I've been meaning to blog again. I keep having things to blog about, putting it off, and then getting over the desire to blog about it.
Do you feel neglected? I'm sorry, I didn't mean to neglect you... I'll be better, I'll CHANGE!!! Ok, I lied. I'm sorry... again..
But anyways...

I've been getting back into photography since my dry spell during the school year. This next semester will force me back into it as well since I have a digi photo class. Specialness to be had for SG??

mmm, mmm, mm. Bob-o-licious. I'm not going to give away any more, especially since I'm not done with the set yet. I lag. :/

I'm supposed to shoot with a soon to be hopeful on Thurs. I'm excited, especially since it's in a comfortable location for me and I know it will turn out really awesome. Here's a little preview of her.


I did some other photos for someone who's been lagging on completing his SG profile.



I've been fully enjoying shark week. And for those of you who understand how obsessed I am with the Lonely Island, you should be able to fathom just how ecstatic I was to discover that Andy Samberg is the host, aka Chief Shark Executive, this year.


This weekend I made a big decision to severely limit my drinking. By no means am I an "alcoholic", or even a heavy or moderate drinker. In fact, I drink relatively rarely, however, every time I drink I end up feeling sick to my stomach after very minimal amounts of alcohol. I can never even feel a buzz but still end up feeling sick. I wish I could know what a normal hang over feels like but I've never had one. I'm pretty certain it's not an allergy to alcohol but every time I end up laid out sick after a drink or two I ask myself why I bother drinking when I know this is going to happen? This weekend I had a few drinks, actually got a little buzzed and ended up feeling disgusting on what could've been a nice night. Went home, didn't sleep all night and finally decided that was it. I'm not going to all together stop drinking but the occasions that I do drink, although originally rare, will be even more few and far between. The negative effects drinking has had on me far outweigh any fleeting positives so it's time to just let it go. It's almost like sticking my finger in a socket repeatedly to see if I'll keep getting shocked. I just feel stupid for having to learn the same lesson over and over again.


Otherwise, I have some photos from the rest of July, post-Comicon.

Jesus brought me dinner!!!
Mustache strong.

Blah blah blah more photos. I'm not really sure how I feel about these.


I feel like August is going to fly by as the rest of the summer has and before I know it I'll be back at school, wishing I was home again because I'm lame like that. Don't get me wrong, I love being at school and being with my friends there. I think it will be difficult to adapt to not having my dogs around again but it'll be fantastic to not be living under the parental rule again. Small glimpses of freedom...

This is when I would typically unload a bunch of awesome random photos I found on the interwebs but I'm pretty tired and I'm starting to develop a headache so I'll have to save them for next time.

-Kemper

& don't forget.

I guess I've been writing; I guess I've been thinking. About a lot of different things. No where to really start, or end for that matter. Nothing important to cover as a high point. I've been writing down little thoughts here and there. I find I'm better at writing one-liners down than actually sitting down and writing a paragraph or pages on my thoughts: it all moves too fast and my hands just can't keep up. It'll be interesting in a few years when I stumble upon this notebook and see the few notes I wrote down and try to remember what I was thinking or referring to at the time: maybe I'll remember or maybe I'll be stumped but maybe I'll be able to apply it to something current in my life at the new time.
I've been avoiding social networking sites. I've gone through these moods before where I just don't feel like exchanging the everyday courtesies with people I hardly know, especially when it's in places as superficial as the internet. I have messages on facebook that I don't even want to touch. If I can ignore them long enough it will be as if they're not there, right? If I never read them their content cannot exist to me. I'm just not feeling myself right now, but then again if I do this periodically wouldn't it be a part of me in some way?



But do you know what I really want? I want to stop feeling sick. I guess I just feel beat. I feel like I'm trying to please as many people as I possibly can, while not stepping on any toes, while still keeping my sanity (which was waning for a bit there). I'm lacking structure. School will give it back to me. I just can't stand being at a standstill. I need shit to happen.

Let's move on to a more upbeat subject: Tell me little things that you like. I'll name a few of mine...
Water rings on paper.
The smell of a new tattoo.
The smell of a newly printed book.
Circuit boards.
The light snoring of my dogs.
People in electric wheelchairs that have dogs in their laps.
Elderly people who tell me they like my tattoos.
Overcast days.
Old photos.
Computer graphics homework.
Report cards.
Stacked books.
Anything print related. (faxes, files, large amounts of freshly printed paper)
Finding random keys. (due to the nature of my dads business, there would always be lost and random keys around his warehouse and I would go around and collect them as a kid when I would go with him to work)
Anything with a Chihuahua or R2D2 on it.
Delphi being the first thing I see when I come home because she always hears me first.


