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MORE PICTURES ...... But First I need to go on a lil rant for a min or 2
I feel like i have been in a deep dark coma for some time now. I have felt uninspired by life. I have felt like i have fallen into a horriable nightmare that i cant blame anyone else for besides myself...... And the past few days i have slowly been feeling like i am emerging from this coma slowly wakeing up and feeling alive again. I realized its OK to laugh n smile again. I also suddenly feel inspired to pick up my camera again. I want to photograph the world again i dont want to leave the house without my camera. I dont know what woke me up or why i suddenly woke up but im not complaining. Maybe its cause i finally again have a roof over my head n keys to somewhere to call home even if its only tempory. Maybe its cause i havent been slaveing away in the slums of Strip clubs anymore. Maybe it is cause i am sober. Maybe it is casue I have been surrounding my self with good people who all have faith in me and inspire me. Maybe its cause i have lost a bit of weight n suddenly am not so self concious. Or Maybe im just finally learnig to accept my mistakes and try to change the things i have done wrong in the past. What ever it may be I am for once OK with everything. I may be broke n scrapeing by but i know this too shall pass.
The past 6 years i lived out here in California it was very rare that anyone ever came and visited me leaveing me to feel super lonely and home sick. I have only been back in california for 3 weeks and I have blessed with some of the most amazing visitors. !st week home my friends Gina and Joyce from NJ came to visit me and left me feeling so loved and apreciated. I cant wait for them to come back. Then my friend Janis calls me and tells me she booked a flight to come visit me for thanksgiving so im not alone. Then my friend Chris who randomly showed up and just knowing that he knew me when i started taking pictures of bands back at the Birch Hill in NJ when i was only 17 and still has faith in me at 27 means the world to me. Then there was another friend who i may say one night of driveing around and talking sort of made me wake up a little. After that drive i ran to my camera n fell inlove with photography again. All cause i promised a picture of something a cell phone couldnt capture the beauty of.
And with each of these people visiting and me driveing them around to see some of the most beautiful sights that LA has to offer as well as my recent drive across I-80, I realized why do i not have my camera in my hand more often. why am i letting these moments fly by without freezing time for future visual memories. I dont understand why more people dont just get in their cars n take a senic drive every once in a while. Ever since i turned 17 and got my liscense all i have ever done for joy in life is go on adventures with my camera. It was what helped me keep my sanity. And somewhere within the past year or 2 i lost that and slipped into that hellish coma i am slowly pulling myself out of. FUCK NATIONAL STAY AT HOME WEEK. I say it should be national get in your car n go for a drive week or what about national go for a hike week or even national go for a bike ride week. WAKE UP smell the flowers trust me they smell amazing if you drive down Sunset Blvd towards PCH at night thru beverly hills all the way to the ocean.
Yesterday i drove up PCH to some beach i think its called Leo Cabrillo beach with my camera with an image in my mind. even tho the waves from the ocean ate my image litterly by sweeping everything away that i set up. I still discovered Starfish and an octipuss hideing between the rocks in little pools that the waves had helped create.
You may wonder what do i do with my days now? in the early morning as the sun is comming up i drive around with my camera and go on lil photo missions to keep my sanity, and then by day i either work as an assistant photographer to a friend of mine or i sit in my hallway looking for work online. (yes the hallway i payed my neighbors $10 for their password to the wireless and i ony get their signal in my hallway) And then when the sun begins to set i grab my camera and go out and drive and take more pictures. Im pretty content with my life right now. Some days i wish i had someone to share these adventures with. Someone who also maybe has a creative outlook on life but i cant ask for the world. I would love to do more traveling in the near future but i basically drained myself dry considering i did drive across the country 3 times this summer and gas isnt cheap. but maybe when i get my funds back up i can complete the last 10 states of the USA maybe even before i turn 30. And after i complete that i can begin to travel Europe and other countrys.
