I've got a couple things on my mind. Some more important than others, some happy and some not, some impending and some unchangeable, and some just thoughts that don't affect me in any way.

• You know that moment? The moment that you realize you have to talk to someone about your shared relationship? Whether it be a friendship or a romance or work related, it's never easy.



• No sense in worrying over something that worrying wont change.



• Would you say you've been "in love" more than once? How many times?



• It's sad how pussy-whipped my ex is for his current girl. Going from a girl who's naked on the internet and comfortable with all aspects of the female body to a girl who's uncomfortable with her body and any form of feminine sexual expression (as miniscule as cleavage). Weird.



• Today, I got a weird flash-forward, deja-vu kind of feeling that I don't recall ever having had before. I was in a situation in which all of a sudden I saw a future possibility of myself being in the same company and position. I don't know, weird.



• I've been binging on instagram lately. Follow me @kemperfi



• I will never make a twitter.



• I can't tell some of my feelings apart anymore. They've misled me so many times before that I don't trust my own interpretation of them anymore. It's when I'm really skeptical that they seem to come through.



• I'm getting tattooed tomorrow and I'm not too excited about it. I'm just not too in the mood for it but I'll be happy when it's over and the new work is there.



• I feel like I've been subconsciously suppressing all my emotions lately as a defense mechanism and I'm just realizing today. Not sure how I feel about it. Not sure I want to feel anything about it.



• I'm officially off of antidepressants. I guess I've been off for a while but I'm also just realizing it now. Don't plan on ever going back to a psychiatrist. Didn't really help much. Don't feel any different. Glad the bills, pills and bullshits over with.



• Officially back on my heart medication, FINALLY. Super stoked about that. No more fluttering and chest pain.



• I can't believe how close Comic-Con is! It's less than 2 weeks away! I can't wait to see so many of those girls. It's going to be amazing. I have a feeling I'll have a hint of bittersweetness haunting me. Story of my life. Gay.

I have other good news:


I never ever thought it would be possible but I have been given another chance! All hail the force, I have another R2D2 bathing suit! Luckily someone was kind enough to take pity on my tragic tail of theft and gave me this opportunity.
I really do feel like a little piece of my soul has returned to me. I was so devastated by that loss. Not to mention the fact that the loss was partly at the fault of some guy I was briefly dating. He asked me to bring it that night because his friends wanted to see it. I would've never brought it otherwise and it would have been safe at home. But noooo. Anyways, the past is the past and now all is back to normal and I couldn't be more pleased.

I feel like I have other amazing pictures I could share but I'm really tired and unorganized right now and I don't think I can successfully execute such things.

Otherwise, here's an outtake from the mini-set, julian. Not sure why I took this pic out because I actually really like it. Might be that pesky shadow on my shoulder. Too lazy to photoshop it.

Thanks for all the positive feedback on that, by the way.

Also, thanks for bringing Fever up to 100 comments! I just noticed that when I accidentally hit my videos tab instead of pics.

Alright, I'm starting to get a headache so I'm going to wrap it up.

I've been having an amazing few weeks. I've been surrounded by great people and I wish it would never end.
Like I said before, if you can download the Instagram app, I highly suggest it because I usually throw some pics up there daily so it's a solid visual updating system if you want to see what I'm up to on a more constant and consistent basis. AND technically that was the first place to get the release of the *new* R2D2 swimsuit (aside from individual friends). Bob knew all along, she was one of the first to get the news when I got it in the mail the other day AND to know that I was even expecting the "precious cargo".

Send good vibes my way. I just want to be a happy Kemper. I don't care what the circumstances are that bring me happiness, I never just hope for specific things, I just hope for happiness in the end.

I am happy though, so I guess it's working. <3

I love and appreciate you guys, thanks for being around.