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Well, I made it to Oakland!
It was a fairly seamless plan and execution.
I'm still settling in and I start working tomorrow, which I'm TOTALLY stoked about!
I didn't get the job that I really, really wanted, but I got a job, and after the orientation today, I feel a lot better about what I'm going to be doing. It's only for a month, but like I said, I got a job and this could lead to something great!
It's been weird being closer to the dude. Yesterday he called me after band practice and asked me where I was. I said, "I'm just at home", and he said, after an awkward pause, "Can I come over?"
It was the weirdest thing! But really wonderful too
I'm sorry I haven't been on here much, but you can assume the above is to blame, because it is.
I may not be on as much in the future either, it's hard to say.
This is going to be very interesting and I'm excited.
I feel my creativity coming back and I really hope it's not just a feeling.
This weekend will be interesting because the dude will be out of town for the weekend on tour...funny, huh?
I plan on making lots of home improvements in his absence and hopefully meeting some Bay Area peeps now that I should have some time on my hands...hopefully, I don't even know what my work hours will be, I may have to work.
Anyway, my going away party was really neat! First my work surprised me at work with 2 huge cakes, booze, balloons, cards, gifts and lots of hugs, goodbyes and well wishes-I cried, it was the sweetest thing!
Then later was the real party and a lot of SGs and SGLA peeps came out. I felt really loved, thank you all who came. Here is a blurry phone cam pic, taken by Fixer
I look really happy, maybe it's because I was?
Thanks again guys!
I'll write more soon, I have to get ready for my first day at work! WOO HOO!
xoxo,
Lizzi
It was a fairly seamless plan and execution.
I'm still settling in and I start working tomorrow, which I'm TOTALLY stoked about!
I didn't get the job that I really, really wanted, but I got a job, and after the orientation today, I feel a lot better about what I'm going to be doing. It's only for a month, but like I said, I got a job and this could lead to something great!
It's been weird being closer to the dude. Yesterday he called me after band practice and asked me where I was. I said, "I'm just at home", and he said, after an awkward pause, "Can I come over?"
It was the weirdest thing! But really wonderful too
I'm sorry I haven't been on here much, but you can assume the above is to blame, because it is.
I may not be on as much in the future either, it's hard to say.
This is going to be very interesting and I'm excited.
I feel my creativity coming back and I really hope it's not just a feeling.
This weekend will be interesting because the dude will be out of town for the weekend on tour...funny, huh?
I plan on making lots of home improvements in his absence and hopefully meeting some Bay Area peeps now that I should have some time on my hands...hopefully, I don't even know what my work hours will be, I may have to work.
Anyway, my going away party was really neat! First my work surprised me at work with 2 huge cakes, booze, balloons, cards, gifts and lots of hugs, goodbyes and well wishes-I cried, it was the sweetest thing!
Then later was the real party and a lot of SGs and SGLA peeps came out. I felt really loved, thank you all who came. Here is a blurry phone cam pic, taken by Fixer
I look really happy, maybe it's because I was?
Thanks again guys!
I'll write more soon, I have to get ready for my first day at work! WOO HOO!
xoxo,
Lizzi
Does anyone see anyone familiar in the bottom left corner?
I worked on this movie for two days back in May-ish/June-ish.
I was messing around with the dude online and checked out the status of "Hell Ride" online.
That popped up and we were both like, "Uhhhhhhh, is that you/me?"
I was a featured extra in the movie and these pictures where used as background in the road house scene:
I worked on this movie for two days back in May-ish/June-ish.
I was messing around with the dude online and checked out the status of "Hell Ride" online.
That popped up and we were both like, "Uhhhhhhh, is that you/me?"
I was a featured extra in the movie and these pictures where used as background in the road house scene:
It premiered at Sundance Film Festival and I'm really anxious to see it. Not sure if my scenes were cut, but it appears I made the poster?
Pretty exciting!
Anywho,
I found a place but I'm still looking for a job in the Bay Area.
It's two weeks away now...holy shit balls 
It was really good to hang out with the dude for the weekend, even though it was only for about a day.
It made me feel less crazy and more accepting and ready.
I'm keeping positive, something will happen.
I'm being way too proactive for it to not.
