SuicideGirl: Lauretta
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Lauretta I don't do drugs. I am drugs.

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OCTOBER 8, 2012 @ 01:41 PM



I'm a bit down tonight.
Just had an arguments with my parents and my grandpa about my college career, my current job and what will come next in my work life - I always come out as the thoughtless dreamer I'm not.
As I told 'em, his week ends my first month at the new job and I'm afraid I'm not as much motivated as I should be robot
I've spent three weeks working at the cash desk, which is far from being exciting but at least gave me something to concentrate on: as you might have noticed, I'm not on very good terms with numbers and counts (minus clothes says it all!), plus dealing with clients' money scared the hell out of me, so I had to learn a lot of different procedures in order to have everything under my control.
Now, I'm ending my time at the check desk and I've been assigned to another occupation in the store: today I've started learning how the warehouse works, and how the goods must fit the store.
It's physically tiring: I'm always moving heavy weights with the fork lift and putting things on the shelfs, from 6 a.m. in the morning.
Honestly, it's not the kind of work I was thinking about when I graduated, last May... but everybody keeps telling me how lucky I am I got a job which is not a "real job", but a sort of training which give me the opportunity to reach higher roles in the company, learning from the base.
You know what I think? It's a smart way to make me and other nine guys work their ass off 40 hrs for week and pay them less than the other employees 'cause they're "training" - while we obviously we're starting to work just as the other people in the store do.
Don't get me wrong, the people I work with are awesome and friendly, and they have nothing to do with how the company manages to treat their trainees. Also, I'm not sure it's company's fault as well: we live in a sick world where new forms of slavery are socially accepted and run everyday. puke
It's the global mind-set that should be changed.
I still sound like the thoughtless dreamer my mom complains about, eh?
How was your first impact with "a real job"? What do you think about it, now?

Working has forced me and my boyfriend into a more regular lifestyle, which is not bad at all: we've started to enjoy spending our evenings cooking, watching a movie and drinking a glass of wine on the couch.
Yep, even naked:
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Sometimes, he brings me special gifts that make me even happier:
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EHEH biggrin

SPOILERS! (Click to view)

To those who are curious, lots of pics of my more uxorio lifestyle daily on Instagram ---> @brokendollhatesyou.



On the modeling side, yesterday I got back on set after a month of complete stop. I've been pleasantly surprised to discover nothing has changed and I'm always the same in front of the camera: I had my fun and the photographer had his super-duper-pictures biggrin
Today, another guy I've worked with several times has told me one of our picture is exposed in Florence, in an exhibition about digital art:
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I love art exhibitions and I'm always so proud of getting my face in those places. Here's the pic, it was taken with an iPhone on the backstage of a videoclip we shot last August (and which I hope to show you soon!):
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*YAWN* I'm gonna crush on my bed now.
I'll keep you updated and post something naughty soon, I promise.

xoxo
your Lauretta

Comments
Kelpie_

Kelpie_

HOPEFUL

Ellensburg, WA

OCT 08, 2012 01:46 PM

Great photo and sweet looking guy!

IHSV1683

IHSV1683

Australia
December 2010

OCT 08, 2012 03:12 PM

I started off at 16 working in the construction industry. For the first two years my job consisted of smashing holes in double brick walls with a hammer and chisel, digging trenches by hand and moving tons of dirt and rock using a shovel and wheelbarrow. All for around a dollar an hour.frown

Being an apprentice is not much fun.....but starting at the bottom will give you a better appreciation of what people do all throughout the business, because you have been there, done that and ticked it offsmile

It is all part of growing up.....unfortunately

mkayal

mkayal

USA
October 2010

OCT 08, 2012 04:48 PM

fork lifts are sexy

If it appears they're going to get rid of you, try to learn everything you can and use those skills at a competitor of theirs. I've seen it happen before where they cut back people's hours to nothing whether they're competent or not.

mattacme

mattacme

Calistoga, CA
February 2006

OCT 08, 2012 05:08 PM

Thanks for asking about first "work" experience. Prior to my first paying work I helped out on a family farm during summers, until the farm was sold, and was always generally looking for someplace to learn about a business or a method of working. I can't recall a time that I wasn't making something, usually out of wood, or fixing something that was considered unrepairable. Lots of failures and a few heartening successes. I was a volunteer at an automobile and carriage museum, helping to maintain and rebuild some of the exhibited things. Great fun.

