Abnormal psychology is the branch of psychology that studies unusual patterns of behavior, emotion and thought, which may or may not be understood as precipitating a mental disorder.


Hello everyone!

I apologise for not being around more often.
Our internet is down.
I have back to back exams.
I had my sisters traditional wedding.
We went on a family holiday.
So clearly, I just haven't had the time, but I really miss you guys

I promise a full update soon, it's going to be epic!!
But just thought I'd let you all know that I'm okay

Love you guys

Hello hello everyone.
I should blog more, I said I'd blog more.

I've been feeling down lately though.

So anyway, Tarion has a new set. YAY!
It's called Follow the white rabbit, I think it's pretty amazing



Also, my set is still in MR too. Over here.



Funny story, I entered the Inked Suicide Girl competition a few weeks ago.
I'm not sure why.
And then when Rambo mailed me to say I'd made it to the second round, I laughed.
And then, this morning, lo and behold..


Maybe less is more?

If anything, I hope I get a bit more exposure.
Can you imagine being a finalist with the likes of Radeo, Amina, Gogo, Katherine, Lass etc?
I'm pretty sure I can put that on my resume.
Noddy bagde for me.


Uhm. Okay so I'm sad these days, it's really starting to irritate me.
My mind is like one of those babies that just keeps crying and won't tell you what's wrong.
It's draining.
I assume it's something I'm doing so I've stopped doing.
Literally.
I don't model, I don't derby, I don't burlesque, I do't charity, heck, I don't even attend classes anymore.
So I'm feeling a bit better.
I'll pick everything up again maybe, once I figure out what's bringing me down.
There's the thing about living your life to please other people. Or your parents.
I'm not a social person, not when forced.
But they say go to church, I go to church. I even take membership.
They say do a sport, I do a sport.
They say take up a hobby, I go for dancing classes.
I'm just not sure what I'm doing for me anymore.
I saw this picture the other day, it cheered me up some.



I've had a toothache the past 2 weeks and I can't eat anything but soup.
I feel like a patient of Dr. Hazzard.(yes, that was her ACTUAL surname. Oh the irony.)

And there's your serial killer fix for this week

Oh guess what you guys?!?!
Rigel Suicide came out of archive!!

*happy dance*


Really loved her last set.

I'm not sure what else to say.
So I guess I'll end it there.
Here's some modelling pics for you guys.









Have a great week everone!
I love you all

Hello hello everybunny

I see the time between my posts is getting longer and longer and I' don't like that so here we go...
I have no plan for this blog so I'm just going to wing it.

This beautiful bout of depression I've suddenly fallen into these past few weeks.. or months.. can't really be sure.
Well, it's not bugging me anymore.
I've managed to strike a balance.

So while yes I do still love serial killers and I do spend 70-75% of my day reading, researching, recording these marvels, I'm also doing other things.

Let's get the gritty bits over with.

Serial Killer inspired horror flicks.

Now you'd really be surprised by how many of the horrors that we all love so much are actually based on real-life monsters from the past.
And I don't mean the obvious movies that are basically just theatrical renditions of their lives, I mean abstract concepts based on facts.

Here are a few...

(Conveniently spoilered for those who aren't into this kinda thing )

OKAY!
Enough about that for now..

Recently I've once again gotten into my old hobby of baking (and by "recently" I mean 3 days ago)

I made....


Rainbow marble cake




Mixed choc-chip cookies

And


Cuppacino cupcakes with coffee cream

I had so much fun making all this and they all tasted really good!
I'm happy to have gotten back into the swing of baking again

If you want recipe's they should hopefully be up in the SG kitchen feature thing soon

Speaking of SG stuff, thank you all so much for all the love you've been showing to my newest baby Suicide Girls For Dummies!



It's always good to know that you guys enjoy viewing my sets just as much as I enjoy making them!

Also speaking of sets, I'd like to introduce you all to my friend Astoria_



She kinda found me on Facebook a while back and we got to chatting and she told me she wants to be an SG and all that jazz and I was MAD for it. I mean, this girl is over the top beautiful.
You know those girls who are so perfect they make you wanna throw up?
Yeah, she's one of them.
I was so amped for her to shoot a set and then for it to go into MR I knew it was just a matter of time before her dream was a reality.
That's shy I can't FOR THE LIFE OF ME understand why she hasn't gone pink!
I mean, just look at her!!



