what to do when im sad...smoke, i hate this bad habit!!

Sometimes life is a bitch punching me again and again...I cant stop the nightmares and the bad news...sleeping time and wake up time seem the same...
time to hear alice in Chains and Stone Temple pilots and Soundgarden...

well... apart from good music... I have a cloudy day at least...

A bug bite me the leg a bunch of times and now is soooo red and hurting... I should go to the doctor or buy something at the pharmacy cos is making me mad

a friend called me again to ask me if we are going to london or not... but at the moment... i hardly can pay the rent
and i dont want my family still pay my things... everybody seem doing well except me... i should find a work soon
i feel useless...

oh this post sucks...

hope to post sth more positive next time...