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THE SGFLSHOOTFEST2012 (Check out instagram with that exact hastag and expect to have your ovaries and gonads exploded from the absurd amount of the sexy!). I fucking miss everyone SOOOOOOO much right now.
This was a great week with some of the most amazing ladies I have EVER fucking met! (And yes, I'm getting a wee bit misty-eyed lol). 
OH, aaaaaaaaand....
All my FEELS. Sooooooo many amazing memories!!! I love you girls and miss you dearly!!! This was, hands down, one of the greatest weeks of my life. Returning home was a serious GUT-check to reality. It actually took some getting used to actually being back here. Oy.
But...still good times, all things aside. And I think we all needed it. 
Now, back to reality! As many of you know, I have started the process of moving back to Chicago to help my mom. It's been an up and down struggle, honestly. I'm starting to come to terms with the fact that my life WILL be drastically different once I'm there, and taking care of her. For those who don't know, my mother is a three-time stroke survivor, and also suffered an aneurism. All of this has left her unable to walk properly, as well as care for herself, and she also can no longer use the dominant side of her body, which is her left side, her left hand, etc. And she's currently in a nursing home.
TO HELL WITH THAT.
My grandmother, may God rest her soul, DIED in a nursing home. And in an INCOMPETENT one at that. My grandmother struggled with a problem I have come to terms with something I have also inherited---drug addiction. I'm not ashamed to say it. However, my grandmother was very much addicted to pain medication, while I'm addicted to things that make you drowsy and sleep (Benadryl, xanax, nyquil, etc). In the end, her addiction killed her. She snuck into the nurse's area and OD'ed on tylenol 3 and died.
I'm working on my addiction, however, the point is: NO MOTHER OF MINE IS LIVING AND DYING IN A NURSING HOME.
Hence, the reason for my move back. My mum deserves the BEST out of life, and by GOD, I am going to be the one to MAKE SURE OF THAT. She deserves it after everything she has been through, and everything she has done.
So, that beings said, that leads me to my next new life change:
I'm enrolling in a CNA (Certified Nursing Assistant) program, as well as training to become a Home Health Aide, and Restorative Care (Physical rehab). I've already put down the money, all I'm doing is waiting for class to start. That way, I can give her the PROPER care. My cousin who works for the state told me, after I signed up, that I can get paid to take care of my mom. I'm excited, yes, because that means I can get paid to take care of my mom, and also make a living, but it's honestly and truly more about making sure that *I* am qualified as a person to take care of her. I'm very much looking forward to starting my new life with her.
The move will happen (I'm hoping) in early March, and shortly after I graduate from my CNA program. Everyone, hope for the best.
Anyway, more pictures. Went hiking up to Switzer Falls yesterday with Milloux, Lylie, Tristyn Ackely, and Hopeful Jinchuriki who is in our neck of the woods until Saturday! It was a total blast. Had a LOT of fun, and did a LOT of hiking and rock climbing!
...And for some reason, the uploader is being RATHER retarded, so I can only do these two pictures, which means you guys have to go and hassle the other girls for the other pictures lol! Sorry aboot that! Anyway, more randomness before I close out the blog:
As far as my relationship status goes, I think it goes without saying that I'm very confused and very unsettled about moving to Chicago, and leaving him behind, but then there are times when I really think, "YOU ARE GONNA MAKE ME END UP ON SNAPPED!!!!!!!". I hate the lack of sex we have, and how difficult things have been, but they aren't as bad as they COULD be, thankfully. Then, I have those moments when I'm laying with him, and I think, "Maybe we can do long distance...I don't wanna leave you..." and then I'm just legit torn in two. He says he wants to do the long distance thing, but I'm not so sure, and all of this is even more confusing and upsetting because despite the fact he makes me wanna pull out my hair, I love him dearly. I really do.
I'll guess we'll find out, but for right now, it's AA status:
"One day at a time."
Kisses to all of the missuses, and pitched tents for all the gents!
