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i guess my life is kinda settlign down from my last post. its been a while since i signed on...i needed a web-diet. ever since i cut out mysapce, the creepy feeling of stalker-awareness is fading. the issue about my family uncovering this dirt on me is also starting to settle.
in other news, im insanely in love with someone i shouldnt be and i just finished working 3 eighteen hour shifts because hte president of our company came to do a store visit, so once i get rested, and once i take care of my grody tanlines, i will FINALLY and without further delay, shoot my set. jesus.\
the end.
i like you all. Kemper and Tao even more.
and p.s.: thanks Shazzy for being patient
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in other news, im insanely in love with someone i shouldnt be and i just finished working 3 eighteen hour shifts because hte president of our company came to do a store visit, so once i get rested, and once i take care of my grody tanlines, i will FINALLY and without further delay, shoot my set. jesus.\
the end.
i like you all. Kemper and Tao even more.
and p.s.: thanks Shazzy for being patient
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the shooting of my new set is being postponed....until....i dunno when.
thanks.
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p.s.: my life = sucking the big left one right now.
thanks.
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p.s.: my life = sucking the big left one right now.
IM SHOOTING MY NEW SET IN A COUPLE OF WEEKS!!!!!!!!!!!! MID-JUNE = NEW SET SUBMITTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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YAY! im so friggin thrilled!!! the second it gets approved you must all unite and force SG to make it go live asap! lol
I will keep you posted!
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YAY! im so friggin thrilled!!! the second it gets approved you must all unite and force SG to make it go live asap! lol
I will keep you posted!
I love
Shazzy
I wanna do a multi really bad. the end.
i really wanna know this though; if you were to do a multi, which SG would it be with?
I was thinking of that today and, if traveling, money and all those complications weren't a factor, I really dont know who Id chose (assuming I could only do one in my whole life, of course!)
I think it'd come down to
Tao, Gogo, or Sawa...hmmm or Sash.....or...lol AH! mental! Everyone seems to have done multi's and i really want to too.
ok thats all.
i really wanna know this though; if you were to do a multi, which SG would it be with?
I was thinking of that today and, if traveling, money and all those complications weren't a factor, I really dont know who Id chose (assuming I could only do one in my whole life, of course!)
I think it'd come down to
Tao, Gogo, or Sawa...hmmm or Sash.....or...lol AH! mental! Everyone seems to have done multi's and i really want to too.
ok thats all.
why i had to delete my myspace.
um...because internet stalkers suck my left one. thanks
the end.
grrr....
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this is now the only place ppl can contact me. thank god.
um...because internet stalkers suck my left one. thanks
the end.
grrr....
>.<
this is now the only place ppl can contact me. thank god.
an artist worth observing.
so Ive been friends with this guy for a good 4-5 years. i always new he "could draw" but i never actually saw his work until last week when he needed opinions on which pieces to choose for a website he was starting to build. um wow. seriously, i felt so stupid knowing him that long and not appreciating him completely the entire time. i was amazed.
I guess i can appreciate it because i struggle with the drawing aspect of my design program but wtv.
he is now drawing me a tattoo i plan on getting some day. you should allow him to do the same for you. His website is most classically focused as he is tryign to be "professional" but this kid can DRAW....and color in the lines!!! lol
www.claudetheflea.com
its worth it.
so Ive been friends with this guy for a good 4-5 years. i always new he "could draw" but i never actually saw his work until last week when he needed opinions on which pieces to choose for a website he was starting to build. um wow. seriously, i felt so stupid knowing him that long and not appreciating him completely the entire time. i was amazed.
I guess i can appreciate it because i struggle with the drawing aspect of my design program but wtv.
he is now drawing me a tattoo i plan on getting some day. you should allow him to do the same for you. His website is most classically focused as he is tryign to be "professional" but this kid can DRAW....and color in the lines!!! lol
www.claudetheflea.com
its worth it.
things are looking up! GIMME YOUR OPINIONS!!!!
i finally made a decision on the next tattoo Im getting. sometime in the next 2 weeks and at the same time, i will finish the tattoo i have on my hip.
i got that tattoo when i was 14 years old and i thought, with 70$ i would ahve enough to have two hearts, one on each side....the guy was nice enough to finish the first one with some color. lol. so im going to put the same thing on the other side of my hip and possibly have mini spider webs (in flourescent green or orange....hmmm) come out the top for 3 inches-ish.... <---IM NOT SURE ABOUT THIS PART. SEND ME AN OPINION!!!!