I suppose now would be an appropriate time to regale you with my Comic-Con recap.

First off, my iPhone photos:
The first night I stayed with Alicee at her place and met her sweet little pups.
First up is Chanel.

Next is Brock who I LOVE and want to be my new boyfriend.
You can kind of see Indy's (I think that's his name) butt in the top of this shot. He's still a youngin' so he moved around a lot.
Next day, pre-shoot.
Lunch with Milloux and Alicee
Pictured here are the backs of Milloux, Bradley, and Lolana.
Bob's boobs.
Chloe and I.
Me and Alicee.
Tita and I.
Ackley
Rambo & Milloux & Bradley
A lady bug landed on Milloux!
I drew a booth corgi for Radeo who proceeded to take a photo.
I shot Bob
Bob and Chloe
& Rlei, haha
Bob!

Now for some photos I've gathered from other sources:
Chloe, Rambo, Radeo, and Bob

A really dark photo of Bob, myself and Alicee.

Alicee, Bradley, myself, Bob and Vanessa

Seahorse and myself. He is the photographer behind my multi with Sash!

This photo cracks me up because of Alicee and Radeo in the back. Milloux, Exning, Venom and Bradley.

Chloe, Bradley, Alicee and me looking angry for some reason. I think I had zoned out and stopped thinking about what my face was doing.

And just me.

So that was comic-con, also in attendance but not pictured was Callioppe, CameronStewart, Missy and Sean. I think I covered everyone but I'm going to feel like total shit if I forgot to mention anyone.

I'm glad I went and I had a lot of fun but I don't know if I'm going to go back. It's all just a lot to handle. Smaller conventions I can handle or maybe just a day at the SDCC but a whole weekend is just way too much for me.

And lastly, a few days after returning I was pleased to receive the following:


How happy am I? Sooper happy. Way happier than I sounded when I started this blog. And I feel better now then I did then too! Go me! Ahh the healing powers of naked girls and awesome swag.

Follow me on instagram @kemperfi and facebook.

'Til next time!

Some girls are already down in San Diego for Comic-con and I'm so anxious and excited to get there and meet up with them. I'm leaving tonight and even if I don't get to see anyone else when I get there I'll get to see Alicee! I'm so excited to start this weekend! It's going to be so much fun! I'm anxious to see some old friends and meet some new ones! I'm already packed and ready to go, I'm just going to try my hair, have dinner here at my house and then take off! Ahhh! Almost there! I was going to put together a playlist for my drive down there, we'll see if I have time.

I want to start rambling off the names of girls that I'm so excited to see but there are so many and I can't remember all of them that I don't want to start for fear of leaving someone out! I guess you'll all just have to wait for the photos!

Speaking of which, thanks for all your love and support on California Girls! Sash and I had a lot of fun shooting it, she's such a sweet person.
Here are some of my favorite shots:


I also worked with the lovely Lauren this week who is also one of the nicest, overall awesome people I've gotten to meet through SG. I'm just going to post a pic or 2, I was just helping her do some shots for her hair and makeup portfolio.




I'm so excited to get down to San Diego. Thursday through Sunday almost seems like a long time to be away but I know it will go by fast. I feel like once Comic-Con is over time is going to fly by and I'll be back at school which I'm feeling a little bittersweet about but it'll give me something to do. I haven't been working on much and I feel unproductive. I haven't photographed anything in the longest time so I pulled out my DSLR's today and I'm going to bring one with my to the con in hopes of maybe putting my skills to use again. I really hope I get the chance to shoot something, or someone while I'm there. It's been too long.


Guess I should get to making that playlist, the pizza will be here soon and I'll be out of time before I know it.
I'll leave you with a photo of me on a daily basis, considering I'm not usually rolling around with gorgeous naked women in jacuzzis or am as dolled up as I was in the following photos.


If you're going to the con stop by the SG booth and say hi!

I feel like the creep level in my inbox has increased dramatically. I always got relatively normal and/or nice messages here on SG, and the occasional “I masturbated to you”, etc., but lately I’ve been getting more persistent and, for lack of a better word, odd people sending me messages. I don’t want to single anyone out or even say anything too specific but if someone messages me and doesn’t get a response, typically that person won’t message again the next week, day, or even within the hour. I like to think that usually people understand that I get a lot of messages and don’t have all the free time in the world to sit around daily and respond instantaneously.

