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JULY 19, 2011 @ 12:32 AM


I feel like the creep level in my inbox has increased dramatically. I always got relatively normal and/or nice messages here on SG, and the occasional “I masturbated to you”, etc., but lately I’ve been getting more persistent and, for lack of a better word, odd people sending me messages. I don’t want to single anyone out or even say anything too specific but if someone messages me and doesn’t get a response, typically that person won’t message again the next week, day, or even within the hour. I like to think that usually people understand that I get a lot of messages and don’t have all the free time in the world to sit around daily and respond instantaneously.

It shocks me how little shame people have sometimes. Some of the things I read or hear make me wonder what people are thinking when they decide it’s a good idea to come out with those thoughts.
Just put the social-suicide gun back away in the lock-box you keep it in, deep in the hidden recesses of your mind and walk away.
If you absolutely must bring it out, use it on someone else, please. My pity only stretches so far which doesn’t include those with no self respect or respect for others.


Otherwise, I’ve been fab. I’m really looking forward to Comic-Con!!! I’m even leaving early to see miss Alicee. Amongst the multitudes of girls I'm really excited to see are Bob, Tita, and Milloux. I'm sad that Sash isn't going to be joining us there. frown

Given there's only 24 hours left until the anticipated multi set, I will reveal my beautiful counterpart. And all of you who guessed Bob were wrong! You were so sure too! Muahaha!

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Apparently it doesn't hit the SG wall until 11pm PST.
You have less then 24 hours to mentally prepare yourselves.


In other news, I have a lot going on right, between a few different shoots being set up, a meeting with a big tattoo magazine, comic-con, a trip for a wedding, an attempt at a trip up to SF. It all seems like more than it is. I'm not stressing, just taking these things as they come. Life has been great, along with all the people who fill it.

Since I'm probably going to be blowing my iPhone up with photos at comic-con, I'm going to go ahead and unload July photos so far on you NOW. Get ready!!!

SPOILERS! (Click to view)

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I've been having strange dreams lately. I guess it'd be more accurate to label them at nightmares.
A few nights back I dreamt that my family had given my dog, Delphi, to my sister. I started plotting how to get her back. Finally when I got the chance to go steal her back she was nowhere to be found and upon asking someone there I was informed that Delphi had died. She is our youngest dog so there'd be no reason for her to die anytime soon in real life. I just cried the entire dream. I can't ever recall having cried in a dream before but I woke up and she was in my room in her little doggy bed so I have her a big hug and told her not to die, at least not prematurely.
Last night I had a really disturbing nightmare, I don't even want to recount it in detail, in fact I don't want to remember it ever. I dreamt that my friend was being savagely beaten and mutilated by a gang. It was so horrifying that it woke me up and I did everything I could to get it out of my mind. I can't possibly imagine what would allow me to dream something so terrible. Unfortunately, I remember it vividly, as I do most dreams, I just wish I could forget it.
I'm even a little afraid to fall asleep for fear of seeing something similar in my sleep tonight.
I'll just try to think pleasant thoughts before sleep and hope I never have to be reminded of it again...



Maroon 5 is my guilty pleasure.

I'm starting to realize that emotional for me is something no one sees. I haven't shared myself with anyone in so long.





I'm so tired of playing, playing with this bow and arrow. Gonna give my heart away, leave it to the other girls to play for I've been a temptress too long...



Stand Inside Your Love
The gay thing is that this video is suddenly unavailable to the US on Youtube. It was available a few months ago considering I remember watching it during the school semester.



See you at Comic-con!
Kemper: Out!

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Butcha

Butcha

Franklin, MA
July 2009

JUL 19, 2011 04:22 AM

Wow, so sorry to hear about the huge creep factor you've been experiencing. Even being on a site where guys are looking at naked girls, that doesn't condone people acting like pigs and all that. Love your Star Wars artwork. I'm a 501st member so SW is a HUGE part of who I am. Keep rocking out sweets. Peace!

