I'm still waiting to hear something back about my taxes. This is honestly stressing me out. I can't plan my vacation without knowing if I'll have my taxes back in time. Booking a flight and hotel is just going to get more and more expensive. I may end up having to cancel everything and just do something here at home. I really want a Disney day. Sigh.

In better news, I updated POC. I'm still trying to figure out the little details of what/how I want the blog to look. One thing I'd like to do is have a section where I can link to other amazing blogs. This is where you can help me, what are your favorite food or craft related blogs?

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Yesterday was an interesting day. I went into work early to help with Model Store set-up and ended up slamming my head into a metal wall arm. After several hours I was still really woozy and lightheaded so I went home early. Of course everyone warned me not to fall asleep and had me terrified that I could have a concussion. Needless to say, I think I'm fine.

My taxes have been delayed because of some school forms. This is disappointing. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that I get my money before my vacation kicks in at work. If the money doesn't come through I'll be spending a week at home. If it does, I will be seeing some of my dearest friends and maybe going to Disneyland! I'm really trying to not get my hopes up but I've had to somewhat plan things to ensure I'll actually be able to spend time with those I care for.

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My grand plan on living again isn't going as I had hoped. I really need to learn to keep things to myself. All the encouragement is making it feel forced and I no longer hold any interest in it. I'm tired of spending all my spare time alone but if there's one thing I've learned over the last eighteen or so months... people cannot be trusted. They are not your friends.

There should be a new blog going up on POC today. Mostly likely not til later tonight since I have some work related stuff to work on first.

One last thing...

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I should be making a new POC blog but my pictures turned out terrible. This is more difficult than I thought it would be. However I am not giving up. My next day off I will be baking and POC will get a new entry.

There's a lot going on right now. Not just with me but with those I hold dearest. I wish I lived closer to those I truly care for. It makes me feel terrible that I can't physically be there.

In the last few days I've come to a decision. I think I'm ready to live again. Yes, you read that right... live again. Since my incident, a year and a half ago, I haven't been myself. I've been a shell of who I once was. I'm ready to find myself again. I know I will never be the same but I'm hoping this will all prove to have made me grow and become better than I once was. For better or for worse, right?

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I had a fairly decent blog all typed up and then I realized it was nothing but me complaining about every little detail of my current situation. I deleted it.

I'm going to my grandmother's house today to help her clean her stove. Maybe I'll bake something while I'm over there and take the needed pictures to make an entry over at POC. Also the puppies get to run around outside all day! This makes me happy. My next place needs to have some sort of yard.

I wish I had more to say but without complaining a lot there isn't anything to say.

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I finally got my introduction well kind of a semi-introduction post up at POC!

It's not how I thought it would be and the layout isn't all fancy but I'm excited to have finally gotten a start over there. I cannot wait to give it the life I have pictured in my head.

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Things are not going as planned. I had finally made an appointment to get my eyes checked and get new glasses... but that isn't happening. I had to cancel due to a lack of funds. This hurts my heart. I now get to continue in enjoying the lovely headaches my old glasses have been giving me for the last month. I swear, I feel like I'll never catch a break/get caught up. Along with that my only phone will most likely be cut off soon since I've decided groceries are more important. Can tax returns please be here all ready. I realize it won't fix my money issues but it will make a cute little dent in what I'm behind. I'm praying this new job goes well for my mama and she starts paying her half/taking care of herself. I can't do it all anymore. I don't have the money and it's killing me inside on so many levels.

I'm sorry this blog is such a downer. I promise I won't blog again until I have some good news or at the very least some cute pictures.

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Blogging didn't use to be so difficult. It almost feels like a chore now. A chore I don't get an allowance for completing. However this is my own personal promise to myself, I will start blogging again.

I've been excited and rather annoyed to try and get POC up and running. After spending the last week or so deciding on how I'm actually going to roll things out... a plan has been made. The first step is one I'm not very good at so I need to find someone to do it for me. Since POC is going to be a simple blog right now I need a simple layout that will work with Blogger. Anyone here good at making those?

Money issues are still an issue but I'm figuring things out. Mom got a new job, so hopefully things will be 50/50 soon. My grandmother adopted the pup we were fostering. I'm really glad I'll still be able to see the little bugger.

I finally got around to semi cleaning my apartment. I was waiting for a friend's visit to start on my closet but things happened and plans change. Said friend won't be visiting anytime soon so I have no excuse to not get my closet and everything else done on my next day off... after errands are ran. Those errands include grocery shopping and getting my eyes checked. This means new glasses and maybe contacts!!! By Thursday morning I should have a clean apartment full of delicious food.

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Happy New Year!?!

I'm beyond stressed when it comes to money issues. This seems like a never-ending circle for me. Every single time I think I might finally be caught up... I'm not. To add to my money issues, my mama agreed to foster a tiny pup so she wouldn't be put down. Now I have my mama, three dogs, and myself to care for. Sigh. Don't misunderstand me, I'm excited for this new temporary edition to the family... it's just an added expensive I wasn't expecting. I really need to get her added onto the pet insurance/wellness plan so that we can make sure she is healthy. Once I know she's healthy and able to be rehomed, I can start looking for a family.

I've been semi sick since Christmas and spent every day at work. It's been joyous to be uncomfortable and stuffy around annoying customers trapped inside with extremely loud music. However, I lived and now I get to enjoy two days off. I have a lot of cleaning and such to do around the house as well as a few errands to run but I'm sorely tempted to just lay in bed for the next 48 hours or so.

Outside of the aforementioned sickness, there are several things going on with my body that have me a bit scared and panicked. My insurance from work should hopefully kick in the first part of March. If this does indeed happen I will be spending some quality time with doctors a plenty.

As some of you know I was given the gift of a domain name by a friend some time ago. I finally got around to linking my blog to the name and now I simply need to start pouring myself into it and creating entries and pictures and some sort of adorable layout. It's been ages since I've looked into anything like this so it may look extra cheap for a long while. Right now I believe there are 3 or 4 entries from over the past couple of years. Entries that survived my deleting fits.

I know I keep promising or implying that I will include pictures in my blog next time... seems next time never quite gets here. The thing is I'm on the wrong computer for all that however I do have a little something for you.

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I had a decent blog typed up and then I accidently hit the tiny little x on my Chrome tab. Sigh.

There was talk of stress, never-ending circles, days off, pictures and stories coming soon, POC, insurance and doctor's appointments. There was talk and it may have been witty.



P.S. ...it's that time of year again. #deleteasaurus

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