So please show her set some love!
Like, if you only have 5 minutes to live. And you can only comment on one set. And in the life and death pressure you're oscilating between my set and hers. And you're scared cause you know I'll kick your butt if you don't give my set love.
In this situation, you should pick her set.
Because I've already had 2 sets bought and she NEEDS to go pink!!!
Get it? Got it? Good.
I'm glad we could all have this talk

In other news, I've recently started Roller Derby.. Yaay!!
It's so much fun and it hurts real bad but it's worth it!
There's so many gorgeous tatted girls there that I've taken to carrying my SG stickers in my wallet.
I feel like one of those model scouts in the movies
But if it pays off and we can get more SA SG's, how awesome would that be?!?!

Here's a pretty vid of our girls..



Okay.. uhm.. let me think..

Nope, I think that's about it for now.
Will try get back into the rhythm of making regular blogs!!

I love you guys, have an awesome week!

Hello hello everybunny

It's been a while but I'm finally ready to give you that massive update I've been promising. Yay!!

I haven't really been feeling myself these last few weeks, and I'd love to say I'm out of my slump, but I'm not. I'm really just adjusting to it and trying to regain as much of the old me as I can.

With regards to my last blog

Thank you SO much to everyone who commented, you really helped to cheer me up!
And really I feel like much less of a total freak since you were all just as fascinated by child killers as I am.
I've reverted to my old love of serial killers now since there really isn't that many kiddy killers to obsess over.

Some killers are so hot.
Like hubba hubba.
Let me introduce you to my top 3.

Moving right along

The day after I posted my last blog, I received some SG stuff in the mail



This REALLY cheered me up! So thanks Powers That Govern!!

Body Mods

I got 2 new tats!!

Roses on my thigh/waist area



I read somewhere that red roses symbolize pure love, and I was sold.

I also finally got around to getting my septum pierced.

Food

I tried baking last week to cheer myself up, it didn't work.
But I DID make some really great brownies.
They disappeared hella fast, don't even think they made it off the cooling rack.




A while ago, I did a 10 day fast, which wasn't so bad.
I ate only fruits, vegetables, water and bread.
It was kinda fun.

For my last meal, I had McDonalds.



It was soooooooo gooooood
And in the week leading up to the fast, I pigged out on all these goodies my dad bought.

And after my fast ended, I had McD's again


.
They recently released this new product called "Cuppa Cake" and, as their most loyal customer, I had to test it out.


It was Godawful. Yeug.

I like KFC's Brownie Avalanche better.

I know you're all wondering where all these carbs go, and I do wonder the same thing myself.
Given that I eat take-out 5 times a week and haven't set foot in a gym or engaged in any form of exercise (aside from walking between the fridge and the couch at regular intervals during the day) in almost 4 years, I must put it down to good genes.
Lucky me.

Life in general

It's been really cold here lately, given that it's winter.

We've all been bundling up as best we can.
Here's my mum in her fake fur blanky (note: FAKE FUR!!)



We have a really nice fire-place that I never use because the smell gives me a headache





So I keep myself warm by eating lots of warm pudding


Milktart Sponge Puddding. You CANNOT die before eating this. You simply CANNOT!!


I looooves chocolate volcanoes.


Red Velvet waffle what whaaaaat..


Lately, I've been seriously considering the choice of celibacy.

Speaking of modelling...

I've been doing quite a bit these last few weeks, again in an attempt to cheer myself up.

I love doing fine art nudes because it really challenges me.
Last year in September I did a shoot with a photographer called Robert Russel.
It was a really great experience for me and I learnt a lot.

Do you guys remember that music video I did with Autrum?
Well, it finished.



Here's some more behind the scenes pics..

Autrum and I also did this cool Zombie shoot together.
I made this little trailer for it:




Behind the scenes...

And some shoot pics:

I had such a hard time concentrating at this shoot and not laughing cause Autrum kept making funny sounds in my ear and claiming that's what Zombie's sound like.
ROFL I love that girl.

The next week, I did a Catwoman shoot. It was LOADS of fun!