~Kuro~
PS: CONGRATS TO ALL OF THE NEW PINK LADIES AND THE FUCKING AWESOME SOBELLE FOR HER VERY FIRST SET GETTING BOUGHT!!! You're on the way to Green, lady!!!
Okay, NOW I'll see you guys after Florida. TWO. FUCKING. WEEKS. I can do this!!!
PS:
In short, I've missed you lovely motherfuckas and motherfuckettes (my new favorite word lol)! How have you been, guys and dolls? Things have been good on my end! But first, let's get down to business (To defeat the huns!!!). Thanks for all of your wonderful comments on my last blog, guys! I love you all and will get around to responding to those and the messages!!!!! Promise! 
OKAY! So, where to begin! Okay, well, to begin, my first two weeks of work have been going well! I love the place! The only complaint I have:
It's unforgivably BORING!!!! I mean JEEEEESUS!!!!!! I have the attention span of a gnat, and sitting in a single place, for nine hours, with hardly anything to do, can take a toll on me, especially given I had ADD and ADHD. And especially in the morning after I've had my poison:
I'm honestly trying to wean myself off of coffee (mainly because I don't want the breakouts), but I am a horrid morning person and have had too many close calls with falling asleep at work. But aside from that, I love it! I love my coworkers and my boss is SUCH a sweetheart. LOOK AT THIS CUPCAKE SHE GAVE ME:
It was in an actual flowerpot and everything. BEYOND sinfully delicious.
But, working for an insurance company, all I do is answer phones, transfer calls, sign people in, and validate parking. I love it. It's AMAZING how much writing I'm getting done at work when I'm doing nothing hahaha! (And I'm mighty fond of the pay!) AND it's located on a beautiful work campus:
It's a simple job with no math required, but I'm HORRIBLY depressed that it's not a temp-to-hire job, because the company is moving in November and that's when my assignment will end. I hope my next job will be permanent and will be just as fun and as easy! In the meantime, here's me fucking around at work:
The story behind these sunglasses is that some REAL douchebag came in, like...well, a douchebag and was making all these demands, and left his douchey, supposedly "expensive" sunglasses. Well, guys? Do I look douchey enough? 
ANYHOO, there's been a LOT of excitement in these past few weeks, that I am SO excited to share with you. Mainly, what I'm stoked for is...
I am SO stoked. At first, it was SO unlikely that I would even be able to GO, because the house was full and everything, but Yesenia went ahead and put me on the hold list for the first person who would get a spot if someone cancelled, and though I'm not estatic about it, Tovi cancelled, but gave me her spot! I have such mixed feelings! She's such a sweetheart, but I am excited to go now! All I have to do is buy my plane ticket, which is happening THIS week, and if I can survive the next two weeks at work, come Saturday, I'll be on a plane and rubbing noses (and possibly SO much more with---)
Elea
Yesenia
Gunner
LucySky
Alissa
Casshas
Murphie
Chrysis
Renesme
Toxic
Tore
Ryker
SoBelle
Pannn
Drave
elodyKat
Civil
Bitten
Mnislahi
Waikiki
Medusa
I AM FUCKING CREAMING MYSELF IN ANTICIPATION!!!! THERE IS SO MUCH SEXY IN THAT LIST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am just BESIDE myself!!! Even MORE so because of a very special HUGE muli we will be doing, and I will be shooting a multi with none other than...
And guess who I am shooting my own individual set with....?
I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO fucking stoked to meet this dame! You have NO idea!!!!!!!!!! I love her! She and I have been talking and it's always frantic convos about how much we wanna meet and shoot! I am BEYOND excited!
This whole trip is just gonna be NUTSO INSANE!!!! So much hotness, so many beautiful, nekkid women...GOD I am just IN LOVE with this trip! I can't wait!!!
TWO. MOAR. WEEKS. I can do this!!!!!!!!!!!!
In the meanwhile, aside from that, I've been filling my (free) days with places I've really been wanting to visit. Case in point:
I come from a place where there are butterflies EVERYWHERE during the summer/spring/fall, and since moving to California, I have yet to see more than two butterflies in once place at the same time, which is really depressing because I love butterflies and nature (and you guys don't have fireflies, either! WTF CALIFORNIA?!). So, what does my boyfriend do?