Ive decided to start on one of my ribcages....starting from the very bottom with a twisted take on those chinese waving kitties (im obsessed, i think i have about 10 in my room....nauseating, a little bit...when they all wave at the same time! lol). eventually this will make its way up my side. now itll either work its way up with a geisha or something in that area...or maybe well just go semi-classic and do a koi....either way, SEND ME YOUR THOUGHTS ON IT. the kitty is whats going in first thougha dn my heart is set on it. the progression wont come for another while because im already poor as it is and im kinda screwing myself as Im supposed to be saving money for a car. lol.
I also got promoted today. I am now Head of Section of the Little Boys Department at my work! lol. seriously. I am. mouahahahahahahahahaha!
Lastly. Im starting to plan my new set. Im pretty set on an idea already but if you think you have groundbreaking ones, lemme know! lol maybe itll be better than mine
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p.s.: for those of you who havent seen my set....crawl out of your hole and do so. and leave me nice comments. i like those. alot
---> is a comment-hungy whore.
lol
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some from my bday....maybe one day when i develop the shit i took on that encient disposable camera...and then muster the energy to scan them lol...ill have more.
i finally made a decision on the next tattoo Im getting. sometime in the next 2 weeks and at the same time, i will finish the tattoo i have on my hip.
i got that tattoo when i was 14 years old and i thought, with 70$ i would ahve enough to have two hearts, one on each side....the guy was nice enough to finish the first one with some color. lol. so im going to put the same thing on the other side of my hip and possibly have mini spider webs (in flourescent green or orange....hmmm) come out the top for 3 inches-ish.... <---IM NOT SURE ABOUT THIS PART. SEND ME AN OPINION!!!!
Ive decided to start on one of my ribcages....starting from the very bottom with a twisted take on those chinese waving kitties (im obsessed, i think i have about 10 in my room....nauseating, a little bit...when they all wave at the same time! lol). eventually this will make its way up my side. now itll either work its way up with a geisha or something in that area...or maybe well just go semi-classic and do a koi....either way, SEND ME YOUR THOUGHTS ON IT. the kitty is whats going in first thougha dn my heart is set on it. the progression wont come for another while because im already poor as it is and im kinda screwing myself as Im supposed to be saving money for a car. lol.
I also got promoted today. I am now Head of Section of the Little Boys Department at my work! lol. seriously. I am. mouahahahahahahahahaha!
Lastly. Im starting to plan my new set. Im pretty set on an idea already but if you think you have groundbreaking ones, lemme know! lol maybe itll be better than mine
<333
p.s.: for those of you who havent seen my set....crawl out of your hole and do so. and leave me nice comments. i like those. alot
---> is a comment-hungy whore.
lol
<333
some from my bday....maybe one day when i develop the shit i took on that encient disposable camera...and then muster the energy to scan them lol...ill have more.
WHY IM A BIG FUCKING ASSHOLE/IDIOT (i.e.: top 10 reasons why i should go hang myself almost!)
ok so about 2 nights ago, i discovered an already week old email asking me to be in the next SG magazine issue. This email detailed the fact that, since i read it a week late, i only had about a week and a half to get a buncha stuff together. now I was going to post about it cuz i was like "cool i can surprise everyone by being in it" and i was never so excited in my life and it felt so good that based on a debut set, the response has been good enough to be featured in their magazine *blah blah blah*...
so anyways. one of the requirements was to send 'candid' photos of me. the catch: no one else could be in the picture unless it was another suicidegirl. Then i start panicing because i have no such pictures. DO NOT FRET THOUGH, I HAVE AN IDEA!!!
as you know, last night i celebrated my birthday, thus i though 'what better an opportunity to get pictures of me, plus of me + my favorite/best SG buddy Tao (among other queued new SGs). So i brought my camera to my friends to get ready and I FUCKING FORGOT IT THERE. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.
bloody jesus. i have never wanted to shoot myself anymore than the moment i reached for my camera and my purse was empty. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck.
