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So.. I'm positively giddy as I write this blog because I had such an AMAZING weekend!!


There was a Suicide Girls dinner on Saturday night and I got to tag along and play groupie as I was graced by the presence of not one.. not two.. But FIVE Suicide Girls!! Yes people, read 'em and weep

Tarion, Kohana, Skyla, Arq, Hadess and fellow Hopeful Pyke were in attendance along with some of their significant others as well as our AWESOME staff Photograoher Talamia. How's that for "star studded event"??

Anyway.. Thought I'd share some of my shining moments with you all..
These are the pictures I'll cherish for the rest of my life









Me and Tarion.. See me grinning like an idiot.. But who can blame me
She's so stunning.. Inside and out..



Hadess and I.. She's possibly one of the funniest girls I've ever met in my life..




And that's me with Skyla.. she's so sweet it's heartwarming.. aw..


Anyway, that's all my groupieness.. FOR NOW..

Watch this space

Ladies, thanks so much for such an awesome night..
Sorry if I didn't talk a lot, I'm shy
Can't wait to see you all again!!!

I'm starting to get really anxious for my set to come out.. Even though I have just about a month til it does..

Though I think the longer I'm here, the less of a driving force "going pink" is.
Not that I don't want to, I'm just less fixated on it now.
I'm enjoying the ride.. If it happens, it happens.. If it takes six years, well I'll enjoy every step of the way..

I used to read all these soppy stories about people's experiences here and roll my eyes. But I get it now. I mean REALLY get it. There's just so much love..
It's weird, I don't even know these people.. But I tear up in their pain, laugh in their joy, clench my fists in their frustrarion.More than a community, it's a family.
A family of milti-cultural, multi-lingual, miltiply pierced/tattoed people, but a family nonetheless.

So I'm going to have my SG inspired soppy moment and say thanks to each and every one of you for making everyday an SG-tastic day for me =D
You're all some of the most genuine, inspirational, caring people I know and I look forward to many many more years of naked photo's and overly emotional blogs.
Okay, that's enough for one day..


Lol and I'm compelled to end with a quote from the cutest SG testimony I ever saw before joining the site:

"Suicide Girls: Come for the boobs, stay for the people"

So, I was at College just now and I saw this guy whose face is burnt.
I mean, completely burnt.
And I wanted to feel sorry for him but I couldn't. Because he walked in with a smile, laughing with his friends.

Which got me thinking: When's the last time I looked in the mirror and appreciated the fact that I have two eyes, two ears, arms and legs etc.??
It just seems like we've become so obsessed with having the PERFECT face or arms or legs that we forget that some people don't have them at all.

Isn't it ironic that the people who're without are happier than we are??

They say you learn something new everyday? Today I learned not only to be content, but to be grateful.
Of course, the girls here can also be grateful that together their arms, legs and face look damn good =P

So there you go, appreciate health, forget perfection.

So I'm thinking I should stop abusing my blogging priveledges before the powers that govern revoke my membership.. lol I kid.

Just wanted to clear somthing up.
With my last blog, I think I might've been misunderstood.
Firstly, I DO NOT feel pressured into getting more tats just because other SG's have them.
I've always wanted more but was worried about what other people would say. Now that I've seen how proud everyone else here is to flaunt their uniqueness, I feel more comfortable in being who I am regardless of public opinion.

Secondly, I didn't just close my eyes and poke at the first tat designs I saw. All three of the designs I suggested are tats that have been meaning to get and that I'm going to get anyway, I was just asking which of the three would look better in that area.

Great, glad we got that sorted.

I promise no more blogs for this week

I'm not sure how often I'm supposed to make blogs but, I'm here anyway, so I might as well...

I've always wondered if SuicideGirls were asked or felt pressured into getting more and more ink.. Because when you look through their sets, they all start off relatively mild..
And, to be honest, I've never really been that into tattooes but I think the idea has really grown on me after seeing how so many women here have managed to completely transform themselves into walking artworks..

That being said, i'm having a bit of a dilemma.
I wanna get a tattoo up my side but I can't decide on a design so I'm opening it up for discussion..

Butterflies, Stars of Roses??




Hahaha I suppose now someday someone might look through my sets and ask themselves the same question..

It's taken me hours to decide what to blog about first.. You know, first impressions and all that..

But now I've decided to just talk about how amped I am to be here.

I've spent my entire morning going through the site(instead of studying like I'm supposed to) and looking through other girls' sets.. Talk about a major knock to the ego..

There're some SERIOUSLY stunning girls here..
Hopefuly one day I can go down in the ranks like some of the greats lie Radeo, JaneDoe, Tarion or Milloux..
My ABSOLUTE idols.. I remember Googling their pictireas when I was younger and just thinking "Man, if only"
And now, here I am, in line to achieve possibly the biggest dream any bright-eyed bushy tailed alternative model could hope for..

Man, life really is full of surprises..