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JULY 4, 2008 @ 07:34 AM

i wake every day with the same dred
i dont want another day like this
unmotivated, just living not being
i feel like im walking around in circles
chasing after my dream
all i want to do is give up

do i give in and go the easy route
or stick it out
and live my dream

i feel so lost and confused
and im getting crazily jelous of others
its not me

I have been home for a month now
i have no focus no reason for waking up in the morning
i have been applying like crazy for jobs
but i cant even be bothered any more
it seems so hard
and seems like no one will let me in
or give me a chance

one good thing
i got my uni results 2:1

so i guess thats good?
isnt it?

I graduate on July 16th
and go to ATL July 18th i cant wait to have a break from whatever it is i need a break from!

I no i am being really negative and im really sorry
at the moment im finding it really hard to be positive
there is so much i want
so much i have planned but nothing seems to be working out

right im gonna stop ranting and boring you and will show you some pictures

My boyfriends graduation

dancing

posing

family (i did have to bloody ruin it haha)

Also i went to my good friends 20th bday
and it was fancy dress everything begining with 'm' i went as Minnie Mouse and dave went as John Macinroe (sp?)
I thought havign a white face would be a good idea but i ended up terrifying everyone
and not looking good at all
haha

bf and gf

minnie and mime

THEN i had a LITTLE too much to drink
and this happend

NIPPLE!

ohh dear!!!

oh also i still have prints avaliable if anyone even cares

love from a negi keiko
x

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mattacme

Calistoga, CA

February 2006

JUL 04, 2008 07:50 AM

Sounds like you are actually on the threshold of something, in a bit of a transition period. Take heart, don't panic and certainly don't quit on your dreams, at least not yet. You've done so much to get where you are and have so little ground left to cover until your goal is in sight. I know it feels like its never going to work but it probably will. Do yourself one little favor, if you can; try to pare down your wants to the things (or conditions) that you really absolutely need to be happy and free.

You make a cute couple, by the way. Best wishes.

Fatality

SUICIDEGIRL

USA

JUL 04, 2008 08:56 AM

I don't even know what 2:1 means!!!

ron4164

Ponchatoula, LA

January 2007

JUL 04, 2008 08:56 AM

Ooh...hope you're ok Keiko. You can't be sad because your hopes aren't working ot as planned.
That's the way life is. You want something. You get it or you don't. Don't go wacky over it.
If it is meant to be, it will happen. If it isn't, well forget it and move along.

You are too cute! Minnie Mouse! I never knew Minnie drank until she was rolling on the floor.
I shouldn't laugh at you, but it's so cute it's hilarious! Sorry sweetie.

Prints? Did I not order enough? I care about you sweetie. I'm not exactly what you'd call rich. Rather poor if you really think about it.

I love you sweet SG. If you need to be posi, talk to James. She is the queen of posi thoughts.
Take care Keiko. I hope you start feeling better about you soon sweetie.
Have fun ok.

EDIT: I saw Fatality's post...2:1 is strange looking to me too. What kind of scores are those?

Keiko

SUICIDEGIRL

United Kingdom

JUL 04, 2008 09:04 AM

Ok in the UK
and europe when you get a a degree you are graded with either a
First 1st
Upper Second 2:1
Lower Second 2:2
Third 3rd
Fail

So First is obviously the top and i got one below the top
so its like getting an A
if that made sence
x

Doherty

SUICIDEGIRL

I'm lost

JUL 04, 2008 09:21 AM

I know you were in Cologne some months ago... I remember writing to you about hardcore shows/discos.

Anyway, do you plan to come back to Cologne this year? I know you love Hardcore shows as much as me... so if you come back, we have to meet and heard some goood musik

Liebe Grüße

Doherty

SUICIDEGIRL

I'm lost

JUL 04, 2008 09:29 AM

In the holidays over Christmas? Allright, that means I have enough time to find good concerts in your area. Yeeeaaahhh cool thing. And I will motivate the other German SGs to come, too.

So, are u visiting your family again?

Nagaina

HOPEFUL

Chile

JUL 04, 2008 09:37 AM

HAHAHAHA
really the make up was giveup you after drink but you always look adorable

Fatality

SUICIDEGIRL

USA

JUL 04, 2008 11:09 AM

Aw, thanks so much for the explanation. Congratulations then!

Miyo

SUICIDEGIRL

United Kingdom

JUL 04, 2008 11:22 AM

congrats on your results, i love the costume!

Charity

SUICIDEGIRL

Australia

JUL 04, 2008 11:33 AM

nah your in it aswell, a little pic of all us girlies.those pics are beautiful lady!sorry ive been crap at getting back to you, never have bloody credit on my phone .we need to go out for a drink, maybe sunday?you have to come to my leaveing do aswell its the 26th!!xxxx

Irinka

SUICIDEGIRL

California, USA

JUL 04, 2008 11:36 AM

you and your boyfriend are so damn cute together!

Shiro

SUICIDEGIRL

United Kingdom

JUL 04, 2008 12:07 PM

awww lover dont be sad im sure everything will work out and just think you are going to america soon which i am sure will make you happy.

its ok about not coming to cardiff. i got the photos back the other day and they have come out really well so i hope to submit one set by monday ooooooooooo.

i have moved up into the valleys for a bit. i cant afford to rent in cardiff at the moe so i am living with the other half until i have saved up enough to move out. fingers crossed if i save up enough i should be able to come and visit in august and we can go drinking and what not.

xxx

p.s love the nipple shot lol

Charity

SUICIDEGIRL

Australia

JUL 04, 2008 12:11 PM

i know its crazy!ill put in a good word for you its mon tues wed 9.45 to 7.its a peice of piss!xxx

stevie_mcc

Canada

September 2005

JUL 04, 2008 01:04 PM

the drunk mini mouse pictures are super cute

mattacme

Calistoga, CA

February 2006

JUL 04, 2008 02:23 PM

You are welcome. There are plenty of losers in this world for whom nothing will work out and everything always seems to fall through but you are not among them (and really, you know it). I see great things for you, just try to keep it as simple as you are able and manage the things you can and not the things you can't. Its easier than it sounds. You are a winner.

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