On other news MY BIRTHDAY is comming up i will be 27 on OCTOBER 22nd im excited. I am hopeing 27 will be a good year for me.
And i realized that i have some of the worlds most amazing people by my side who will always be there for me and I can truely call FRIENDS.
NOW SOME MORE PICTURES
My new hair cut which i have been loveing
heres a pic from before i cut my hair to give u an idea of how much went bye bye. this pic was from the night my friends gina and joyce too me to Villalounge talk about not my scene but alot of fun
Before my drive across I-80 i had never seen a stripped cow before have u?
this was taken on rt 66 HERE WHAT IS there was nothing there
this pic says it all
And i finally got to spray paint a car at the cadilac rance in amerillo texas with out getting chased by cows n bulls as the sun was comming up
heres some pictures of me and my random road trip buddies this summer
me and my ex room mate Chris i get bored easily in the passenger seat n i think i ate a dozen pen caps tryin not to chain smoke drivein rt 66
me and hello kitty n my silly flower drivein I-80 yes i know takin pics n drivein is not safe
me hello kitty n ice bat leavein nj on i-80
and my best friend in the whole world my trusty lil matrix look she still had hub caps
I recently found some pictures burried in my computer of some conventions from over the summer too
me and SG Calamity at hell city
bob n gunner and some ladies taken in long beach
Hector Fong AKA Fine Line Fong From rock of ages Tattooing a cupcake on my leg in long beach
Paul Acker tattooing my other leg in long beach on the queen mary
me and barb from deepsix
some awsome cars from the car show at the queen mary ink and iron fest
This is beyond gross but had to share this billboard i saw on I-40 in arizona
can i tell u how much fun this girl is and yes that is her tattooed on my leg
halloween is comming up too what should i be?????
Queen of hearts
Sexy slutty nurse
prisioner
ref
NUN
or should i go shoppin 4 something new????
well anyway i am off to start my day and find more work then to wander the world
much love
I feel like i have been in a deep dark coma for some time now. I have felt uninspired by life. I have felt like i have fallen into a horriable nightmare that i cant blame anyone else for besides myself...... And the past few days i have slowly been feeling like i am emerging from this coma slowly wakeing up and feeling alive again. I realized its OK to laugh n smile again. I also suddenly feel inspired to pick up my camera again. I want to photograph the world again i dont want to leave the house without my camera. I dont know what woke me up or why i suddenly woke up but im not complaining. Maybe its cause i finally again have a roof over my head n keys to somewhere to call home even if its only tempory. Maybe its cause i havent been slaveing away in the slums of Strip clubs anymore. Maybe it is cause i am sober. Maybe it is casue I have been surrounding my self with good people who all have faith in me and inspire me. Maybe its cause i have lost a bit of weight n suddenly am not so self concious. Or Maybe im just finally learnig to accept my mistakes and try to change the things i have done wrong in the past. What ever it may be I am for once OK with everything. I may be broke n scrapeing by but i know this too shall pass.
The past 6 years i lived out here in California it was very rare that anyone ever came and visited me leaveing me to feel super lonely and home sick. I have only been back in california for 3 weeks and I have blessed with some of the most amazing visitors. !st week home my friends Gina and Joyce from NJ came to visit me and left me feeling so loved and apreciated. I cant wait for them to come back. Then my friend Janis calls me and tells me she booked a flight to come visit me for thanksgiving so im not alone. Then my friend Chris who randomly showed up and just knowing that he knew me when i started taking pictures of bands back at the Birch Hill in NJ when i was only 17 and still has faith in me at 27 means the world to me. Then there was another friend who i may say one night of driveing around and talking sort of made me wake up a little. After that drive i ran to my camera n fell inlove with photography again. All cause i promised a picture of something a cell phone couldnt capture the beauty of.