Summary: i have no pictures, thus i can send no package and any pictures i take now will have absolutely no time to get to said destination by deadline, therefore LITARAYE SUICIDE FAILS AT LIFE.
sending the email saying i regret to decline the offer was actually the worst thing ive had to do this year. i want to cry.
hopefully ill get the offer again for the next issue...something tells me these offers dont come around so often.
ugh.
ok so about 2 nights ago, i discovered an already week old email asking me to be in the next SG magazine issue. This email detailed the fact that, since i read it a week late, i only had about a week and a half to get a buncha stuff together. now I was going to post about it cuz i was like "cool i can surprise everyone by being in it" and i was never so excited in my life and it felt so good that based on a debut set, the response has been good enough to be featured in their magazine *blah blah blah*...
so anyways. one of the requirements was to send 'candid' photos of me. the catch: no one else could be in the picture unless it was another suicidegirl. Then i start panicing because i have no such pictures. DO NOT FRET THOUGH, I HAVE AN IDEA!!!
as you know, last night i celebrated my birthday, thus i though 'what better an opportunity to get pictures of me, plus of me + my favorite/best SG buddy Tao (among other queued new SGs). So i brought my camera to my friends to get ready and I FUCKING FORGOT IT THERE. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.
bloody jesus. i have never wanted to shoot myself anymore than the moment i reached for my camera and my purse was empty. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck.
Summary: i have no pictures, thus i can send no package and any pictures i take now will have absolutely no time to get to said destination by deadline, therefore LITARAYE SUICIDE FAILS AT LIFE.
sending the email saying i regret to decline the offer was actually the worst thing ive had to do this year. i want to cry.
hopefully ill get the offer again for the next issue...something tells me these offers dont come around so often.
ugh.
My stomach hates me.
I went for a little birthday luncheon with a friend and I have had an intense sushi craving for just about a week now....lets just be clear that i LOVE sushi. LOVE IT. its awesome. We went to a little sushi bar right by my house, which ive gone to for years and, in my opinion, has some of the best sushi in town for a fair price (i dunno about you guys, but good sushi can get pretty expensive here)
The aftermath: I FEEL SOOOOOO SICK 
Im in limbo right now where you can feel/taste all the different flavors scratching at the back of your throat and its only moments, im sure, before im going to be making out with my toilet bowl
*sushi...how could you let me down!?* lol. it was good for the moment though.
this nauseating feeling also makes me start realizing that its my bday tomorrow.....and i dont really have much to show for the 20 years Ive graced this planet.....hmmm....more to come on that. go comment on my set
I went for a little birthday luncheon with a friend and I have had an intense sushi craving for just about a week now....lets just be clear that i LOVE sushi. LOVE IT. its awesome. We went to a little sushi bar right by my house, which ive gone to for years and, in my opinion, has some of the best sushi in town for a fair price (i dunno about you guys, but good sushi can get pretty expensive here)
The aftermath: I FEEL SOOOOOO SICK
Im in limbo right now where you can feel/taste all the different flavors scratching at the back of your throat and its only moments, im sure, before im going to be making out with my toilet bowl
*sushi...how could you let me down!?* lol. it was good for the moment though.
this nauseating feeling also makes me start realizing that its my bday tomorrow.....and i dont really have much to show for the 20 years Ive graced this planet.....hmmm....more to come on that. go comment on my set
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! 20 years old!!!!! thats a bloody 5th of a century! I can't believe i made it! YES! TAKE THAT, JESUS! lol jks! (i knew i'd make it....*whispers* but don't tell Him)
lol
ok i'm hyper. anyway, its my bday on friday as you may already know cuz I wont shutup about it! I am partying on Saturday! I'm so fucking excited.
Now here's the plan: since you all get to see me naked- in return, you can now buy me birthday gifts and also further your knowledge of my interests while you're doing it! I actually invested my evening into what a "wishlist" was and now know why every single SG has one....lol....interesting concept...convenient...fuck yea! presents! lol
For those of you who follow my blog at all: I totally found a version of AtmosFear that is on there as we speak. whoever gets it for me gets extra pics in the mail! lol.
anways. YAY PRESENTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
P.S.: Montreal: Foufs is gonna be that much hotter this saturday.
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WOOO! lol 
I can't believe i made it! YES! TAKE THAT, JESUS! lol jks! (i knew i'd make it....*whispers* but don't tell Him)lol
ok i'm hyper. anyway, its my bday on friday as you may already know cuz I wont shutup about it! I am partying on Saturday! I'm so fucking excited.
Now here's the plan: since you all get to see me naked- in return, you can now buy me birthday gifts and also further your knowledge of my interests while you're doing it! I actually invested my evening into what a "wishlist" was and now know why every single SG has one....lol....interesting concept...convenient...fuck yea! presents! lol
For those of you who follow my blog at all: I totally found a version of AtmosFear that is on there as we speak. whoever gets it for me gets extra pics in the mail! lol.
anways. YAY PRESENTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
P.S.: Montreal: Foufs is gonna be that much hotter this saturday.
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WOOO! lol 