Here's some pics from that:

And then I did a Boudoir shoot which was a lot girlier than I'm used to.
But I really love trying new things

More pics...
(I swear, I'm almost done)

And THEN I did a really cute kinda Disney Princess/ Vampire shoot.
Absolutely LOVED the Make-up for this one!!

Pics...

PHEW!!!

SG stuff

I've been doing some things for the SG Blog that I'm really excited about because I'm very enthusiastic about getting more invlolved in the site.

I submitted one of the cakes I posted in one of my older blogs and it got a kitchen feature.
And I also did an Agony Aunt column. of which I am very proud

AND NOW...

Because you've all been so patient

A few people have told me that my last set Enviable wasn't as good as my debut set Abnormal Behavior.

And I can take criticism, no hard feelings.





It just made me wanna put even more effort into my next set.

That's right, I have a new set!!

The thought process behind this set, you'll see is quite simple.
I talk a lot about what I think this site means and how I believe that people in general have no idea what Suicide Girls is about and it's frustrating to have to put up with just THE most ridiculous "WTF" faceial expression inducing, continous facepalm and smh comments, misconceptions, judgements and prejudices.

It is with this ideology that I, with the amazing camera skilfullness of the fabulous Talamia created:
Suicide Girls For Dummies.










Queued: 29 July 4a.m

I hate smiling, but there's a lot of smiling in this set so you better all be damn grateful!!

I will end this ridiculously long blog with my set intro:


This is for the hours you spent discussing questions that a 5 minute Google search would've answered

This is for the hundreds of arguments that a simple visit to the site could've prevented

This is for all the eye-rolls
Gritted teeth
Clenched fists
Facepalms

This is for every ridiculous myth
Offensive assumption
Judgemental remark

This is for your prudish aunt
Your pervy uncle
Your old-fashioned parents

This is for everyone whose neck you've wanted to ring
Face you wanted to punch
Groin you wanted to kick

This is Suicide Girls... For Dummies.


Have a great week everyone! I love you all!!

Hey everyone

Sorry I've been so awol lately. I've just been in a really bad space mentally and emotionally and I don't have the drive to sit here and write a cheery blog about my life.

So I'm gonna talk about other random things and hopefully at some point get around to writing that long update I've been promising.

Warning: The following blog is not for sensitive viewers O.o

Okay so you guys all know that I'm a psych major and I'm really into psychopathology because I love learning how the mind works.
But, more specifically, it fascinates me how screwed up it can get. In keeping with this, my teenage obsession was always serial killers. Ted Bundy, Charles Manson, Richard Ramirez. I know their stories like the back of my hand. I could write you a 10 page essay on any one of these men on the spot.

I get that some people might find that disturbing but, indulge me.
It's fascinating, I swear.

Thia past 2 weeks I've developed a new obsession.
When I say "obsession" I literally mean that if I'm not watching a documentary, I'm reading an article and if I'm not at home, I'm Google'ing on my phone and reading account after account, interview after interview.
Yes. Obsession.
It's child killers.

Not creepy uncle Bob who kidnaps toddlers from the park.
No. Children. Who kill other children.
What I love most about them is that they actually get out.
I'm not kidding.
Under most laws, they get diminished responsibility so you can't really hit them with a death sentence or life imprisonment.
Actually, in most cases, a child who commits murder before the age of 15 will get out by the time they're 21. They'll be given a new identity. And they'll get to move on with their lives.
And don't think they spend those 8 years doing hard time, oh no.
Most of them leave with their GED and a few university courses under their belts.
They go to "reform school" where they are "rehabilitated" before being "integrated back into society".

Basically, when a child commits murder, they get sent to boarding school (complete with visitation and supervised time out. oh yes, they get to spend weekends OUT).

Now tell me you don't find that fascinating?!?!

And they're seriously twisted kids, no doubt about it.

Without further ado, let me introduce you all to my top 10 favourite killer kids.

1. Mary Flora Bell



At 11-years-old, Mary Bell is the youngest female killer in the UK.

My favourite quotes:

"Brian Howe had no mother, so he won't be missed."

-- Mary Bell

"All that mattered was to lie well."

-- Mary Bell (as an adult)

"'What happens if you choke someone, do they die?"

-- Mary Bell's notebook

"Murder isn't that bad, we all die sometime anyway."

