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JULY 17, 2010 @ 09:51 PM


ANY OLD THING JUST WON'T DO.

Sometimes there is a dream, just inside my head, and I say things I mean but wish I wouldn't have said. Like, "I think your idea sucks." I can't help myself. I'm just not prone to suggestions that I don't think make any sense. I'm quick witted and quick to snap when you can't catch up. (Not Ketchup.....expendable substance) Most of the time, I'm on page three before you've even cracked the cover of the book. I don't expect that stoking my own ego from time to time will enlighten anyone, or even make them like me. I'm well and done with wondering if what I'll say will offend someone else. I don't really care anymore. Is that such a bad thing? I don't think so.

So, you say you don't like blogs with long rants about the misfortunes of the world and the injustice in between the sheets. You demand pictures, let's see what's going on the surface. Well, I don't really care. I drop a photo here and there, drip some words from time to time, but mostly it's just quick nothingness. The world seems more vapid to me than it used to. It's like everyone's all used up and now they're looking for a quick fix.

Sorry to have to tell you, there is no such thing.

I just got back from Ohio. I was there for about two weeks. No, I didn't shoot any new sets, no new photos for you. The fortunes of the world revolve around scheduling conflicts. Maybe next time. I was thinking of shooting a set of myself. Doing nothing, you know, like that Any Kaufman number where he just went to sleep. Ironic. I wonder if it would even make member review. It would be a state to stagnation.

I've been playing a lot of video games the last few days. I have a terrible poison ivy rash all over my arms and some other parts. Unseemly really. I don't like it. Of course it itches, that's what it's supposed to do, but it makes bending and moving more uncomfortable than it should be. Everyone says they want what I like to call 'life on the couch' but trust me: It sucks.

I went to a funeral in Ohio. I went to Long's Retreat. I went to Hocking Hills, transversed Old Man's Cave and the Tubs and the Falls in one day. About 10 miles of a hike. I hate junk food, cooked my grandmother dinner, and splayed out on the front porch in the breathable air. You see, Florida doesn't have 'breathable air'. It's too humid, like sitting in the shower with the water on hot and trying to get cool fresh air.

Then, I went Geo Caching. I love this sport, if you can call it a sport. I stopped at about 15 places, some in Ohio, some on my return trip to FL. Somewhere while digging around in the weeds searching for the hidden treasure of pad and pen to denote my existence.... I got poison ivy.

I have a spectacular reaction to poison ivy. I don't just get a little itchy rash that goes away in a week or two. I get huge fluid filled blisters that take over my flesh and stay for about 6 weeks and cause horrible pain. No, I don't scratch. I'm not a scratcher. I'm not a picker or a scratcher or a proder. I have the capacity to sit still, very still, for very long periods of time just thinking. I do it sometimes. Other times, as still as I am, I am reading. Since I love to read.

Suggest some good books for me. I've read everything I have. It happens. I can ingest a book in a couple of hours and a whole series of them in a couple of days.

What's new pussycat?

I wonder whose capitalizing on my good ideas today.....

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Yossarian_22

Yossarian_22

USA
August 2009

JUL 17, 2010 10:02 PM

Vapid is an apt word that crosses my mind too often when I think about things too much (which is always)!

saillesong

saillesong

Eastlake, OH
September 2008

JUL 17, 2010 10:41 PM

I have the same deal with poison ivy once I get some it spreads all over my dam body. Get some tecnu. It's soap that will take the oils out of your skin. It was originally invented to take radioactive material off people. It's better if you use it right away but still good afterwards too. The same company also makes a gel that you put on that dries poison ivy up very fast. Trust me it saved me a lot of agony.

zode

zode

Northampton, MA
February 2005

JUL 17, 2010 10:42 PM

Have you read Penny Dreadful???

jonnytrrrash7

jonnytrrrash7

Vatican City
February 2004

JUL 17, 2010 11:00 PM

i wish i could not care what people think as much as you do. and i agree, couch life isn't the best. i'm kinda doing that right now.

have you read Geek Love by Katherine Dunn, or Conferacy of Dunces by John Kennedy Toole?

brave1

brave1

Broken Arrow, OK
April 2006

JUL 18, 2010 12:40 AM

Suggestions; Vapid stagnation transversed.....ingest a book !

legman

legman

Portland, OR
February 2006

JUL 18, 2010 01:05 AM

". You see, Florida doesn't have 'breathable air'. It's too humid, like sitting in the shower with the water on hot and trying to get cool fresh air. "

that's why all the old people like it! "It's like a sauna here!" they can all say.

