SuicideGirl: Jordan
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Jordan likes pete doherty.

I’m private
 
AUGUST 21, 2005 @ 01:46 PM


I’m just sitting here waiting for Buffy The Vampire Slayer to come on. It’s too hot to do anything else besides watch chicks and vampires fight. But I’m feeling better. I just have very few people in my life who are close to me, I don’t let a lot of people in, and sometimes I think I need more attention than anyone can give me. Other times I just wanna be left the hell alone. I’m difficult to love and it’s hard for me to love others. Also I’m anxious to hear back from my agent. I’m not sure the right way to communicate with such a highly respected agency. I have no former experience and this is a very big opportunity and I don’t want to blow it. Not to sound melodramatic, but I sincerely couldn’t forgive myself if I fucked this up. I have so many people in my immediate family doubting any future success I’ll have in writing. That’s not why I write, I write because it’s therapeutic and also because I enjoy entertaining people. I want people flipping through the pages of my brain long after I’m dead. The new book is going awesome. I got a lot of writing done yesterday on the train ride out to Long Island.
Yesterday I went to the beach. It was wonderful. Free whiskey, sand, water, weird dead sea life washed to shore, and I turned a game of ping-pong into ruthless air hockey and kicked ass, climbin’ on the table and all.
I also found another job which is cool. It’s funny last night I told a friend of mine that and he said, “Don’t you find a new job everyday?” Ahahaha. I’ve literally had 46 day jobs. One night I couldn’t fall asleep so I decided to go back and count through them all.

Back to work. Back to writing. Back to what I love. No, wait, it’s time for Buffy.

Hope everyone is well. Thanks for the kind comments.
kiss
Comments
TehWickedEnds

TehWickedEnds

Worcester, MA
August 2004

AUG 21, 2005 04:06 PM

I was more of a Angel Fan then Buffy.

Cain

Cain

SUICIDEGIRL

Iceland

AUG 21, 2005 08:16 PM

I would most likely kill myself if I were to wear gogo boots. I've never worn highheels. Are gogo boots even highheeled? I actually have no idea. But thank you for your kind words, lady, they give me the pink fuzzies. *mwah*

charlemagne

charlemagne

Battle Creek, MI
May 2005

AUG 21, 2005 09:58 PM

I like Buffy and Angel. Right now I catch mostly Angel reruns. Charisma Carpenter is a hoot.

You'e always going to have people around who try to make you doubt yourself. Write, damn it! If you do what you like and pursue your dreams, you'll always be a winner.

Stardust

Stardust

Netherlands
January 2004

AUG 22, 2005 12:24 AM

at the risk of asking a dumb question: what do you write??

Jena

Jena

New York, NY
June 2003

AUG 22, 2005 09:28 AM

mmmmmmmm Buffy. i used to find the Buff to be so theraputic, waiting for our night together to zen out. love

i think i may actually be on the Island soon. i'm trying to make plans=NEED VACATION/purgatory.

that made me feel better!!!!!!! i agree, people are fucking disasters. no conceptions of, eh, you know. lunatics. yes, i am just going to be glamourous and fuck this shit.

and my eye shadow is actually---this isn't meant to be a sale but you can see it here--my secrets! and also you'll probably chuckle over my description of the secrets.

and yes, i decided to tribute you today. i seem to change everything (profile, etc) all the time but you need a tribute for cracking me up and making wonderful posts that i love!! blush keep rockin. tongue kiss

Jena

Jena

New York, NY
June 2003

AUG 22, 2005 09:33 AM

ahh, i threw some fave pix in of you b/c they are as triumphant as the day and strong! i need that. miao!!

treason

treason

Brooklyn, NY
OLD SKOOL

AUG 22, 2005 09:37 AM

kiss
hey sweetie.
what u up to.
love

Jena

Jena

New York, NY
June 2003

AUG 22, 2005 10:55 PM

oh i mean LONG Island, I'll be in Nassau if I come out. I've just been in need of purgatory. just to isolate. but i'd totally love t oget together and be social! (that would be different) oh God treason's comment made me pee, that was hysterical.

i think i would come in though next month--not sure! kiss

JackSkellington3

JackSkellington3

Astoria, NY
June 2004

AUG 23, 2005 06:02 PM

yeah I do the same thing with people, I mean I'm alot better than I used to be. and I'm sure you won't fuck up the thing with the agency. I'm sure you'll be successful with your writing

I'm sorry I haven't been commenting more, and I'm glad to hear your getting over being sick

Jena

Jena

New York, NY
June 2003

AUG 23, 2005 06:11 PM

oh thank you, lady. kiss blush i love it. so appreciated.

i am currently cooking up my plans! fuck, get me outta dodge a bit!!! eeek

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