I'm applying, checking in and applying again everyday.
I'm starting to get a little loose with my cover letters in order to try to get noticed.
I was talking to a friend the other night about the perfect balance between outgoing and charming as opposed to crazy and weird.
I want my personality to pop, not make people not ever want to meet me ever.
We'll see.
Thank you for all your encouraging comments, they really do help.
xoxo
Lizzi
I crammed a lot in last month.
-I quit smoking
-I've tracked down many **"things" that I need to get my life in order
-I put in my 30 days at my job
-I put in my 30 days at my place
-I cut up all my credit cards and got on a consolidation plan. I'm not allowed to use credit for like, 4 years.
-I'm applying for jobs everyday
-I'm looking for a place everyday
**too boring to mention, but good for me.
Some of these things make the other things harder to do, like the not smoking and the not charging.
The thought of having to move with cash only, is kind of freaking me out.
I'm doing really well at working towards my goals, but I still feel like I'm failing. I just feel like I'm floating.
I went and had dinner with the current roommates and the girl that is going to take my room.
That was really hard to do.
My work told me to write up an ad to post online for my job.
That was really hard to do.
All these people are moving on from something I chose to do, yet, I don't have anything yet.
Stressed isn't the right word, neither is depressed.
I'm just trying to be methodical about everything and it's just leaving me with a glazed over look.
I'm gaining weight.
I'm crying a lot.
I have no style right now.
I do not wish to be photographed (although, I love my hair right now, so there's that)
I'm being really hard on myself.
I feel like this attitude is affecting my relationship with the very reason I chose to do all this.
This is supposed to be a happy, festive time. People get up and leave all the time and don't think two thoughts about it, and those people usually don't have any money either.
So why I'm I making it such a big deal?
I've been getting up early in the morning to take my dog for a walk and collect my thoughts.
I don't have anything to my name, but I thought, "I just need to be a person that little Lizzi would've wanted to be"
Am I that person?
A resounding yes.
My little niece from Washington grabbed the phone to talk to me the other night, (which she's doing more and more, so cute!) and said, "I want tattoos just like you!" She's 3.
That felt really good and not because tattoos are, "good", but because she wants to be like me.
I needed to hear that.
I wished I could hug her.
I'll be alright.
I can do this.
It's all going to come together.
xoxo,
Lizzi
-I quit smoking
-I've tracked down many **"things" that I need to get my life in order
-I put in my 30 days at my job
-I put in my 30 days at my place
-I cut up all my credit cards and got on a consolidation plan. I'm not allowed to use credit for like, 4 years.
-I'm applying for jobs everyday
-I'm looking for a place everyday
**too boring to mention, but good for me.
Some of these things make the other things harder to do, like the not smoking and the not charging.
The thought of having to move with cash only, is kind of freaking me out.
I'm doing really well at working towards my goals, but I still feel like I'm failing. I just feel like I'm floating.
I went and had dinner with the current roommates and the girl that is going to take my room.
That was really hard to do.
My work told me to write up an ad to post online for my job.
That was really hard to do.
All these people are moving on from something I chose to do, yet, I don't have anything yet.
Stressed isn't the right word, neither is depressed.
I'm just trying to be methodical about everything and it's just leaving me with a glazed over look.
I'm gaining weight.
I'm crying a lot.
I have no style right now.
I do not wish to be photographed (although, I love my hair right now, so there's that)
I'm being really hard on myself.
I feel like this attitude is affecting my relationship with the very reason I chose to do all this.
This is supposed to be a happy, festive time. People get up and leave all the time and don't think two thoughts about it, and those people usually don't have any money either.
So why I'm I making it such a big deal?
I've been getting up early in the morning to take my dog for a walk and collect my thoughts.
I don't have anything to my name, but I thought, "I just need to be a person that little Lizzi would've wanted to be"
Am I that person?
A resounding yes.
My little niece from Washington grabbed the phone to talk to me the other night, (which she's doing more and more, so cute!) and said, "I want tattoos just like you!" She's 3.
That felt really good and not because tattoos are, "good", but because she wants to be like me.
I needed to hear that.
I wished I could hug her.
I'll be alright.
I can do this.
