* WELL EVERYONE I'M LEAVING SUICIDE GIRLS !!!!! . IT WAS FUN WHILE IT LASTED. I WILL MISS YOU ALL <3 !!! *

* HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE !!! *
* LUV JINX *

* YAY... IT'S MY BIRTHDAY TODAY. I TURN 25. UH OH A QUARTER OF A CENTURY ALREADY EEK !!! OH WELL, I THANK ALL MY FRIENDS AND ALCOHOL FOR KEEPING ME FEELING YOUNG <3. SAT. I'M HAVING MY B-DAY PARTY IN PITTSBURGH WITH ALL MY PITTSBURGH FRIENDS. CAN ANYONE SAY " MIND ERASER?". THAT IS WHAT I'LL BE DRINKING UNTIL I CAN NO LONGER SPELL MY NAME AND EVENTUALLY FALL DOWN DRUNK. AFTER ALL, ISN'T THAT WHAT BIRTHDAYS ARE FOR !?! *


* AND THIS WILL BE ME THE MORNING AFTER !!!

ALLRIGHT. I REALIZED THAT I SUNK TO A NEW LOW WHEN I WROTE WHAT I DID HERE PREVIOUSLY. IT DOESN'T CHANGE THE FACT THAT I'M STILL PISSED OFF BUT I WENT ABOUT IT THE WRONG WAY. I SHOULDN'T HAVE GONE AS FAR AS TO STOOP TO ANOTHER PERSONS LEVEL. I JUST HATE IT WHEN SOMEONE DISLIKES ME WHEN I HAVE DONE NOTHING TO THEM PERSONALLY. WE ALL HAVE OUR OWN VARIOUS REASONS FOR NOT LIKING OTHER PPL. BUT SOMETIMES THINGS ARE BETER LEFT UNSAID. I'M ONE TO KEEP MY COMMENTS TO MYSELF UNTIL I'M PUSHED TO THAT BREAKING POINT WHERE THE OTHER PERSON WON'T LAY OFF MY CASE. AND THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENED TO ME. SO I MAY HAVE GONE OVERBOARD IN WHAT I SAID SO I DELETED MY PREVIOUS JOURNAL ENTRY. JUST TRYING TO BE THE BETTER "MAN". GOD THIS SOUNDS LIKE JUNIOR HIGH ALL OVER AGAIN LOL....

O.k. So HoW's ThIs FoR cReEpY:

* So I hAvE rEaSoN tO bElIevE tHaT mY eX iS uSiNg ThIs SiTe To KeEp TaBs On Me. NoW pLeAsE nOtE tHaT tHiS iS tHe SaMe Ex ThAt I lEfT bEcAuSe He CoUlDn'T hAnDlE tHe FaCt Of Me BeInG a SuIcIdE gIrL bEcAuSe Of HiS nEw FoUnD rElIgIoN aNd NoW hAs An s.G. mEmBeRsHiP tO cHeCk InTo WhAt'S gOiNg On In My PeRsOnAl LiFe. AnYoNe ElSe FiNd ThAt JuSt A wEe TaD cReEpY !?! *

*Got too much time to sit and wait,
But life won't wait for me.
I only refuse to adjust my eyes,
because it hurts too much for me.
Walked a thousand miles and back,
Just to end up at the start.
Oh no way i'll never crack,
No i'll never fall apart.
I'll never run, i'll never leave.
I'll stay on this rollercoaster ride.
I'll never confess, i'll never believe
After all, I've only lost my pride*

*My thoughts on life as of this moment in time* *-<3 Jinx *

WeLL wEll WeLL.... i'll be shooting a new s.g. set within a week or so then i'll be hittin' the road for awhile. i don't think i've emphasized on how much i HATE winter! i had plans to leave sooner except my one friend that i wuz suppose to go with got a job. go figure! so now i'm figuring out plan b. i don't want to travel alone. that's never fun and spells nothing but t-r-o-u-b-l-e!!! so as soon as i can find someone else to make the journy with i'm off to either cali. or somewhere in az. anyone wanna come along for the ride?

ahhhh.drinkin' a warm 40 oz. getting prepared to shoot my next s.g. set. sshhhh.... it's a secret umm that's about it ya'll!

blah. i'm bummed out. everyone who i thought i could ever call my friend has stabbed me in the back. it's so funny how when someone fucks up they try to play it off like it's nothing. but ya know i make a few mistakes along the way and everyone turns their back. these are the same ppl that i've gone out of my way to help out. "friends" that were homeless so i took them in. "friends" that were hungry so i fed them. i could go on and on but i won't. yesterday i sat back an evaluated my life and everything in it. the outcome that i came up with is as follows: life is what it is. reality bites. hey what can i say. same shit different day.sorry for killing the mood for any of you. next time around, happy fun stuff. <3 jinx<3

o.k. so winter is on it's way i guess. it dropped to 38 degres last night and it was fuckin' COLD!. i think i'm going to go on vacation here pretty soon for awhile. i hate the cold! i want to get another photoset together before i go though. i am having a hard time getting a photographer as well as coming up with a really original idea. if anyone has any advice i'm willing to hear it! i need a phtographer in the pittsburgh/grensburg area....thanx<3