Well, I guess trying to investigate a police station is only gonna result in the beating of your loved one! Since I started poking around this fucking shit stain town on the face of America, they have been handing my brother his ass every night.
I hate hearing the scared tone in his voice when he calls, it brings me to my fucking knees.

I have never been filled with so much hatred.
I have never been filled with so much vengeance.

The things that are running through my mind are fucking unspeakable.

I have called every fucking attorney in and around Atlanta. Most fucking comforting thing I have ever heard "Sorry maam, we don't mess with that good ole boy network". Hardly, wtf?

Who the fuck do you turn to when you can't turn to the law?
This literally is hands down the worst thing I have ever experienced,
I can't take pleasure or joy in anything.
It is constantly running through my mind.
Sometimes if I close my eyes with the sun on my skin, I feel like I am there. Instant panic. I'm telling you I haven't been able to get a hold of myself since I left that place.

I can't stomach it.
Nor will I ever.
I can't rest till I see justice.

I will never be the same person. For the longest time I was concerned with such dumb shit. It took one time of going to a place like that for me to open my eyes. All the things I use to care about, don't even matter to me anymore. Life didn't exist outside of my environment. Boy does it. I can't rest when I know places like Butts County exist. I can't eat. Can't sleep. The time I don't spend crying, I spend so angry I could burst.

I know some people are gonna say? "Sweetie you have to let it go, there is nothing you can do! Things have been this way forever!"
That's even worse to me. That people know what is going on. And never god damn speak up!

I won't stop, till I see it done. Period.

I will be on here. Not very active. But watching.
I just can't really bring any happiness to anyone right now.

I love you all.
I just can't be me right now.
And I don't want to give you guys anything other than ME! The real me.
And I can't do that right now. I will return when I can.