It's all going to come together.
xoxo,
Lizzi
Time for an update:
Still not smoking and I'm almost at week 3. Strangely, I haven't cheated and I've made it past the fear of hanging with my friends that smoke. I was worried about that, because some of my good friends are smokers and I want to hang out with them.
Friday my dude came down for a visit and we went to "Wicked" for my Christmas present and it was really, really good. I loved it!
Saturday was, "Cloverfield".
Here is my review that I cut and pasted from the Horror group, because I'm lazy.
Still not smoking and I'm almost at week 3. Strangely, I haven't cheated and I've made it past the fear of hanging with my friends that smoke. I was worried about that, because some of my good friends are smokers and I want to hang out with them.
Friday my dude came down for a visit and we went to "Wicked" for my Christmas present and it was really, really good. I loved it!
Saturday was, "Cloverfield".
Here is my review that I cut and pasted from the Horror group, because I'm lazy.
I give it a "GEH!" and an "OH BROTHER!"
I also got to hang out with my good friends Rigel (who has a beautiful set up today that you should go see) and Sugarkones. They finally met the dude. I have been trying to set up this double date for a while and we had a great time!
Yesterday, the dude and I went hiking and went to the Intronaut/Winterthrall/The Funeral Pyre/Book of Black Earth show. I hadn't seen The Funeral Pyre in a while. Either they got better, or I'm an idiot cause they sounded really good to me this time....it could easily be both?
Anyway, the dude has gone, and now I'm back to the real world.
Worries about money and finding a job and place to work in the Bay Area riddle my mind.
Did I mention I'm moving there in March?
I'm moving there in March.
I'm kind of freaking out.
But it will be great and I will find a great job and a great place, right?
Anyway, I'm off to Amoeba to sell a bunch of CDs and movies for cash for said worries...but you know I'm just going to take the store credit anyway 
Whatever, at least my load will be lighter.
xoxo,
Lizzi
I'm freaking out!
This whole weekend I have been trying to take care of business. I put aside all the things I wanted to do so I could get shit done. With all my planning, I got most of it done, but today I have spent the whole day trying to remove the window tint from my car.
It's bubbling, ridiculous looking, and I haven't been able to really see that well through it in a while.
I wanted to do it in the most earth friendly way and I find myself to be fairly handy, so I decided to steam it off.
I was successful at getting the tint off, but not the glue and I refuse to use razors.
I have tried almost every method on the internet short of getting into an asbestos alien suit.
Now, not only can I not see well, I CAN'T SEE AT ALL!!!
I have no boyfriend here to help me, I'm broke, my friends are all out enjoying normal Sunday activities and I have to get up early for work tomorrow with, apparently, all my windows rolled down!
I'm about to have the whinyiest, baby diarrhea fit on the planet and I REALLY WANT A CIGARETTE RIGHT NOW!
I'm so. so frustrated right now....I don't even want to talk.
GAH!!! *pumps fists
I'm gonna go wash the dog now so we can both be miserable.
EDIT:
I washed my dog, changed my diaper, and got back out there. I hadn't quite let my last plan of action set just yet and when I got out there, the glue totally came off.
I guess that was the bad part of quitting that I keep hearing about but haven't experienced until today. My brain just shut off after frustration and then the craving became all I could think about for about an hour. I was so unreasonably angry there for a bit. It's funny now.
I didn't quite do my research on the things that are happening to me right now, I should look some stuff up on quitting smoking. I knew I was going to have at least a hack, but I've been sick for over a week now and the snot won't stop.
This isn't my first tantrum come to think of it...hahaha. I've been so oblivious until now.
Anyway, all is well, my car is tint free (and yes, I bought it like that about 8 years ago) and I'm still cigarette free.
Thanks for all your support! I'll write more soon, shower time!
xoxo
This whole weekend I have been trying to take care of business. I put aside all the things I wanted to do so I could get shit done. With all my planning, I got most of it done, but today I have spent the whole day trying to remove the window tint from my car.
It's bubbling, ridiculous looking, and I haven't been able to really see that well through it in a while.
I wanted to do it in the most earth friendly way and I find myself to be fairly handy, so I decided to steam it off.
