing.
second,thank you everyone for the awesome love on my set,even with these stupid site glitchs,thankyou<3
Mala Conducta Lovins
first off i wanted to say its gunna be amazing.
second,thank you everyone for the awesome love on my set,even with these stupid site glitchs,thankyou<3
Mala Conducta Lovins
Life changed for the better,and I'm excited.I saved my apartment,which means new roomates. yah and I'm taking time off from everything just to work and rest.
No love life still and that's fine.
I'll be at hellcity btw
And I got a new kitty!!
AndHomemadeshankis making me burgers as we speak!!
Later alligators!!
No love life still and that's fine.
I'll be at hellcity btw
And I got a new kitty!!
AndHomemadeshankis making me burgers as we speak!!
Later alligators!!
It's so hard for me to sleep,and whenever I try to write it deletes itself.and all I can hear is Adele singing in my head.
I'm having such a hard time with things going on in my life.I try and it loves to crumble infront of me.last night I had to put my big girl pants on and attempt to save everyone.
My life is a madhouse right now.
Last night I had to get through to someone who was so engulfed with anger and pain,that they couldnt hear me,
so I had to scream their name with every bit of force and angst inside of me,the only time I can recall screaming like that was in a nightmare when I was trying to save someone from a burning car. It took me hours to regain myself because after that scream i was emotionally wrecked.
I know I can't save everyone but I brought balance back even if it meant to losing some myself.
And I did so good being strong for everyone,I did so good keeping my strong will.
But I think I may start to feel the cracks.i don't want to but I can tell,because writing this is hard for me, I won't cry I swear I just feel sick.
And in the next few days I get to watch my self lose everything I worked for,or some luck will come my way and it'll all be saved.
I'm sorry about this complaining but I'm supposed to be the strong one so I have no one to talk to.
I go around and tell everyone to live their lives happily,and I mean it,my excitement and value for others is real.
There's no fake smile here.
But
The worst part about this is i know once I press send and this blog is done I'll spend the next few hours staring at my ceiling in bed hopping that I'll never fall in love, I know Im not but why is he all I think about.
Would I have left sooner if I never met him?
If he ever saw this I'd probably keel over.
I guess I could sit here and pray my soul out for a guiding light.
Till then Idk.
Goodnight or good morning love Lolana
I'm having such a hard time with things going on in my life.I try and it loves to crumble infront of me.last night I had to put my big girl pants on and attempt to save everyone.
My life is a madhouse right now.
Last night I had to get through to someone who was so engulfed with anger and pain,that they couldnt hear me,
so I had to scream their name with every bit of force and angst inside of me,the only time I can recall screaming like that was in a nightmare when I was trying to save someone from a burning car. It took me hours to regain myself because after that scream i was emotionally wrecked.
I know I can't save everyone but I brought balance back even if it meant to losing some myself.
And I did so good being strong for everyone,I did so good keeping my strong will.
But I think I may start to feel the cracks.i don't want to but I can tell,because writing this is hard for me, I won't cry I swear I just feel sick.
And in the next few days I get to watch my self lose everything I worked for,or some luck will come my way and it'll all be saved.
I'm sorry about this complaining but I'm supposed to be the strong one so I have no one to talk to.
I go around and tell everyone to live their lives happily,and I mean it,my excitement and value for others is real.
There's no fake smile here.
But
The worst part about this is i know once I press send and this blog is done I'll spend the next few hours staring at my ceiling in bed hopping that I'll never fall in love, I know Im not but why is he all I think about.
Would I have left sooner if I never met him?
If he ever saw this I'd probably keel over.
I guess I could sit here and pray my soul out for a guiding light.
Till then Idk.
Goodnight or good morning love Lolana
