Ok so i just watched the most disturbing half hour of TV I've seen in a long time. It was a show on MTV called "I want a famous face", it was about this girl who wanted to look just like Pamela Anderson. She got a boob job, lip implants and a chin tuck all at the age of 19. She did all this with hopes of becoming a playmate....what the hell are we doing to ourselves? Thiis girl (who I have seen many times in other girls) is doing this for the attention from men she wants and the attention of some stupid standard of a girl that doesnt exist. It made me really upset. And i thought, am i being a hypocrit by being on this site and making another standard? But then i realized that that was a reason I like SG because there are bigger girls and there are girls that arent the average idea of beautful. SO yay for SG for that.
but the thing that really got me about this girl on TV was the shots of her going around looking for attention, showing strangers her new boob job, and pictures of her in playboy saying she was upset with the way they came out, like, "aw i think i look fat and ugly...what do you think honey?? " what the hell is that? this girl has been conditioned all her life to look for approval from men and that kills me! GIRLS- lokk for approval only from yourself, love yourself and others will respond to that. Be who you are and dont look to some template for looks or behavior, BE YOURSELF. There is nothing more sexy than a confident original. And the most important thing is to stick together and support each other and remind ourselves that we are beatiful.

ok, I got that off my chest. Please love yourself.

ah the weekend. Im goin to a dope ass Vegan B-B-Q. my friend is making vegan sushi, I can't wait.
Good news, My sleeve is going to get finished the week after next! Im so excited, its been a year in the making. Nick and I decided we wanted to get it done before all the tattoo conventions we will be working this summer- so look for me in the mags, im sure ill be in one of em....but thats not for a while, im just excited about getting it finished!! I guess now its time to tell my parents about it?

Weekend are great, cause i have time to raise hell on boards!! I may not ge tto this weekend though, but never fear, im sure ill find a few moments.

James

Well today was spent working and getting shit ready for the student art show at my school, I'm showing a few things, some photographs, and a poster design, and some package design stuff. It all looks pretty good.
My arm is stil peely and healing, but it looks like its healing well.
Wow I am sooooo interesitng, I really dont have much to say today.
But just to spice things up a bit (im totally riipping this off but)
let me know what your first CD or tape was that you bought yourself. -i saw this on the SG's group and thought it might be fun to do it on my journal so let me know how cheesy you were!

james

ok, the pictures are there, i understand how it works but next time I need to make them bigger, oh well.

Here we go....
ok, just goto my pics folder, I dont know what the hell is going on.
Love James

yes i know they are small..sorry!

ok ok, I took some mediocre pics of my sleeve to show you guys. Its so pretty these pictures may not do it justice, its almost done, just my forearm left to do. It should be done in the next few months, YAY! Oh yes, and this sleeve is done by the biggeest cutie in the world, Nick Baxter. (I heart you Nicky!)

Love James......ok well i tried to upload my pics and it just isnt working, can anyone let me knwo what it means when i try and put pictures into my pics folder and it says it can ...aaa...what the hell did it say....it cant sort my profile or some shit. I read te faq's but am still getting errors, i want to put them up so bad!!!!

I had an interesting experience last night... I was talking to someone who I would only really say I was aquainted with and mentioned that i was about to be a new SG. Not for anything but a topic of conversation. The dude blew up on me and spouted out all this nonsense and told me that I was basically using my tits because I wasn't intellegent enough to get my opinion out elsewhere. And also mentioned that 'if I thought he was going to cream himself because i sent him a link think again".....I didn't do this for the nudie pics dude, and if you think i live for other peoples arousal then you have another thing coming. As I I blocked his conversation as not to be part of a bashing session on myself he continued to tell me that I had no skills in backing up my claims (when in fact i was backing them up only to be utterly ignored and insulted personaly) So I think I just might write an article (for the newswire) about this stuff defending not only Suicide Girls but all females (and males) who enjoy this sort of thing and keep it real, respectful, and intellegent.

Screw all You assholes who just get a rise out of insulting people with ideas you have been socially conditioned to think since you were born, challenge the views of conventional beauty and do what YOU want!

Thank You!

The best thing would be if he comes back to this and checks it out like a hypocrite. Hey Buddy!!

Well Well Well, Thanks for everyone making me feel so welcome, and people (well some of e'm) being respectful in the message boards. I thought I'd raise a little hell right as I stepped in.

Last night I got my sleeve worked on. All on the elbow, FUCKING A, that shit hurts so bad, I really didnt know they made pain that bad. But all is well and now my elbow is the size of a boat buey. Regaurdless, the work is gorgeous (Love you Nicky! ) and I can't wait for it to be finished. Soon, you'll all be able to see it, yay!



Oh and if you're board today at your family gathering, check out these websites, I heart them....

www.crimethinc.com
www.nickbaxter.com
www.noregretsphoto.com

damn, I spent the entire morning going through the site, theres so much. As for the rest of the day I'm getting my sleever worked on, YAY! so hopefully it'll be done by mid summer. Soon you all will be able to see it, its so gorgeous, it makes me intensely happy.

Yay, so things are off the ground, thanks ladys for your comments, im super pumped to start acting as part of the community. I just checked out the boards for the first time, went into the current events board, I was so surprised that there were a tons of pretty conservative thinkers, i had to stop myself from going off right away. . But I cant wait for the set to be live, and Im already having ideas for new sets so be expecting more. Oh and if anyone has questions about my lisitngs for music and artists a lot of those bands and names are my frineds, I put them up there so people would ask questions so if youre interested i can tell you more.
Love James.

Hi.
Don't know when you all will be able to read this, but here I am. Check out my profile to find out a bit about me. And don't be afraid to email: suicidejames@hotmail.com
I'll write more when I know people can actually read this. suicidejames@hotmail.com