At fifteen I worked for the summer as a tour guide on the Beaver, the centerpiece of the Boston Tea Party Ship Museum. From that time onward I always had at least one part time job, even when going to school. I even ran dope for a big time dealer, mostly for kicks but it paid great, too, and short hours. I dropped out of High School at 17 and started working full time as a carpenter. I was "given" a contractor's license shortly after that and at times ran my own remodeling jobs. Blah blah blah. The tour guide job is the one that I always look back on as my first real job, where I was (kindly) taught the importance of punctuality and reliability, as well as the importance of every aspect of the customer experience and how important it was for all of us to do everything within reason to provide a satisfactory time for our visitors. I was given an opportunity to understand the big picture as regards revenue and expenses and of course learned the best way to tidy up the decks of an 18th century sailing ship and what all of the lines did and why.

There is lots wrong with the way business ends up (or sometimes starts out) taking advantage of workers but it sounds to me as though you really are being paid to learn all aspects of a going concern, which is, to me, a fantastic chance. You may not stick with this company but I will be surprised if you cannot find a good deal of use for having spent some time learning the importance of various aspects of what makes a business run. It could be a great opportunity to get a glimpse at a facet of work that afterward you can manage and make sensible, effective changes to that will improve overall performance. As always I wish you the best of luck, and I truly hope that you can find common ground for the part of you that is idealistic and a bit dreamy with your practical self (minus math, and clothes).

You and your Fella look great together.

IHSV1683

IHSV1683

Australia
December 2010

OCT 09, 2012 02:22 AM

Perth is a beautiful place, if I could get a decent job over there I would move in a heartbeat!smile

There are a lot of Italian migrants in Australia,
it's one of the reasons we have such great diversity in food, restaurant and cafe culture. Not forgetting coffee!!biggrin
Good luck with your job, it will all be worth it in the endsmile

cudnovati

cudnovati

Mexico
January 2005

OCT 09, 2012 12:09 PM

my first job.... *thinks*..

i was the cameraman for a music festival organized by Bacardi Rum and subcontracted by a tiny video production company, i got to travel to the major cities in MX and had all expenses paid. after that i went to work for that same company as an office assistant for a couple of months. answering the phones and moping the floors...

nothing wrong with being a dreamer...this is only the beginning, your path will be long and full of alternate roads, shortcuts and bumps. wink

WildApple

WildApple

Italy
October 2008

OCT 09, 2012 03:03 PM

Quello che posso dirti è che spaventarsi perchè si ha a che fare con i soldi della gente è normale, specialmente se è il tuo primo lavoro di quel genere. Ma è così con tutti gli altri lavori: nel momento in cui ne intraprendi uno nuovo subentra sempre il fattore "novità" e avrai paura di sbagliare, specialmente se la formazione che ti è stata data per quella mansione lascia il tempo che trova e se hai a che fare con il pubblico (o con i loro soldi, appunto). Io ho sempre fatto lavori più o meno da ufficio, ma erano sempre lavori diversi. In alcuni c'era di mezzo la contabilità, quindi fatture, calcoli, cose importanti che non potevi sbagliare. In altri c'erano ricevute di pagamenti e tanto cash, due cose che dovevano sempre corrispondere alla perfezione a fine giornata. Per non parlare della prima volta che ho usato un POS! Il panico! Ancora peggio quando hai nelle tue mani la salute della gente e il dover pianificare le loro terapie e visite mediche, con relativi scazzi di ticket/non ticket, esenzioni e terapie private costose.
Basandomi sulla mia esperienza ma anche su un'osservazione oggettiva delle cose, posso dirti che la paura che hai provato all'inizio svanisce dopo un mesetto circa. E' dopo un mese, infatti, che inizi ad essere autonoma, inizi ad ingranare bene e a conoscere le mille cose che devi fare a lavoro. Diciamo che è una sorta di "training cerebrale", dopo un mese - salvo intoppi di altro genere - dovrebbe essere tutta discesa e la sensazione di terrore se ne va. smile

Ilsa

Ilsa

SUICIDEGIRL

New York, USA

OCT 11, 2012 08:41 PM

I think shitty/underpaid jobs after college are quite common within Mediterranean countries (I'm from Spain), especially with the current economy. You spend your whole life studying and then the only jobs you can find are apprenticeships (which usually don't even pay) or customer service jobs. After I graduated I worked for two years doing tech support for Apple... which people think sounds cool, but I was just dealing with crazy/retarded customers on the phone 40 hours a week. At least I had awesome workmates which made things much easier! It's the only thing I miss about it a year after quitting. Give it some more time to see how it goes smile

Ilsa

Ilsa

SUICIDEGIRL

New York, USA

OCT 13, 2012 02:55 PM

No worries. The end result is that your country spends a lot of money educating all these people only for them to move to other places with better opportunities.

Thanks for the congrats and if I'm ever back in Italy I'd love to shoot you! smile

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