" Im about to turn thirty" = "I've paid my dues and now my life is mine to do with what I want.'"
Seriously. You're going to notice this more and more in the next few months.
Your moms does not realize the extent of the hard work you've put in. I think her failures count toward your dues paying as well.
You're going to start getting payoff.
I love you!!!!!!
I wasnt bothered about turning 30 then I kind of freaked for a month after actually turning it and had lots of "what the fuck have i done with my life!" moments. But that kind of thing is good as it makes you want to grab opportunities quicker and not waste time. You're a cool 29 year old and you will be a supercool 30 year old. You look damn fine still too.
You've always got me to talk to. I'm very interested to hear about your writing.
Turning 30 scares me as well...I turn 29 this year and I still feel like I just left college and haven't decided what to do with my life.
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stella_marie
New York, NY
January 2005
JAN 09, 2006 02:43 PM
i read that before you threw it up.
my mother and i are from two different planets, yet we're best of friends. the past few months weve had a bit of a rift between us. she called me today to say it has to stop cause she misses me. its strange to me how our younger years are spent learning from our parnets and becoming what they want and our older years dislearning and becoming our own person. im now at a point where i have reached the middle of the two extremes and happy with the balence.
im almost 28 and still waiting for my adult life to start. you know, the life i expected to start immediately after college. its just taking a bit longer and a different route, but i wouldnt be who i am today if i had taken any other path.
ok, im gonna stop before i feel some halo of light around me and feel all omnipotent.
I knew you were in need of a little puke pick me up Im so good to you.
Visiting those places in our mind that make us uncomfortable helps to keep everything in perspective. You can never think too much its one of your qualities that make you so attractive.
Advice=
Endeavor to persevere.
Talent often makes poor career decisions. Make choices wisely, have clear and attainable goals.
On the JT Leroy story dont take it as a personal affront, there may be more than meets the eye to yet appear. Look at your personal contact as a valued insight to a vast story.
My hostel date is a little inconsistent and weve yet to connect to be able to go. I promised her the experience and strive to keep my obligations I hope for sometime soon.