I was successful at getting the tint off, but not the glue and I refuse to use razors.
I have tried almost every method on the internet short of getting into an asbestos alien suit.
Now, not only can I not see well, I CAN'T SEE AT ALL!!!
I have no boyfriend here to help me, I'm broke, my friends are all out enjoying normal Sunday activities and I have to get up early for work tomorrow with, apparently, all my windows rolled down!
I'm about to have the whinyiest, baby diarrhea fit on the planet and I REALLY WANT A CIGARETTE RIGHT NOW!
I'm so. so frustrated right now....I don't even want to talk.
GAH!!! *pumps fists
I'm gonna go wash the dog now so we can both be miserable.
EDIT:
I washed my dog, changed my diaper, and got back out there. I hadn't quite let my last plan of action set just yet and when I got out there, the glue totally came off.
I guess that was the bad part of quitting that I keep hearing about but haven't experienced until today. My brain just shut off after frustration and then the craving became all I could think about for about an hour. I was so unreasonably angry there for a bit. It's funny now.
I didn't quite do my research on the things that are happening to me right now, I should look some stuff up on quitting smoking. I knew I was going to have at least a hack, but I've been sick for over a week now and the snot won't stop.
This isn't my first tantrum come to think of it...hahaha. I've been so oblivious until now.
Anyway, all is well, my car is tint free (and yes, I bought it like that about 8 years ago) and I'm still cigarette free.
Thanks for all your support! I'll write more soon, shower time!
xoxo
I don't really have much to say...just sitting here drinking wine and watching Metalocalypse DVDs with Sawa.
I quit smoking. I'm on day 5. I'm sick because my lungs are healing....I think.
It's actually not as hard as I thought it would be. It's kinda neat feeling your body rid itself of toxins. SCIENCE!
Thank you for all the birthday wishes!
I went the the Monterey Bay Aquarium and Body Worlds 2 for my birthday.
I did so much stuff, I can't even mention it. It was a lot of fun and really busy up there in the Bay.
I feel like I'm still adjusting to being back and working, but Sawa is making it a lot easier
and now, a video that I hold near and dear...
more soon!
xoxo
I quit smoking. I'm on day 5. I'm sick because my lungs are healing....I think.
It's actually not as hard as I thought it would be. It's kinda neat feeling your body rid itself of toxins. SCIENCE!
Thank you for all the birthday wishes!
I went the the Monterey Bay Aquarium and Body Worlds 2 for my birthday.
I did so much stuff, I can't even mention it. It was a lot of fun and really busy up there in the Bay.
I feel like I'm still adjusting to being back and working, but Sawa is making it a lot easier
and now, a video that I hold near and dear...
more soon!
xoxo
Remember that garbage about trying not to swear for the sake of the children during the holidays?
Well, fuck it.
I didn't know they made children like that.
I can't think of anything holiday-y or christmas-y to say, so that, my friends, is my holiday blog!
I leave tomorrow for the Bay for about a week and a half. I'm pretty excited to chill with my dude for such an extended amount of time and apparently most of Washington state will be there for the new year celebration as well.
Many, many awesome things will be happening.
Have a great Holiday!
xoxo
Well, fuck it.
I didn't know they made children like that.
I can't think of anything holiday-y or christmas-y to say, so that, my friends, is my holiday blog!
I leave tomorrow for the Bay for about a week and a half. I'm pretty excited to chill with my dude for such an extended amount of time and apparently most of Washington state will be there for the new year celebration as well.
Many, many awesome things will be happening.
Have a great Holiday!
xoxo
Alright, eff that noise!
Here is some happy-go-lucky crap (still trying to not swear, haha! What!? It's the ferken holidays! I'm going to be around children, what?!)
Pet Penguin!!
Johnny Knighttrain, Cable Access Figure Skating Championship
Final Countdown on Cello and orchestra
There, now we all feel better!
xoxo
Here is some happy-go-lucky crap (still trying to not swear, haha! What!? It's the ferken holidays! I'm going to be around children, what?!)
Pet Penguin!!
Johnny Knighttrain, Cable Access Figure Skating Championship
Final Countdown on Cello and orchestra
There, now we all feel better!
xoxo