It shocks me how little shame people have sometimes. Some of the things I read or hear make me wonder what people are thinking when they decide it’s a good idea to come out with those thoughts.
Just put the social-suicide gun back away in the lock-box you keep it in, deep in the hidden recesses of your mind and walk away.
If you absolutely must bring it out, use it on someone else, please. My pity only stretches so far which doesn’t include those with no self respect or respect for others.


Otherwise, I’ve been fab. I’m really looking forward to Comic-Con!!! I’m even leaving early to see miss Alicee. Amongst the multitudes of girls I'm really excited to see are Bob, Tita, and Milloux. I'm sad that Sash isn't going to be joining us there.

Given there's only 24 hours left until the anticipated multi set, I will reveal my beautiful counterpart. And all of you who guessed Bob were wrong! You were so sure too! Muahaha!


Apparently it doesn't hit the SG wall until 11pm PST.
You have less then 24 hours to mentally prepare yourselves.


In other news, I have a lot going on right, between a few different shoots being set up, a meeting with a big tattoo magazine, comic-con, a trip for a wedding, an attempt at a trip up to SF. It all seems like more than it is. I'm not stressing, just taking these things as they come. Life has been great, along with all the people who fill it.

Since I'm probably going to be blowing my iPhone up with photos at comic-con, I'm going to go ahead and unload July photos so far on you NOW. Get ready!!!

I've been having strange dreams lately. I guess it'd be more accurate to label them at nightmares.
A few nights back I dreamt that my family had given my dog, Delphi, to my sister. I started plotting how to get her back. Finally when I got the chance to go steal her back she was nowhere to be found and upon asking someone there I was informed that Delphi had died. She is our youngest dog so there'd be no reason for her to die anytime soon in real life. I just cried the entire dream. I can't ever recall having cried in a dream before but I woke up and she was in my room in her little doggy bed so I have her a big hug and told her not to die, at least not prematurely.
Last night I had a really disturbing nightmare, I don't even want to recount it in detail, in fact I don't want to remember it ever. I dreamt that my friend was being savagely beaten and mutilated by a gang. It was so horrifying that it woke me up and I did everything I could to get it out of my mind. I can't possibly imagine what would allow me to dream something so terrible. Unfortunately, I remember it vividly, as I do most dreams, I just wish I could forget it.
I'm even a little afraid to fall asleep for fear of seeing something similar in my sleep tonight.
I'll just try to think pleasant thoughts before sleep and hope I never have to be reminded of it again...



Maroon 5 is my guilty pleasure.

I'm starting to realize that emotional for me is something no one sees. I haven't shared myself with anyone in so long.

Stand Inside Your Love
The gay thing is that this video is suddenly unavailable to the US on Youtube. It was available a few months ago considering I remember watching it during the school semester.



See you at Comic-con!
Kemper: Out!

Fuck.
I've officially sold my soul to Black Milk Clothing. I'm so broke.
They just launched a bunch of new awesome stuff.

I got one of these and one of these. Oh man. So stoked. So broke. So worth it.

Now wasn't the best financial time to make that purchase but I got 10% off and I know shit will sell out quick so I wanted to be on top of it.
Thanks to my last set going front page, I can afford it. Speaking of which, there may be a nudity collaboration of epic proportions in just 7 days! Next Tuesday night, say around 9pm, perhaps...
I really don't want to give away the surprise. So perhaps, if you can guess who my sexy female companion is then you will be ahead of the game:

PS It's NOT Bob!


Otherwise,

And I think I'm going to try to recreate these, just because I think it's possible to hand make them as opposed to paying money for them:

...and my secret desire is to be a cyborg.


By the way, finished the line work on my leg piece today (aside from any background stuff).

I'd upload pics but... I'm lazy and I don't really have any good ones that are worth it right now. Basically we filled in any small detail spots we missed before, finished off the snakes tail, and finished off a wing which reached a little behind my knee. Ew. It sucked. I've definitely been through worse spots but it wasn't exactly a cakewalk.
(You can kind of see some of the new work in the second forthcoming pic)



May the force be with you, I'm gearing up hardcore for Comic-Con. Can't wait!!!
EEK!
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(oops, I meant to address some stuff from my last blog and some of your responses... Next time?)

I've got a couple things on my mind. Some more important than others, some happy and some not, some impending and some unchangeable, and some just thoughts that don't affect me in any way.

• You know that moment? The moment that you realize you have to talk to someone about your shared relationship? Whether it be a friendship or a romance or work related, it's never easy.