Takes me to a freaking BUTTERFLY GARDEN. I swear to God, I was so happy, if he had asked me to marry him then and there, I would have just said YES. Honestly, with all of the problems we've been having lately, and how we've been working and barely see one another, it felt good to...I don't know...remember why we fell for each other in the first place. Like old times.
Okay, enough with the sappy stuff. And now...!
(The necklace he got me. What can I say? Sometimes, he gets it right lol)
And now: CONFESSION TIME. I...
So, needless to say, the museum had a Nature Walk. And it took every ounce of strength I had to walk in there and not start screaming my head off. I made it thanks to Bry, who was trying to help me overcome my phobia, but I was treading on some seriously dangerous psychologically unstable ground. After a while, I started to enjoy myself. A bit lol.
(I was paranoid this thing would jump out at me at any given second lmao)
After I'd made it through without fainting (lolz) we went to see some of the dinosaurs.
("Hey Rick, what do you call a gay dinosaur? A Megasaurass."
"Hey, Tom! What do you...?"
"I'VE ALREADY HEARD THIS JOKE!!!! SHUT UP!!!"
Aaaaand that's the end of that! Oh, wait...there's just ONE MORE THING. In prep for Florida....I bit the bullet and decided to get the body mod I've been wanting for a minute:
Anyway, that's all, everyone! I love you, and look for a MASSIVE blog after Florida! TWO MORE WEEKS! I CAN DO THIS!!! Love to all!!!
~Kuro
So, where to begin?
Well. This weekend was absolutely absurd. To say the least. Let's start with the top thing on the list:
Mein hair before:
Mein hair afterwards:
I just want to say, to debunk a few stereotypes, that it was a totally straight, while male barber who gave me my new awesome haircut. Normally, I would only go to a black person who knew exactly what they were doing because it's no secret: black hair is very different. EVERYONE in the school (I went to a barbering school because I am le broke) was watching him and honestly taking bets to see how bad he would fuck up.
Which he DIDN'T. I can't wait wait to go back! (He was delicious!!!!)
So, now that all of the ugly damage is gone, I have to go back to my strict routine which includes deep conditioning, keeping it moisturized, wrapping my hair with a silk scarf when I sleep...
Oh, and to clear that up, because it does confuse people why I sleep with a silk scarf on my head, it's because again, black hair is fragile, and the roughness from the cotton pillows can help cause damage and breakage, so sleeping with a silk scarf (or on silk pillow cases) helps keep that from happening, and helps to maintain the style. Everyone, regardless of race, can do it, but I know a few people were like..."Why do you sleep with a scarf on your head?" However, I'd like to go on record saying YOU WILL NEVER SEE ME LEAVE THE HOUSE WITH A SCARF ON MY HEAD. That is just SO tacky to me.
Even when I was living in the dorms, if we had a fire alarm, I would reach for the scarf and snatch it off my head before even getting out of bed lol.
And here are said products to help me (minus the headscarf) maintain my hair:
Coconut oil, deep conditioner, and HAWAIIAN SILKY. This is the stuff of the GODS!!!!!!!!! And once my hair has recovered, then I can do the hairstyle I REALLY want to do. Remember? I was asking opinions on colors, but it's not what you think it is. Can't wait for that!
Anyhoo, on this domestic Sunday, I am preparing for the workweek. YUP. I said workweek. Because I...
It's through my temp agency, doing receptionist work, and I'm not sure how long I'll be there for, but DAMMIT, I am going to try and stay there AT LEAST long enough for me to save up some money, which should be easy enough, because I'm making 10.28 an hour, and I work M-F, from 9am to 6pm. So, pray for me, everyone!!!
I did laundry today (GOD I HATE YOU, LAUNDRY), and I took myself to the grocery store for dinner tonight. On tonight's menu, we have:
Honey-curry baked chicken before:
And after:
Along with yummy bread pudding before:
And after:
I always like it sweet and soft, so instead of two cups of milk, like the recepie calls for, I always add one half cup of milk, and one full cup of French Vanilla Coffee creamer. It's SO delicious!!! And I always make a bloody mess of the kitchen while I'm at it.
