lately i've been considering giving up my three year existence as a vegan for the decidance of cheeze pizza and chocolate cake. i don't know if i could do it though.

skipping out on school yet again, and i don't work tonight. work tomorrow though. and exams start tomorrow.

i might just have to get shitfaced all day today, i don't know what else to do.

i've been spending a lot of time with my new british cybersex boy, that's right, i have a new one. his name is damien. and he's damn sexy, and 18.

so that's that. nothing really too exciting going on. the last thing i dreamt before i woke up this morning was pouring whipped cream all over this really hot's guys face and rubbing it in.

you're fuckin crazy, oh child

today, i work.

this will always be my favourite thing on the site. i could watch that for hours.

what's your favourite thing on the site?

i just woke up from the most horrible dream. first it was all about me getting my ass kicked by this 300 hundred pound guy, and i was trying my best to fight back but he was so much bigger, and a friend of mine was just standing there not helping me or saying anything...

and then i escaped, ran and got into an elevator. bad idea, cuz ever since i was little i've had reoccurring nightmares about crashing elevators. and sure enough the fuckin elevator started to plumpet to the bottom.

i was so scared i woke myself up.

now everyone please shower me with love, i feel a little shaken up.

i can't seem to get my mind out of the gutter these days. you don't even want to know the perverted things that are going through my head while i'm just standing there talking to you or whatever.. haha

anyway, i'm fuckin tired. tired in a good way, tired from work and school, from life. the stupid snow was coming down today, no way no way, give me spring. i need it.

i had some fireball whiskey and more weed than i can afford to keep smoking when i got home from work so i'm having trouble remembering what i was going to say.........

i feel like i'm on the right track these days (in life that is). now hopefullllllly a certain something hmmmmmmm.

woke up early after only 3 hours of sleep...
the door to my house was wide open, fuckin cold...
i had some soup, some more soup,
then i had a shower.

then i masturbated on webcam for two complete strangers. came,

and now i'm thinking about making some tea.

i have a long day ahead of me.

i think about you honey all the time my heart says yes i think about you deep inside i love you best i think about you you know you're the one i want i think about you darling you're the only one i think about oh yeah i think about you only you i think you only you i think about you you know i do i think about only you i think you only you only .....


or something like that


close enough baby










(my heart says yes)

today i get wasted and make a mixtape of strictly guns n' roses and courtney love/hole. oh yes, it will be a fuckin killer mixtape.

tonight, i continue to get wasted, and watch every single texas chainsaw massacre. the original, the sequel, part three: leatherface, the "new generation" version and the remake. 5 excellent movies.

now i bide my time until noon, when it becomes appropriate to start drinking.