-- Mary Bell to one of her guards

"Martin's mother, June Brown was also bothered by the girls. After hearing a knock, June opened the front door to find Mary standing there. "Mary smiled and asked to see Martin. I said, 'No, pet, Martin is dead.' She turned round and said, 'Oh, I know he's dead. I wanted to see him in his coffin,' and she was still grinning."

2. Brenda Ann Spencer


A convicted American murderer who carried out a shooting spree at Cleveland Elementary School in San Diego, California on January 29, 1979. At the time of the shootings, Brenda Ann Spencer was 16 years old.

My favourite quotes:

"I don’t like Mondays; this livens up the day"

--Brenda Ann Spencer




3. Jasmine Richardson


12 Year Old Jasmine Richardson & Her Boyfriend Murdered Her Parents & 8 Year Old Brother

Her little brother pleaded for his life, "I'm scared. I'm too young to die", before his sister stabbed him in the chest, and her boyfriend cut his throat.

4. Jesse Pomeroy


Jesse Pomeroy (1859-1932), was America's first infamous underage murderer.

When asked why he committed the murders he simply stated "I couldn't help it."

When he was shown the body and asked if he’d done it, he responded with a nonchalant, “I suppose I did.”

5. Jon Venables and Robert Thompson


James Bulger.was senselessly beaten to death by his ten-year-old captors, who callously abandoned him on the railroad tracks.

My favourite quote:

"All little boys are nice until they get older.

--Robert Thompson, age 11

I did kill him, said Jon. What about his mum, will you tell her Im sorry?

6. Alex and Derek King

On November 26, 2001, Terry was savagely murdered by his own two sons, Alex and Derek King.

My favourite quotes:

"Alex suggested that I kill dad. I murdered my dad with an aluminum baseball bat. I set the house on fire from my dad's bedroom."
-- Derek King, 14

"I felt a little sad about it, a little bit sad, a little bit, um. . . a little relieved that we don't have to go through it, what he put us through again. . . the abuse."
-- Alex King, 13

7. Michael Carneal


Fourteen-year-old Michael Carneal opened fire on a group of praying students, killing three and injuring five more.

Okay, I'm actually going to stop there. I'm sure you all get the picture.
It's really emotionally draining to read this stuff so, if you actually read all that, please clear your mind.

Uhm, in all this there's one story I read about Joshua Phillips.

"She Was a Little Girl Who Didn't Deserve to Die"

~Josh Phillips, 6 Years Later

Quick background.

Now, Josh got life without parole.
He's been in for exactly half his life now. If you took some time to look up how he's doing now you'll see how much he's changed.
It breaks my heart that he's still behind bars.
Look I know it's twisted but I mean everyone deserves a second chance.
So just visit his site.
Aaaaaand fingers crossed he gets out soon.
Hahaha I don't know. Maybe I'm just too forgiving. Maybe I love too much.

The way I see it, you're only beyond redemprion when you're dead.

Sorry about the morbid blog. I promise I'll try to do a proper update at some point. I hope.
I love you guys.
Have a great weekend

Helo hello everybunny!!

So it's been a while since my last blog. I've decided that, instead of writing a blog every week, I'm going to wait a bit so I can collect a bunch of interesting stuff to tell you guys. And I do have lots but that can wait for another time.

I meant to write a lighthearted blog about random silly stuff going on around me but instead I'm going to break with tradition and write something personal.

Being a model, we're always told that we need to project a persona. And, in the professional sense, I get that. I generally shy away from talking about myself and my life because I want Jeckyl to be her own person. Completely separate from ME.
I see the practicality of that on public forums and you'll know that if you're on my fanpage or public facebook profile.
But today, against my better judgement, I'm going to change that. Because it's very important to me that I say this.

I'm going to try to explain to you all why I'm here and how I got here.

Yesterday, I had an epiphany.
I was on YouTube looking for songs about SuicideGirls (found some awesome one's but that's a story for another time) and, down the list, a video came up.
A video about all the pornstar's who've died.



See, I'm a very emotional person to stuff like this really hits me hard.
This video linked to another video then another then another and eventually I just found myself spending the entire day watching video's from porn stars and about porn stars chronicling how porn has ruined their lives.