And with each of these people visiting and me driveing them around to see some of the most beautiful sights that LA has to offer as well as my recent drive across I-80, I realized why do i not have my camera in my hand more often. why am i letting these moments fly by without freezing time for future visual memories. I dont understand why more people dont just get in their cars n take a senic drive every once in a while. Ever since i turned 17 and got my liscense all i have ever done for joy in life is go on adventures with my camera. It was what helped me keep my sanity. And somewhere within the past year or 2 i lost that and slipped into that hellish coma i am slowly pulling myself out of. FUCK NATIONAL STAY AT HOME WEEK. I say it should be national get in your car n go for a drive week or what about national go for a hike week or even national go for a bike ride week. WAKE UP smell the flowers trust me they smell amazing if you drive down Sunset Blvd towards PCH at night thru beverly hills all the way to the ocean.
Yesterday i drove up PCH to some beach i think its called Leo Cabrillo beach with my camera with an image in my mind. even tho the waves from the ocean ate my image litterly by sweeping everything away that i set up. I still discovered Starfish and an octipuss hideing between the rocks in little pools that the waves had helped create.
You may wonder what do i do with my days now? in the early morning as the sun is comming up i drive around with my camera and go on lil photo missions to keep my sanity, and then by day i either work as an assistant photographer to a friend of mine or i sit in my hallway looking for work online. (yes the hallway i payed my neighbors $10 for their password to the wireless and i ony get their signal in my hallway) And then when the sun begins to set i grab my camera and go out and drive and take more pictures. Im pretty content with my life right now. Some days i wish i had someone to share these adventures with. Someone who also maybe has a creative outlook on life but i cant ask for the world. I would love to do more traveling in the near future but i basically drained myself dry considering i did drive across the country 3 times this summer and gas isnt cheap. but maybe when i get my funds back up i can complete the last 10 states of the USA maybe even before i turn 30. And after i complete that i can begin to travel Europe and other countrys.
On other news MY BIRTHDAY is comming up i will be 27 on OCTOBER 22nd im excited. I am hopeing 27 will be a good year for me.
And i realized that i have some of the worlds most amazing people by my side who will always be there for me and I can truely call FRIENDS.
NOW SOME MORE PICTURES
My new hair cut which i have been loveing
heres a pic from before i cut my hair to give u an idea of how much went bye bye. this pic was from the night my friends gina and joyce too me to Villalounge talk about not my scene but alot of fun
Before my drive across I-80 i had never seen a stripped cow before have u?
this was taken on rt 66 HERE WHAT IS there was nothing there
this pic says it all
And i finally got to spray paint a car at the cadilac rance in amerillo texas with out getting chased by cows n bulls as the sun was comming up
heres some pictures of me and my random road trip buddies this summer
me and my ex room mate Chris i get bored easily in the passenger seat n i think i ate a dozen pen caps tryin not to chain smoke drivein rt 66
me and hello kitty n my silly flower drivein I-80 yes i know takin pics n drivein is not safe
me hello kitty n ice bat leavein nj on i-80
and my best friend in the whole world my trusty lil matrix look she still had hub caps
I recently found some pictures burried in my computer of some conventions from over the summer too
me and SG Calamity at hell city
bob n gunner and some ladies taken in long beach
Hector Fong AKA Fine Line Fong From rock of ages Tattooing a cupcake on my leg in long beach
Paul Acker tattooing my other leg in long beach on the queen mary
me and barb from deepsix
some awsome cars from the car show at the queen mary ink and iron fest
This is beyond gross but had to share this billboard i saw on I-40 in arizona
can i tell u how much fun this girl is and yes that is her tattooed on my leg
halloween is comming up too what should i be?????
Queen of hearts
Sexy slutty nurse
prisioner
ref
NUN
or should i go shoppin 4 something new????
well anyway i am off to start my day and find more work then to wander the world
much love
PICTURES and lots of them
Club Suicide was so much fun saturday as you can see in these pics below of myself and then the sexy as hell tattoo artist "Aaron is" from tampa florida and hopeful ISSUE_ as well as SG Pandie OMG that nite a blast
oh n im not sure if anyone noticed but i cut 6 inches off my hair too.