And I was paying even less attention because I was listening to my "husband" sing to me as I was cooking (leading to an even bigger mess)--
(Oh, Gackt....marry me.)
But, fortunately, I had my own personal helper on mop duty:
We are still looking for a GREAT home for him, so if anyone is interested, please let me know!!! Moving on, I bought even more ice cream (that I totally DON'T need) :
...In preparation for even more ice cream cocacola floats and milkshakes!!! NOM!!!!!!!! Moreover, I've been highly addicted to this lately:
Like, if I could have them put it in an IV and attach it to my arm, I'd be golden. I LOVE Arizona. I hate the tea, believe it or not, but I love the fruit drinks. My faves are strawberry kiwi, watermelon, and fruit punch, and I have been CONSUMING these things.
And speaking of overindulging: FRIDAY WAS AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I got to meet so many awesome ladies, including Moxi, LaneyChantal, Pandie, and even our very own staff, Jessytai who is a total love! And joining us were Beezle and Muerta, and of course, Milloux! It was a grand ole time!
Just gonna summarize it all for everyone:
Pool party, got all war-painted for lasertag, was repeatedly accused of fraternizing with our (FINE) Asian rivals by Milloux (lmao, was not),guitarist from Marilyn Manson, Hamburger Mary's, INSANELY BAD SERVICE,delicious Hawaiian Burger, drag queens, ass-shaking contest, drinking, handsome strangers, Rainbow Room, beautiful chick with wild hair, shaved sides, and cheetah print, lots of friendly rocker/stoners,decided to call it a night, changed minds when we saw an INSANE UNREAL SENSORY OVERLOAD HIPPY/BURNER PARTY BUS WITH A LIVE BAND THAT PLAYS ROCK VERSIONS OF CLASSICAL MUSIC, staying on the bus, drove all over California, made new friends, fell in love many times with various people, had my knowledge of classical music tested, surprised the band, won a great CD, kept getting asked for pictures of our blacklight warpaint makeup from lasertag from random riders who thought we were apart of the whole bus exhibit, passed out on the bus going everywhere until near dawn, finally got off, staggered with Milloux back to car, drove to house, knocked out, woke up and discovered an amazing backyard with fresh pomegranate, avacado, lemon and orange trees...
Eff you, YOLO; Carpe Nocturne (seize the night)!
And here are a few pictures:
(Milloux got a picture of my arse when I wasn't paying attention)
FEAR Team Suicide in our warpain!!!
And lastly, this psychodelic fucking bus was UNREAL. Or, maybe it was all of the pot and edibles. Nope...I'm pretty sure it was incredibly unreal, but it did happen!
That night was CRAZY. But a great precursor to hopefully a great week! Thanks for all the love, everyone, and I hope you all have a great week! Wish me luck on this job!!!
Kisses to all of the misses and pitched tents for all the gents,
~Kuro
Today is also the day I'm getting my hair cut. I hate that I actually have no choice.
Actually...I do. I have two choices:
1) Let my hair grow out damaged/breaking/falling out.
2) Bite the bullet and cut it shorter so that it can grow healthier.
UNFORTUNATELY, there are two people who aren't wild about the idea of me with short hair. I don't need to say who the first one is, but the second one (his mother) is about to get her teeth knocked down her throat.
"Oh, why you cut your hair? It'll never grow and be pretty!"
Bitch. Please. I am FABULOUS with short fucking hair. YOU just want a picture to send to the Philippines of your precious son (who is just as shallow as you are about the short hair thing) with his arm around a chick with long hair.
GO SIT DOWN.
I will wear my hair however I damn well please ME. Not your son, definitely not you (or ANY man for that matter), and no one else. PS: BITCH WHY ARE YOU STILL HERE?!?! IT'S BEEN FIVE/SIX DAYS NOW!!!! GO HOME, DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!!! Psycho-mom.
