Lainey's April 15, 2009 blog

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APRIL 15, 2009 @ 07:08 AM

Well, I guess trying to investigate a police station is only gonna result in the beating of your loved one! Since I started poking around this fucking shit stain town on the face of America, they have been handing my brother his ass every night.
I hate hearing the scared tone in his voice when he calls, it brings me to my fucking knees.

I have never been filled with so much hatred.
I have never been filled with so much vengeance.

The things that are running through my mind are fucking unspeakable.

I have called every fucking attorney in and around Atlanta. Most fucking comforting thing I have ever heard "Sorry maam, we don't mess with that good ole boy network". Hardly, wtf?

Who the fuck do you turn to when you can't turn to the law?
This literally is hands down the worst thing I have ever experienced,
I can't take pleasure or joy in anything.
It is constantly running through my mind.
Sometimes if I close my eyes with the sun on my skin, I feel like I am there. Instant panic. I'm telling you I haven't been able to get a hold of myself since I left that place.

I can't stomach it.
Nor will I ever.
I can't rest till I see justice.

I will never be the same person. For the longest time I was concerned with such dumb shit. It took one time of going to a place like that for me to open my eyes. All the things I use to care about, don't even matter to me anymore. Life didn't exist outside of my environment. Boy does it. I can't rest when I know places like Butts County exist. I can't eat. Can't sleep. The time I don't spend crying, I spend so angry I could burst.

I know some people are gonna say? "Sweetie you have to let it go, there is nothing you can do! Things have been this way forever!"
That's even worse to me. That people know what is going on. And never god damn speak up!

I won't stop, till I see it done. Period.

I will be on here. Not very active. But watching.
I just can't really bring any happiness to anyone right now.

I love you all.
I just can't be me right now.
And I don't want to give you guys anything other than ME! The real me.
And I can't do that right now. I will return when I can.

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aldremech

Tucson, AZ

July 2006

APR 15, 2009 07:15 AM

Fucking bastards. Have you tried to call the ACLU or some other civil rights organization? Good luck hun. I hope those fuckers get what is coming to them.

jonnytrrrash7

Vatican City

February 2004

APR 15, 2009 07:16 AM

i went back and read your last entry. what a fucked up situation.

Dannyp927

Carol Stream, IL

December 2008

APR 15, 2009 07:17 AM

Go over their heads...go to the top if you have to.......i hope he gets out safe and very very soon!

Cayleigh

HOPEFUL

USA

APR 15, 2009 07:20 AM

i'm so sorry to hear all of this is still going on with your brother. I hope it gets fixed soon!

cudnovati

Mexico

January 2005

APR 15, 2009 07:20 AM

i´m with you, dont let go! stand up for your basic rights. be safe, i wish you the best

bedheadchicken

Rutherford, NJ

March 2003

APR 15, 2009 07:21 AM

I agree. You should contact the ACLU right away. Try your congressman as well. No kidding. And go to the press. LOTS of press. Call the local news. Call the newspaper. Write letters. Get your friends to write letters.

if I can do anything please let me know.

Alissa

SUICIDEGIRL

Ohio, USA

APR 15, 2009 07:26 AM

OMG! I hope your okay.. this is soo ooooOOOOoOo fucked up.. if you need anything at all, literally anything call me.. PM me the addy of where you are, and I'll send you a fell better package (with out any drugs in it.. don't want you to wind up in jail too) hahah..
I am soo sorry you have to go through all this, and I'm even more sorry for your brother...
How close are you to Atlanta?
Let me know if there is anything at all I can do to help...
LOVELOVELOVE

outlawdsx

State College, PA

January 2009

APR 15, 2009 07:31 AM

It's kind of insane about the amount of corruption that runs through the justice system. It's both fascinating and horrifying about how this can happen. Like you said in an earlier post, these people are human beings too. How can they live with themselves? It is horrifying because if you run into them, they have a certain amount of authority and they will abuse it to make your life miserable because they get pleasure out of it. It's certainly inhuman.
This is incredibly fucked up and I hope things get sorted out. I would follow the advice of everyone else here, telling you to try and get press and help from organizations and higher powers. I wish you all of the luck in the world and hope you find some peace of mind in your troubled times. Good luck, and much love.

Raynne

HOPEFUL

Guelph, ON

APR 15, 2009 07:39 AM

I don't think you should let it go at all... I feel the exact way you do about justice and seeing that this shit hole town gets exterminated or prosecuted for that they are doing not only to your brother but to you as well and everyone else involved. I wish I could say something to make it all okay and like you I feel helpless. For now I can offer you virtual *hugs* and my condolences.. I don't know what else I can offer you.

the_captain

I'm lost

July 2007

APR 15, 2009 08:09 AM

I'm really sorry to here that. I would definitely try the ACLU. They may be a big enough organization to take on these fucks!

MutantBaby1

I'm lost

March 2009

APR 15, 2009 08:27 AM

What happened? why did they arrest your brother? Fuckin cops!

AesirR

United Kingdom

January 2007

APR 15, 2009 08:34 AM

I can't understand where the sense of fair and even handed justice went sometimes.

I hope you can find one person other than yourself who can help you stand up and make your system answerable for its failure.