Then there r the much awaited pics from when i stopped n visited SG Churtch i miss her already that lady is awsome
more churtch n jersey pics to come soon
over the summer of being in nj i took my munchkins on the $8 tour of the old eastern state penn in philly that place is beautiful and creepy at the same time
we also visited the mudder museum in philly but werent allowed to take pics
$th of july i spent in NY up on SG Hunters roof top watching bands n fireworks too bad i didnt get to meet her since there were so many people and it was really dark n im sort of blind as a bat. but sg member Nefaria joined me as well as my friend Bryan who had just moved to NJ from hollyweird i miss bryan i met him back in 2003 in NJ at the holidays in the sun punk fest we have been close ever since
i also got to see my favorite gypsy SG Lily for a breif moment on the 4th too
ps i dont like any of the candidates running for president so i decided this shirt says it all DONT BLAME ME I VOTED FOR HELLO KITTY. no dont doube think me on this one i am writeing in hello kitty on the ballot.
me on the merry go round back in july own at the jersey shore
i am gonna take off for a bit n get some sleep i am beyond tired i feel like i got hit by a bus n my alergies have been horriable all weekend im going to cuddle up with ice bat n my huge hello kitty cause im a nerd n take the worlds longest nap i promise to post more pics from my summer n cross country trip in the next few days for now i hope u enjoyed these
PS GOTTA CATCH THEM ALL just like pokemon hehhehehehehehehehehe much love
Club Suicide was so much fun saturday as you can see in these pics below of myself and then the sexy as hell tattoo artist "Aaron is" from tampa florida and hopeful ISSUE_ as well as SG Pandie OMG that nite a blast
oh n im not sure if anyone noticed but i cut 6 inches off my hair too.
Then there r the much awaited pics from when i stopped n visited SG Churtch i miss her already that lady is awsome
more churtch n jersey pics to come soon
over the summer of being in nj i took my munchkins on the $8 tour of the old eastern state penn in philly that place is beautiful and creepy at the same time
we also visited the mudder museum in philly but werent allowed to take pics
$th of july i spent in NY up on SG Hunters roof top watching bands n fireworks too bad i didnt get to meet her since there were so many people and it was really dark n im sort of blind as a bat. but sg member Nefaria joined me as well as my friend Bryan who had just moved to NJ from hollyweird i miss bryan i met him back in 2003 in NJ at the holidays in the sun punk fest we have been close ever since
i also got to see my favorite gypsy SG Lily for a breif moment on the 4th too
ps i dont like any of the candidates running for president so i decided this shirt says it all DONT BLAME ME I VOTED FOR HELLO KITTY. no dont doube think me on this one i am writeing in hello kitty on the ballot.
me on the merry go round back in july own at the jersey shore
i am gonna take off for a bit n get some sleep i am beyond tired i feel like i got hit by a bus n my alergies have been horriable all weekend im going to cuddle up with ice bat n my huge hello kitty cause im a nerd n take the worlds longest nap i promise to post more pics from my summer n cross country trip in the next few days for now i hope u enjoyed these
PS GOTTA CATCH THEM ALL just like pokemon hehhehehehehehehehehe much love
Sorry i have been MIA i was driveing I-80 west bound from NJ to cali. and was without internet. And man was i EXCITED that MOVIE REEL shot by the super sweet n adorable BROOKLYN. If you havent taken a look yet go do so now.
ALSO I GOT A NEW PROFILE PIC im am extremely happy about this too.