-Butcha
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Tactical

Tactical

I'm lost
August 2009

JUL 19, 2011 04:23 AM

Holy shit I knew you were a superhero lol but that is not how you wear a viking helmet wink

Aarron_M

Aarron_M

Colorado Springs, CO
January 2011

JUL 19, 2011 04:36 AM

I can't believe it wasn't Bob! But finding out it's Sash...*faints*

Sorry about the creepers...looks in mirror to check personal creepy levels...

YevlaX

YevlaX

USA
July 2010

JUL 19, 2011 05:15 AM

The last time I wrote messages to sg's on here, I was asking if some of the girls would mind if I wrote some fanfic about them. Of the five I messaged, 2 said sure, one said no that'd be creepy, and 2 didn't reply. It's sometimes very hard to gauge on the other end of the computer, what somebody will and will not find creepy, because people have such different definitions and limitations (my favorite model makes weird jokes in her blog and wears a shirt with a dick on it...is she going to think this is funny or creepy? hell if I know). i mostly just stick to commenting on sets and blogs, and goofing around now. I have one SG in my facebook friends list that I talk to there as a normal friend (Porphyria, shes extremely nice), but other than that I try not to bug anyone too much. I still haven't finished the stories, but hope to by the end of the year.

knickh

knickh

New York, NY
July 2010

JUL 19, 2011 05:19 AM

why would anyone message someone they don't "know"? love the mask, you should do a Super Hero set...

JP

JP

USA
July 2002

JUL 19, 2011 06:11 AM

I love your blogs. Always interesting with some sexiness mixed in. Thanks for posting! smile

stg7602

stg7602

USA
November 2010

JUL 19, 2011 06:47 AM

What? You don't sit around full time just replying to messages here? That's crazy talk! smile

Exning

Exning

SUICIDEGIRL

California, USA

JUL 19, 2011 06:57 AM

I'll be seeing you at comicon smile

spselfr

spselfr

Santee, CA
July 2009

JUL 19, 2011 07:05 AM

Damn that was a lot of everything pictures, comments, messages, and crazy people. Try foo dogs they are suposed to keep away bad thoughts and dreams. I can't wait for the new set.

Teva

Teva

Jonesboro, GA
November 2007

JUL 19, 2011 07:26 AM

I'm sorry to hear about all of those creepy messages. It sucks that people think they can say whatever over the net. I hope you have a blast at comi con and I look forward to your multi with Sash. Awesome photos but the food ones made me hungry tongue I hope you have better dreams smile

rlvlk

rlvlk

I'm lost
November 2007

JUL 19, 2011 08:05 AM

Sash and Kemper in a few hours?!? And then Bob & Kemper in a few weeks?
oh my!
lovelovelovelovelove

Zarphin

Zarphin

Portage, MI
OLD SKOOL

JUL 19, 2011 08:31 AM

You and Sash! Oh my! Sorry to hear you're having nightmares though, I've been very happy to have stopped remembering anything I dream in the years since my mom died. I do occasionally have a dream, I'll remember it, and have deja vu at some point, but thus far no horrid nightmares. ick.
Don't keep yourself to yourself for too long, but don't open up to those who won't hold you sacred either. its a fine line, here hoping you find the right person for you. Thanks for the blog, always fun to see whats been going on in your life.

thelabrat

thelabrat

Los Angeles, CA
April 2011

JUL 19, 2011 10:04 AM

I'll see you at comicon! So excited.

DerbyGuy

DerbyGuy

Dayton, OH
June 2009

JUL 19, 2011 10:34 AM

I always sort of figured that getting a lot of weird/creepy/pervy messages was an unfortunate consequence of doing something like this. I do apologize on behalf of my sex. Personally, I'm always delighted and flattered to get a message or comment from a SG, mainly because they do get so many messages themselves.

Dreams are a tricky thing. The current thinking is that they're just the brain trying to make sense out of random impulses. I hope those awful nightmares stop for you though I don't know if there's anything you can do about them.

Kraven

Kraven

SUICIDEGIRL

USA

JUL 19, 2011 10:47 AM

I love your pic updates. Your images are always so interesting. And I have to say I am sooooo antsy to see this set. You two look so complementary to each other in that image. Gorgeous!!!!! I for one will be leaving it a ton of love!

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