• No sense in worrying over something that worrying wont change.



• Would you say you've been "in love" more than once? How many times?



• It's sad how pussy-whipped my ex is for his current girl. Going from a girl who's naked on the internet and comfortable with all aspects of the female body to a girl who's uncomfortable with her body and any form of feminine sexual expression (as miniscule as cleavage). Weird.



• Today, I got a weird flash-forward, deja-vu kind of feeling that I don't recall ever having had before. I was in a situation in which all of a sudden I saw a future possibility of myself being in the same company and position. I don't know, weird.



• I've been binging on instagram lately. Follow me @kemperfi



• I will never make a twitter.



• I can't tell some of my feelings apart anymore. They've misled me so many times before that I don't trust my own interpretation of them anymore. It's when I'm really skeptical that they seem to come through.



• I'm getting tattooed tomorrow and I'm not too excited about it. I'm just not too in the mood for it but I'll be happy when it's over and the new work is there.



• I feel like I've been subconsciously suppressing all my emotions lately as a defense mechanism and I'm just realizing today. Not sure how I feel about it. Not sure I want to feel anything about it.



• I'm officially off of antidepressants. I guess I've been off for a while but I'm also just realizing it now. Don't plan on ever going back to a psychiatrist. Didn't really help much. Don't feel any different. Glad the bills, pills and bullshits over with.



• Officially back on my heart medication, FINALLY. Super stoked about that. No more fluttering and chest pain.



• I can't believe how close Comic-Con is! It's less than 2 weeks away! I can't wait to see so many of those girls. It's going to be amazing. I have a feeling I'll have a hint of bittersweetness haunting me. Story of my life. Gay.

I have other good news:


I never ever thought it would be possible but I have been given another chance! All hail the force, I have another R2D2 bathing suit! Luckily someone was kind enough to take pity on my tragic tail of theft and gave me this opportunity.
I really do feel like a little piece of my soul has returned to me. I was so devastated by that loss. Not to mention the fact that the loss was partly at the fault of some guy I was briefly dating. He asked me to bring it that night because his friends wanted to see it. I would've never brought it otherwise and it would have been safe at home. But noooo. Anyways, the past is the past and now all is back to normal and I couldn't be more pleased.

I feel like I have other amazing pictures I could share but I'm really tired and unorganized right now and I don't think I can successfully execute such things.

Otherwise, here's an outtake from the mini-set, julian. Not sure why I took this pic out because I actually really like it. Might be that pesky shadow on my shoulder. Too lazy to photoshop it.

Thanks for all the positive feedback on that, by the way.

Also, thanks for bringing Fever up to 100 comments! I just noticed that when I accidentally hit my videos tab instead of pics.

Alright, I'm starting to get a headache so I'm going to wrap it up.

I've been having an amazing few weeks. I've been surrounded by great people and I wish it would never end.
Like I said before, if you can download the Instagram app, I highly suggest it because I usually throw some pics up there daily so it's a solid visual updating system if you want to see what I'm up to on a more constant and consistent basis. AND technically that was the first place to get the release of the *new* R2D2 swimsuit (aside from individual friends). Bob knew all along, she was one of the first to get the news when I got it in the mail the other day AND to know that I was even expecting the "precious cargo".

Send good vibes my way. I just want to be a happy Kemper. I don't care what the circumstances are that bring me happiness, I never just hope for specific things, I just hope for happiness in the end.

I am happy though, so I guess it's working. <3

I love and appreciate you guys, thanks for being around.

I shot a mini set just for the hell of it. Check out julian

Don't ask why it's named that. It's a very long, illogical thought process that connects multiple things that in no way connect anywhere outside of my head. I don't actually know anyone named Julian.
Just take my word for it.


I don't have much to say right now. A lot has been happening in my life and time's been flying so quickly that I can't possibly recap.

I've been spending entirely too much time listening to The Lonely Island

Having fun.

A photo from the last club suicide.

My friend, me, Dali, Kurosune, and Milloux.



Catch me on Instagram @Kemperfi

And on facebook.

Also, Club Suicide is coming soon!

Hope you all had a good fourth (if you're in America). I came across this picture, I love it.


Stoked on getting to see Jaxy on Thursday AND a bunch of hotties in the end of July for SAN DIEGO COMIC CON!
Also, give my fellow geek, Bob, some love on her awesome new set, Gears of War.

And, mark your calendars for some goodness on the 19th of July.

That's all I got for now.
Adios.

I finished Pride & Prejudice & Zombies, the Graphic Novel.