I will tell you what struck me about this.
In one of the video's I watched, Tyra Banks was interviewing Sasha Grey (she was 18 at the time and just starting her porn career) and she also interviewed an ex-porn star.
Basically what this porn star said was that she started off as a topless dancer at a bar then eventually progressed into being a full on stripper then a prostitute then eventually a hardcore porn star.
She said it's a gateway.
Now, two years ago, I was approached by some (really dodgy like you CANNOT believe) porn producer from Europe somewhere. Obviously I said no. But the point is that, at the time, the idea of even posing in underwear, was an ABSOLUTE no for me. I wouldn't do it.
Fast forward and now suddenly my vagina is on Google images. (true story)

So there I sat, stunned into silence , wondering if, in a few years time, I'll be on YouTube explaining how I was exploited and objectified and how my life's in pieces. Or worse, be on that list of dead porn stars.

It was so sad, I was crying and being a drama queen and acting like I was some crack addict selling my body on street corners.

But then it hit me, I don't feel exploited at all. I don't feel objectified.
I feel loved. I feel appreciated.
And, most importantly, I am NOT a porn star.

To be more clear.
I have done a lot of modellling outside this site. Before and during my time here. But, the only reason why I started modelling was because I wanted to be a Suicide Girl. That's it.
I remember the first photo shoot I ever booked was because I wanted to have pretty pictures that I could use to apply.
The plan was to model for a few years then build up to becoming good enough and then, in the grand finale of my career, I would become a Suicide Girl, and then I'd retire.
Becoming an SG was the end goal. I didn't know it would only be the beginning.

Okay I didn't know this was a nude site before I'd applied. Well, I knew, I just thought it was optional. Far from my first reaction to being asked, my response this time was "If that's what it takes to be a Suicide Girl, I'm fine with it."
I don't think this was an omitting of my morals. Morally, I'm rock solid.
I don't judge other people and their choices but for me I set limits. And SG is my limit.


As a psychology major, I do see the flip side of my being here.
Indifferent father, low self-esteem. I started modelling because it makes me feel pretty and wanted and like I matter. Bring on the tissues and weekly therapy.
But I also appreciate that these issues could have gone a completely different way.
Not all porn sites are as nurturing as this one. And I use the term "porn site" very loosely here.
Girls are being treated in ways that make me wanna break down and cry. Just to hear them describe how they're made to feel on set. Wow. It's bad.
And it makes me think of my experience shooting sets and just be SO grateful that I'm here and not somewhere else.

A lot of girls like to point out to me that my Suicide Girls contract stipulates that I can't model for a rival company.
My response?
Why on earth would I WANT to?!
Have you SEEN what's out there?!
I think SG is very generous with the term "competing site", I would've gone for "cheap imitation".
I did visit these so-called "competing sites" before I applied here and it became very apparent to me why SG was the only nude pinup site I'd heard of at the time.
The sites that haven't gone bankrupt since have resorted to including sex toys in their sets in a bid to increase membership.
Competing site my ass.

Without name-dropping (VERY unprofessional) I'll just say this. An article I read really summed it up great for me.
" *** is the place where you go when Suicide Girls rejects your application."

I don't know that I'll be proud of being here in 20 years time.
What I DO know though, is that I will never look back on this experience with regret.
I have no painful stories to tell about my time here. Yes, there have been moments where I've felt objectified and it made me feel so incredibly awful, I can't even begin to explain to you. I don't know what I'd do if I was made to feel like that every single day.
Luckily, those moments were away from this site and were few and far between.

Being here has changed me in so many ways.
A goood example would be something I mentioned in a blog before. About my cutting problem. I used to have a major problem with self-mutilation. I used to cut almost everyday for five years. And I pointed out some fresh scars that made a surprise appearance in my first set. Well, since that time about two days before I shot my first set, til now, ten months later, I haven't cut. Not once.
I'm just so happy. I have a new family here. I have people I can talk to now instead of keeping everything bottled up.
At some point, I'm sure I'll be able to make my own "How SG changed my life" video
And now, in addition for being grateful to SG for things they've helped me do, I can be grateful for the things they've helped me NOT do.

So there.
In 20 years I hope I can come back to read this blog and be reminded that, okay so I'm naked on the internet, but that's not necessarily a bad thing. I'm happy, I'm appreciated, I have confidence and most importantly, I LOVE being here.