But on another million notes i FINALLY made it back to california and am staying with my friend in North Hollywood and will be assisting and learning more photography techniques from my friend grayson while i am back in LA. I am hunting for a studio apartment of my own still but for now i have a roof over my head. To many peoples surprise i have not drank a drop of booze in about a month now. I suddenly understand why i always see lots of bikers chillin infront of the coffee shops most of them are on the wagon and i guess for right now i can say i am too. but i have started to enjoy drinkin coffee not sure if thats good. and if i do decide to drink again it may only be a glass of wine here n there i cant handel the shots and get a bit of out of control. i can still handel being in bars n being around drunks but i just feel better this way. SOBER!!!!
last nite i was asked how i lost weight and the only things im doing differently is not drinkin and eating healthy n not being so lazy n actually walkin my ass places instead of drivein everywhere.
I got a few e-mails asking where i got the dropkick murphys shirt...... Well i made it and i will probally be making a few more n selling them in the near future once i get a bit more settled in out here.
It feels good to be back in la and it is a bit scary at the same time cause the last time i was here i sort of fell off alittle n lost myself. this time im trying not to do that. tomorrow i am going to start apartment looking and put in some applications for a waitressing job so i keep myself busy and out of trouble n constantly moveing.
Well i am going to go back to looking for a home and a job. just figured it was time for a somewhat proper update since i have been on the road for a while....................................................
But one good thing that happened to me on the road is i finally got to meet CHURTCH she is awsome sexy and super chill. i hope everyone said happy bday to her on last friday. can i tell u how much i love that lady.
N im really sad that i didnt get to say goodbye to LILY before i left. i love that lady dearly she was there for me during a rough time for me over the summer.
And i cant wait to see sweet sweet CASPER next month how i love that lady too.
PS this was one of my fav pics that didnt make it into the set but i feel a need to share it.
more pics comming soon. much love
ALSO I GOT A NEW PROFILE PIC im am extremely happy about this too.
But on another million notes i FINALLY made it back to california and am staying with my friend in North Hollywood and will be assisting and learning more photography techniques from my friend grayson while i am back in LA. I am hunting for a studio apartment of my own still but for now i have a roof over my head. To many peoples surprise i have not drank a drop of booze in about a month now. I suddenly understand why i always see lots of bikers chillin infront of the coffee shops most of them are on the wagon and i guess for right now i can say i am too. but i have started to enjoy drinkin coffee not sure if thats good. and if i do decide to drink again it may only be a glass of wine here n there i cant handel the shots and get a bit of out of control. i can still handel being in bars n being around drunks but i just feel better this way. SOBER!!!!
last nite i was asked how i lost weight and the only things im doing differently is not drinkin and eating healthy n not being so lazy n actually walkin my ass places instead of drivein everywhere.
I got a few e-mails asking where i got the dropkick murphys shirt...... Well i made it and i will probally be making a few more n selling them in the near future once i get a bit more settled in out here.
It feels good to be back in la and it is a bit scary at the same time cause the last time i was here i sort of fell off alittle n lost myself. this time im trying not to do that. tomorrow i am going to start apartment looking and put in some applications for a waitressing job so i keep myself busy and out of trouble n constantly moveing.
Well i am going to go back to looking for a home and a job. just figured it was time for a somewhat proper update since i have been on the road for a while....................................................
But one good thing that happened to me on the road is i finally got to meet CHURTCH she is awsome sexy and super chill. i hope everyone said happy bday to her on last friday. can i tell u how much i love that lady.
N im really sad that i didnt get to say goodbye to LILY before i left. i love that lady dearly she was there for me during a rough time for me over the summer.
And i cant wait to see sweet sweet CASPER next month how i love that lady too.