JESUS, it's like living with Mrs. Bates, except this version likes to rearrange everything, frantically cleans everything, brings over random relatives and has huge noisy conversations in the kitchen (RIGHT outside of my so-called "bedroom/livingroom") and is as overbearing as humanly possible. LADY GO HOME ALREADY!!!! I'm SURE your husband misses you!!!!
Whoo. I just want to say special thanks to Laney, Milloux, and the influence of the other wonderful ladies who are getting me AWAY from this damn apartment and out for some much-needed girltime fun! Tata for now, everyone! Can't wait for the party AND my haircut (which I'm actually excited about, but for spiteful reasons *snerk*)!
Kisses to all the misses, and pitched tents for all the gents!
Oh, and to suispud1....THANK YOU.
I'll message you back soon.Love to everyone,
~Kuro
Dear Diary:
Today, I logged into my FB fanpage/alternative FB for my SG page. Hand to the bible, I have never seen so many marriage proposals in my LIFE.
One came from a lovely gent in Indonesia. "Marry me! Please!"
Another, from a chap in England. "When you come to England, we'll get married. Do you like horses? I'll buy you a house and have horses!"
And one from the heart of Alaska. "I know it (my profile on SG) says you don't like cold weather, but you'll always be hot with me! Let's get married!"
And these were just three of my favorites out of 17 messages that involved some proposed form of marriage. Other countries involved Jamaica, France, Philippines, plenty from the USA, Ireland, Bangkok, Sweden, and Cape Town, in South Africa.
Well...I suppose if I want the dual citizenships...
Anyway! Today is a day for overindulgence, and EVERYONE knows much how I love food, and how I am a firm believer in overindulgence, So, here's what I have been feasting on today:
An exceptionally, highly unhealthy, but highly delicious fried porkchop that I seasoned perfectly (I LOVE the fat meat on here), and just threw into a bowl of season-salted rice with butter.
Half a box of glazed honey buns.
A "family sized" dish of leche flan (I prefer Filipino-made flan to Mexican flan) that I am going to finish in a second.
Half a carton of Rocky Road Ice cream. (I really wish they would make a rocky road version WITHOUT any almonds and just with marshmallows and chocolate ice cream!)
I had completely forgotten about the vanilla ice cream I had bought so I had some of that as well.
And then after making a milkshake by adding some milk to my vanilla ice cream, I discovered something else:
WE HAD COCA-COLA!!! OH FUCK YEAH!!!! COKE FLOAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAY MADE!!!!
And lastly, probably the healthiest thing I've eaten all day: A can of pears. Pears are my FAVORITE fruit.
And later, I plan on going out back and clubbing a moose so I can eat that for dinner! UNGA UNGA!!!!!(<---Caveman language. Means "Fuck yeah".)
In other SG related news, DeCota isn't active on here anymore.
Sad Panda!!! Also: Regarding the Florida Shootfest. I've already talked to Yesenia! If a spot opens up at the house in the chance that some cancels, I'll buy my plane ticket and I'll be out there will bells on! If not...
Next time, for sure.Lastly: VOTE FOR FISCHE ON FACEBOOK OR ELSE I COLLECT YOUR FUCKING HEAD. (Just an FYI, that porkchop wasn't really a porkchop...IF you catch my drift. That's what happens to people who don't vote for her.) So, hurry up and vote for her! I wanna see her Pink!! VOTE FOR FISCHE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PS: Laser Tag on Friday? Who all is going?! Can't wait!
And now I have to get back to my "Snapped" and "Deadly Women" marathon while overindulging in even more unhealthy food!
Kisses for all the misses, and pitched tents for all the gens!
~Kuro
Add to the fact this dog has ruined seven pair of expensive (hand-me-down) shoes, leaving me with only tennis shoes that are black and have bleach stains all over them, also thanks to this dog.
So thank you, Nyquil, for filling me with "Fukitol" because you may have very well diffused a very volatile situation.
Also. I think I've finally found out what I have been doing wrong:
It makes so much sense now. I shall get a cat.
*Random text from friend*
"WEENUS."
And I laughed for a good ten minutes.