And I hope this blog has made you all feel good about being a part of a company that allows us to show our bodies in a sex-positive way. And to take control of our sexuality.
For all I know, I could've been naked on all fours in some dingy basement having a bunch of guys... well, you get the picture. But I'm not, I'm creating art.

That makes me a nude artist. Not a porn star.

Phew..

I'm glad I got that all off my chest. I promise my next blog will be as vague and lighthearted as always

I love you guys. Have a great weekend everyone

Hi hi hello everyone!!

First things first, have you seen our new South African hopeful?!?!
Arroia's first set Overture has just come into member review. Do yourselves a favour and check it out! It's super hot!!



I've had a strange vibe with SG these last two weeks. I log onto the site everyday then just sit here and don't know what to do. It's so weird

Buuuut happy to be back now in all my superfan glory

Grab your tissues folks, it appears we've lost a legend.
I can't even BEGIN to tell you how sad I am that Manko isn't shooting any more sets (til the 2030's at least)
Whyyyyyeeeeeeeeee
+sniff+
You know what though? I'm happy I at least lived long enough to see not one, but TWO of her sets go FP.
I was really sad to see some of my SG Idols archived when I joined the site (JaneDoe, Rigel, Dot) but at least Manko is still sticking around

Long live the Queen!!




Okay now for the moment you've all been waiting for... FOOD!!

I only did a little bit of baking last week because I ran out of flour and my mum keeps forgetting to buy more everytime she goes to the shops

Anyway, I made..


Banana muffins




Custard and coconut cake
(I know this sounds like a really weird combination and I had my doubts when I first thought of it but it actually tastes REALLY good. You guys know I'd never lie to you about food!)

and


Passionfruit custard cookies
(again, sounds strange, tastes great)

I'm thinking I should totally write a cookbook with all these recipe's I make up

Also last week monday the Awesome Autrum and I got to be part of a music video!! How great is that?!?!

It's for a local metal band called Boargazm (yes, it's as weird as it sounds). We had to carry pigheads and stuff.
But hey, I'm all for new experiences


Excuse the bad quality, it was freezing cold and I think my hand was shaking

Autrum is so rad! We spent the whole hours drive to the location talking about Suicide Girls, the other people in the car wanted to rip their hair out

Here's some behind the scenes..









Also, have you guys seen other music video's featuring SG's?

In 2004 (by far the hottest) 66 Sg's appeared in the Probot Music video for "Shake your blood"



In 2005, some of the SGUK girls appeared in Brand Violet's video for "Sororicide"



A bunch of Sg's appeared in Louis XIV's video for "Paper Doll"
I couldn;t find it on the site or YouTube but I did manage to hunt down this link.

And, more recently, I see Katherine was in a music video for Mister St's song "Through the lies"



I'm sorry I couldn't get more guys! Just hunting down these was SUCH a mission. But, if you guys know of any more, feel free to share. I'd love to see them!

Uhm uhm uhm.. OH!


Last week Saturday a bunch of my firends and I drove around the area handing out soup and blankets to homeless people.
It was a really amazing experience for me and I'm so excited that I get to spend the rest of my life doing stuff like this. It's incredibly humbling and also such a blessing to be able to change someone's life or revivie a spark of hope for someone who's on the brink of giving up.







Okay! Now for a photo dump of things that made me happy this past week

Okay, I think that's it for now.
Have a fab week everyone!

I love you all

Hello hello everybunny!!

SO happy to be back! I've been taking advantage of my new found freedom to have myself a Star Wars marathon

Kicking it seriously old school..



Did you guys know that Star Wars recently celebrated its 35th Anniversary?!?!



That's almost twice my age

Still, I'll admit. I'm a Star Wars geek. Totally obsessed.

Anyway...

The saddest part about wrtining exams is that I didn't have any time to bake

The last thing I made was a batch of vanilla fudge muffins 3 weeks ago



I plan on doing a lot of baking to make up for it though!!

Did yall check out my new (well, new-ish) video?!
I was trying to be sexy, so please don't laugh..

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I was inspired by the likes of:

Kemper (I LOVE this one!! )

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Amaerena (so sultry..)

