Dear me,
Stop over analizing things just because you think your supposed to. Sure you might be scared, but you dont need to concentrate on that. It's like you just said, " I don't expect anything anymore" Life is supposed to be fun. Dont EVER forget that.
-Yourself

I talk with my hands. Alot of people do. But just recently i realized i think with my hands too.

Ok so i'm falling for the boy. But it's keeping of going for now. I'm having serious issues with work (even tho the flowers make me smile) but so much else seems to be going right... I have the coolest friends. My familys nuts (i'm glad) and i have this boy, who really cares about me. Open up Morning Glory...it's a new day...

I'm on the anti-atkins diet.Today for lunch i am having carbs, carbs, and a small bit of carbs to go with 'em. Yummy

This week is way hard. So many hours in the hot sun. Then i got a call last night saying my phone is gonna get shut off cause i owe them $500 this month. What!?! that's fucked up. I knew i went over my minutes...but not that bad. Thats gotta be wrong. Atleast i get to in skate board my stress of tonight. And one more day of hard labor till i get to go camping with the southern boy.

I feel like a fork is coming soon along my road. I feel the tension way to early. My Happyness comes with a shadow anymore.

Last night I went to see No Doubt in concert (dont mock, I've been a fan of theres since '96). OMG I had an AMAZING time! Unfortunitly there were no balloons in the parking lot, but We met this cool dude from Texas selling his hand blown glass pipes and he got us smoked up Oh and the craziest thing happend... I saw this girl and there was just somthing about here. I walked up to her out of the blue and said," Are you a Capricorn?" She nearly shit! I was dead on!!! I'm gettin pretty good at this..

I'm sooooo tired. I started this temporary job at the greenhouses so I'd have some days off to do things I need to around here. But now I'm there all the time. And now I'm up at 8am on a SUNDAY. Like I wasnt going to go out last night. I need to find a night job...

So heres my dilemma (if you could call it that)... I've dated alot of guys that turned out to be assholes. (who hasnt?) But I finally met this guy from the south whom I absolutly ADORE. Hes so friggin polite and genuine; opens the door for me, takes me out to dinner, drives an hour to come see me 3x's a week. But he gets into some heavy substance abuse now and then. Not often, but when he does he goes all out, Hunter S. Thompson style. The way I see it so far is, everyone has SOMETHING wrong with them...if hes awsome for me in every other way, can I overlook this?

Oh my god is it Sunday ALREADY? Geez, this week was crazy. Good and bad . Least I might have finally figured out this quarter life crisis thing.