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AUGUST 2, 2010 @ 08:10 PM

Things are semi better .........
there's this contest for Brown Aveda , and you have to fill out answers and write an essay to even try and qualify to win this contest to win a full scholarship there .. everything paid!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I qualified !!!! Sooo exciting , but i have a feeling i'm not gonna win and am going to get my hopes up ..
I've been working alot ,been drinking even more .. i need to slow down ! I get excited and want to have fun , then only have fun that way... I need friends , not just drinking friends ... everyone has been so busy .. kinda sux
Ah what can you do ? I've been a great listener lately , i just would like someone to listen back sometimes..
it can be a bit frustrating .......So we have a SG party in Columbus coming up, not sure if i'm gonna make it .. i would like to but don't know if i see it happening..i'm not gonna lie and i know i'm gonna get shit for this , but i feel really left out ... alot of the SG's that are from ohio , live around Columbus so they always hang out and are best friends , when i come i just feel like awkward and like i don't belong anymore .. i'm kinda over it .. but i just don't know id i'm whole hearted bout trying to always go to these events anymore... eh
Anyways ... Has anyone else felt like this summer has came and gone sooo fast?
I can't believe kids are getting ready to go back to school ... makes me sad ... Winters are too cold and brutal towards me ...
This song has been stuck in my head lately and it won't go away!!!!!!!!!!!!!

O i forgot , i played a prank i said i won the lotto $300,000
and people believed me , it was funny , especially bc some ppl came outta the woodwork... just makes you know whos real and whos not!!!!!!!
hmm ....
Well ta ta for now
xoxo
Laiden

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Jaxy

SUICIDEGIRL

USA

AUG 02, 2010 08:23 PM

I understand how you feel. I feel left out at times too. *hugs*

Voodou

SUICIDEGIRL

Canada

AUG 02, 2010 08:25 PM

thats such an amazing song.
and summer has indeed flown by. goodness. im sad.

suispud1

Dallas, TX

January 2010

AUG 02, 2010 08:41 PM

summer is never long enough

78walk

Oklahoma City, OK

July 2005

AUG 03, 2010 02:17 AM

Slightly awkward and not really part of the crowd is the story of my life. But it's never a good choice to let that prevent us from doing things we want to do - if you'd like to go, just go and let the chips fall where they may.

IndieBuddhist

Oshawa, ON

April 2009

AUG 03, 2010 07:05 AM

That song is catchy.
And, I know how you feel about being around some people, and not fitting in.

udbmerv

Westerville, OH

January 2010

AUG 03, 2010 06:32 PM

yeah It's good to vent sometimes!

I am going to go to the SG party after work, at least for a few drinks....so if you go I'll say hi and hang out for a while. we can feel left out together!

Have a good week!

blphotography

San Francisco, CA

October 2007

AUG 03, 2010 07:49 PM

LOVE THAT SONG! AND I'd LOVEEEE TO SEE YOU AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE! we'll hang out and i'll go to that event if i'm there. i'll be in ohio for a little while i want to seeeeee youuu as much as I can before I go to Hong Kong!!!

elplaguita

Haines City, FL

April 2007

AUG 04, 2010 04:33 PM

This song is stuck in my head now... thanks! lolz.

pyxiestik

Painesville, OH

July 2010

AUG 04, 2010 06:16 PM

I graduated from Brown Aveda in 2008 and it was a fantastic experience. The hardest damn thing I ever did, though. I hope you get the scholarship, I will keep my fingers crossed for you! Good luck!

xHeartSwornx

Brunswick, OH

June 2004

AUG 05, 2010 07:07 AM

When it comes to contests, all you can do is try. It never hurts to give it a shot because you just never know!
As for feeling left out, I'm with you...even if it's on a slightly different playing field when it comes to SG. I know what you mean, but all you can do is go forth with what you feel at the time. Try and hang out more, hang back and do your own thing, or whatever you want to do! If you're not feeling it too strongly maybe you could take a break from that part of it for a while and see how things go. After all, if you aren't feeling it then it might not be so exciting anyway this time around. Sometimes we need breaks from things to keep our heads in check. Just be you and do what you do. That'll be the most important thing.
As for Summer... yeah, it flew by. I barely did anything besides work and I have no idea where all my time went!

La_Maga

Portland, OR

September 2009

AUG 05, 2010 08:04 AM

Well, it's great that you qualified! I'm sure you're going to kick ass. If not, I'm sure you'll figure something else out What college and what major are you hoping to get in?

Chrysis

SUICIDEGIRL

Ohio, USA

AUG 05, 2010 08:19 AM

Has anyone else felt like this summer has came and gone sooo fast?
I can't believe kids are getting ready to go back to school ... makes me sad ... Winters are too cold and brutal towards me ...

This is no joke. When I realized it was August 1st, I slumped and teared up. Wtf, it went by SO fast. You either just work so much or spend the rest of the time sleeping or playing .. and then it's gone and .. I'm with you on the brutality of winter. I swear to God from the first time it gets warm in spring I am anxious as fuck about winter coming back.

And then it does. :[