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And Riae.. I just discovered her a few weeks ago.
So damn beautiful.

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Speaking of video's, have you guys checked out the SG YouTube channel??
It's SO awesome! I spent most my study breaks watching vids

These are some of my favourites..

I really love this site.
You know people make a big deal out of going pink. And it is a big deal, it really is.
But that feeling, it doesn't go away. And, every time you log on, it hits you again.
Just an indescribable feeling of accomplishment and pride and awe and gratitude and so many other emotions..
Sniff. Okay, I'll stop now.

Anyway, I remember I mentioned that my goal this year is massive exposure. SG isn't getting NEARLY enough recognition in South Africa as it should be. Or globally actually.
If Forbes made a list of the most influential and life -changing websites in the world, I'd want SG to be number one.
And world domination is the way to make that happen (as Bob so delightfully pointed out)


OH! I forgot to mention my new tattoo!!

I got it 2 weeks ago, I love it so much..

It says "Every Sinner has a future. Every Saint has a past".



On Sunday, we went our for lunck at a place called MonteCasino.
They have such pretty buildings and statues and stuff

I am such a huge fan of vintage type buildings and it's such a pity that Joburg is so modern

Mini picture dump..

It was awesome. My dad took us out for dinner twice last week because he said I've been studying too hard. Aw.

Also last week, I got the rest of my pictures from that shoot I did a while back without my piercings.
I think I look weird without them but the pics aren't so bad lol











I have THE most amazing shoots lined up over the next month! I'm so excited!

Aaand I have other things coming up that I'll tell you all about some other time

For now, I have some Star Wars waiting for me

Thanks to everyone who actually made it to the end of this blog hahaha

I love you all, have a great week!

Hello everyone!!

Hope you've all been missing me
Real update to come in a few days but I just thought it's my civic duty as a superfan to let you alll know that the Godess known to us mortals as Tarion has a new set coming into MR tomorrow!!



I personally will be taking a break from my studies to view this wonderous artwork and hope you'll all take some time to do the same.





Yes I bet you're all salivating already..

Anyway, that is all!!

Hello hello everybunny!!

Sorry I haven't been online much, I'm busy with exams.
And, sadly, this will be my last blog of the month+insert collective "aaaaw"+

You know eventually I always knew I'd find my own style of blogging and fall into a kind of signature pattern.
I wondered what this would be.. Would I be a documentary blogger.. a judgemental blogger.. An annoying blogger who whines about her life.. But alas no, it seems I now have my answer..
I... am... a... FOOD BLOGGER!!

It's true, I can't resist plying you all with loads and loads of information about culinary delights, I'm just really mad about food!! So without further adieu..

The past week in food..

Last weekend my parents were out of town and, instead of partying up a storm as most girls my age would, i stayed in and ate junk and watched movies til wee hours of the morning.
It was FANTASTIC. Especially seeing as how my parents are so erratic about healthy eating.
As a great gesture of rebellion, this is what I had for dinner on Friday night..



Chocolate covered marshmallows and strawberry's, completely underrated as far as simple delights go.

But then i woke up super hungry and made my signature baked omlette for breakfast..


This is something Italian but I can't remember the name for it right now.
Needless to say, it's REALLY good and I highly recommend you not die without having eaten it.
There will be a black hole in your existence.

And I also made pasta.. which I just reheated again repeatedly cause i was too lazy to cook. Cooking really isn't my strong point


The past week flew by in such a blur. I had a monumental Gossip Girl marathon

(all five seasons, it was brainwashing. I've been having GG dreams ALL WEEK:eek in and among studying for my exams that I'm really dreading.
I'm such an over-achiever and I normally stress myself out to the limit.

Looooook at this super cute teddy my dad got at work




For mother's day yesterday, we went with my gram's to Sandton Square for dinner.
There's this really huge statue of Nelson Mandela in the middle of the square, it's pretty awesome.



I had this really nice pasta with prawns in it. I LOVE prawns..



Also, i baked like THE greatest choc-chip cappuccino muffins in the history of forever!!




I also got to spend some time on SG Chat and met the amazing Countessa..
Who has a great new set in MR that you should all check out



She'a areal sweetheart..

Anyway!!
That's it for now guys..
I will see you all next month



I love you!!