I definitely recommend it as a supplement to P&P&Z or even just P&P but not on it's own. I feel like they left out a lot that really helps to emphasize the main points of the story.
All in all, the graphic novel is a little more difficult to follow.
Also finished Resurrection by Tolstoy. Interesting book, don't know if I'd recommend it. It's not what I expected, but not bad.

Right now I'm a bit unsettled. I've been out mostly all day, everyday lately and I feel guilty about never being home, but I've been home most of today and I feel mind numbingly bored. It's a bit of a downer. But my best friend is coming home very VERY late tomorrow night and only for about 18 hours but I'm just really excited to see her nevertheless.

Today I went to Best Buy to return the waterproof camera I bought and used for my Fever video. It just stopped working one day. I exchanged it and got another of the same, hoping the first one was just defective because overall the reviews were really good for this camera. I never bought protection on it and luckily it died within the 14 day window I had to return it to Best Buy. This time I bought 1 year of protection. Let's hope it doesn't fail again, I'm not giving it a third chance.

Also, an old friend of mine contacted me about her girlfriend wanting to be a Suicidegirl so I told her all I could about the process and if she follows through, I'll be shooting a set for her, which I'm pretty excited about. I'll let you know if/when it happens.

Personal life has been great. I love my friends and I've been seeing everyone more often lately which I love, however going out for drinks and dinners is taking it's toll on my bank account. I feel like my life is really torn in two, between home and school. I'm at school most of the year but I always have breaks and weekends to come home. When I left school at the end of the semester I was really bummed, if you can recall. I had finally started building a life there and I really didn't want it to end and I was afraid my summer would be miserable. Now I've kind of fortified my friendships here at home and even started some new ones and rekindled some old ones and now I'm afraid to have to start classes again. Technically "the grass is always greener on the other side" doesn't quite fit this scenario since I always end up wanting to keep what I have and not wanting to return to what I had wanted previously. I know it will all be good and I'll be happy wherever I am, I guess the transition is what always gets me.

I could write more, but I'm still waiting to see how things pan out. I suppose I'll just get to my month via iPhone (there's a lot, even after narrowing it down):

Let's just hope this time sticks.

Kemper

Dear World:

Do you want to know what infuriates me? When people come onto this site, or pages affiliated with it and comment or message to girls to "eat something".
I could rant about this for an eternity but I'll try to keep it short and sweet.

First, Anorexia and Bulimia are serious disorders. It's not so simple as to "eat something". Luckily, I have never had the misfortune of suffering from either of these diseases but still find people's ignorant comments very offensive.
Don't tell me to eat something.

Secondly, maybe you hadn't noticed yet in your 18+ years of life that are a legal requirement for viewing SG photos but everyone in this world is different, which means our genetics, our lifestyles, our habits, everything. These differences are what provides me with the family I was born into that consists of relatively short, very thin people. We've never been an athletic family but we don't put on weight. None of us could by any means be considered "health nuts" or "dieters". My sister lost her baby weight after her second baby within a month of giving birth at age 33 and was back to being about 5'3, 110 lbs without setting foot in a gym.
We may be genetic freaks but don't tell me to eat something.

Third, everyone has a different view of beauty and perhaps a thin, but by no means anorexic-looking girl, isn't your personal preference. Go ahead and move along and tag search "curvy".
Do not tell me to eat something.

Fourth, I'm going to skip ahead to my personal defense. I can probably school you in eating and the amounts of fatty, carb & calorie ridden foods I eat would put you to shame. And for a person who hasn't seen the inside of a gym aside from in movies and TV shows, my daily calorie intake would scare you. So shut the fuck up and don't tell me to eat something.

I very well may die someday from my poor diet and outrageous fatty intake and the toll it may take on my organs, NOT my "figure", and I very well may still be "thin" at that time, so when and if that happens, will you be saying "gee, she really should've eaten something." No, you wont. So shut the hell up.

Whatever you think you're accomplishing by saying that phrase, or any similarity to it, I can guarantee you're doing no good other than making yourself look like an insensitive, ignorant imbecile.

Take a good look:
This is my body on a daily basis


This is anorexia


This isn't just my plight, many girls who are offering up their vulnerability get these sorts of comments from people who don't even think twice about what they're saying.
It's incredibly rude, offensive and insensitive. How dare you make the assumption that you know how I live my life and how my life choices effect me. If you're that presumptuous, you're a "fan" I can afford to lose.

Goodnight, I desperately need a good nights sleep. Gotta be up early.