PS this was one of my fav pics that didnt make it into the set but i feel a need to share it.
more pics comming soon. much love
NEW SET IN MEMBER REVIEW SOOO EXCITED!!!!!!!!! go check it out i am so happy i finally got to shoot w brooklyn., oh n i finally made it to california. much love
awww can i tell u how much nebraska sux to drive thru. it s the state that never ends. i made it to utah im stayin w my girl riley. tomorrow i am headin to reno then oakland where i am going to visit my girl lori for her bday. be sure to check back on friday when my new set goes into member review. well im off to take a nap n eat some dinner n rest up for my 14 hour drive tomorrow oh joy. ps pics may be commin soon till then heres some fun ones i found since my laptop is offically hooked up to internet again.
good nite
good nite
Well Hello from IOWA. yes you got it right im callin I-80 home for the next few days. i made a pit stop to meet CHURTCH and all i can say is i love that lady she is rad. dont forget to say happy bday to her on friday. Also on friday keep your eyes out for my new set that shall be entering member review. well sorry i cant write more but its time to hit the road again. California here i come. n utah reno n oakland are just some of my stops on my way to LA. much love till later
long time no update. but i am here to announce a few surprises. first off have u seen Casper's NEW SET IN MEMBER REVIEW it is too cute i love that lady. next some of u may have heard or read that i am leaveing NJ to drive back to cali well i shall be hitting the road on this sunday morning. im so excited. i am hopeing to make it to oakland by the 12th of sept for my friends birthday i have a bad habit of showing up on her door step for her birthday no matter where her gypsy self may have wandered to. then i have to be in LA by the 15th but the bad thing about that is i am going there for a photo job n my camera decided to die on me last nite while photographing my friend i had to finnish the shoot with my dads camera thank god he left it behind.
but now my broke ass gets to scrounge $$ together not only to drive back to cali but to get a new camera too. im going crazy with out my love.
BUT I GUESS THEY ALWAYS SAY SAVE THE BEST NEWS FOR LAST
I HAVE A LIL SURPRISE FOR EVERYONE ON SEPT 12TH SO I SUGGEST CHECKING BACK. im so excited and have i mentioned that i adore Brooklyn she is adorable sweet and an amazing photographer.
for now i am going to see if i can figure out this crazy thing everyone calls life. and in the mean time enjoy this my friends 14 year old neice showed me this and i thought it was cute
OH PS I HAVENT HAD A DROP OF BOOZE IN A LIL ALMOST 2WEEKS not sure where im going with this but it feels good to be sober
till next time much love
but now my broke ass gets to scrounge $$ together not only to drive back to cali but to get a new camera too. im going crazy with out my love.
BUT I GUESS THEY ALWAYS SAY SAVE THE BEST NEWS FOR LAST
I HAVE A LIL SURPRISE FOR EVERYONE ON SEPT 12TH SO I SUGGEST CHECKING BACK. im so excited and have i mentioned that i adore Brooklyn she is adorable sweet and an amazing photographer.
for now i am going to see if i can figure out this crazy thing everyone calls life. and in the mean time enjoy this my friends 14 year old neice showed me this and i thought it was cute
OH PS I HAVENT HAD A DROP OF BOOZE IN A LIL ALMOST 2WEEKS not sure where im going with this but it feels good to be sober
till next time much love
Im sooo excited. i leave in 3 weeks to drive back to cali n this time i am takeing the northern route. coast to coast again baby. i love that drive it is soo relaxing. so as i was planning my route i realized after this trip it will only leave me without ever seeing 10 states of the 50. my goal is to see all 50 by the day i turn 30. i am only 26 so i think im doing pretty good so far. i am so excited to leave jersey for a bit again. its strange the home i left wasnt the same when i got back here n i realized i had alot more work out in cali n i may have been alone but i was alot happier out there too. this time when i come back to cali my life will be consumed with learning and working. no n's if's or buts. for right now i am going to start packing and getting everything together 2 to 3 weeks n im hitting the road dont know how im gonna do it but im on a mission n no one will stop me
today was an amazing day i spent it w Brooklyn Zeta and Clio in asbury park NJ. a cute lil forgotten shore town that if on the virg of comming back to life. i had a wonderful day all those ladies are soo sweet n amazing, i will write more later for now i am heading to get some food i am starvin. also if you get a chance go check out Tita's new set in the member review it is beyond adorable. i sooo miss that lady. hopefully i can spend a day w her soon.
OCTOBER 2008