"I get huge fluid filled blisters that take over my flesh and stay for about 6 weeks and cause horrible pain."

I think that's actually the BLACK PLAGUE you've got! eeekeeekeeek

"I'm not a scratcher."

I am! I scratch even when I'm not itchy!

"Suggest some good books for me"

Up in Honey's Room by Elmore Leonard
Digital Fortress by Dan Brown (unless you hate his other stuff... but I don't!)

I hope you feel better soon! smile smile

ElPres

ElPres

Tampa, FL
November 2003

JUL 18, 2010 01:30 AM

Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy!!

Failing that, a book called Last Chance to See (also by Douglas Adams). Fairly short, but it chronicles his adventures across the world searching for endangered animals.

Also, hope the ivy rash gets better. Or something. I'm not good with the 'moral support' or 'get well' social-ish stuff.

Turbulence

Turbulence

Austria
November 2005

JUL 18, 2010 02:33 AM

i guess you should try poison the ivy!!!

v_veen

v_veen

I'm lost
July 2010

JUL 18, 2010 04:30 AM

Try some harder books. Ulysses by Joyce.

myguess

myguess

USA
December 2008

JUL 18, 2010 04:39 AM

You'll polish this one off in a night, I'm sure, but it was a fun read . . .

Boneshaker by Cherie Priest (2009) 416 pages - ISBN 0765318415

In the early days of the Civil War, rumors of gold in the frozen Klondike brought hordes of newcomers to the Pacific Northwest. Anxious to compete, Russian prospectors commissioned inventor Leviticus Blue to create a great machine that could mine through Alaska’s ice. Thus was Dr. Blue’s Incredible Bone-Shaking Drill Engine born. But on its first test run the Boneshaker went terribly awry, destroying several blocks of downtown Seattle and unearthing a subterranean vein of blight gas that turned anyone who breathed it into the living dead. Now it is sixteen years later, and a wall has been built to enclose the devastated and toxic city. Just beyond it lives Blue’s widow, Briar Wilkes. Life is hard with a ruined reputation and a teenaged boy to support, but she and Ezekiel are managing. Until Ezekiel undertakes a secret crusade to rewrite history. His quest will take him under the wall and into a city teeming with ravenous undead, air pirates, criminal overlords, and heavily armed refugees. And only Briar can bring him out alive

xHeartSwornx

xHeartSwornx

Brunswick, OH
June 2004

JUL 18, 2010 06:21 AM

Lots of video games, been there plenty of times recently.
As for Poison Ivy, I can attest. It sucks. Somehow my Dad didn't get it when we both apparently hung around the wildlife because... apparently he's not allergic to it so he doesn't get the same annoyances I got that fateful day.
I had to get a shot to get rid of my poison ivy. Didn't go away with all the drugs they put me on... all the steroids. Blah.
Good books? I'm behind. Slow reader with barely any time for a life outside of work these days. So, I'm in need of both suggestions and time to read the piles of books I've accumulated over the years of working at a bookstore.

Kay

Kay

SUICIDEGIRL

Antarctica

JUL 18, 2010 08:08 AM

Sorry to hear about the poison ivy.

The only book I have really read lately has been Daemon by Daniel Suarez. I would highly recommend it.

Of course anything by John Connolly is high on my list as well. I think you would like The Book of Lost Things, and his Charlie Parker series is pretty awesome.

Abrupt

Abrupt

HOPEFUL

Plymouth, WI

JUL 18, 2010 09:31 AM

Ketchup, you're funnysmile .
What's not funny is poison ivy. You're the second here I read that has had it in the past month. Crummie. I've been fortunate to avoid it, my house was just built in a poison ivy field and if we don't mow the lawn regularly it's there. It grows like wild flowers! Wish I had known. So far so good with no outbrakes here!! Hope it doesn't drive you nuts. Thank you for the love on "It is" set too. kiss

Have a great day........no scratching!!! shocked

Casca

Casca

SUICIDEGIRL

United Kingdom

JUL 18, 2010 10:01 AM

Thank you so much for the comment on my set, I really appreciate it smile

Fabrizia

Fabrizia

SUICIDEGIRL

New York, USA

JUL 18, 2010 11:13 AM

it is true.... everyone is all used up and looking for a quick fix. It's difficult to keep someone's attention for more than a few seconds. Everyone wants instant gratification. It's as if everyone needs to be wow'd and don't want to wait for a fix.
I'm glad someone else hs noticed!

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