Oh MY god! It's been FOREVER since I've made a blog. That is because some of my early blogs got me into some trouble : / Which once again, publicly, I would like to express my deepest condolences to those people that I offended on here. That was never my intentions. Whatsoever. I never intended to hurt anyone's feelings. I never wanted to be "banned" (I feel like) from SG and the SG community. So once again, to the Ohio SG's I offended, that was never what I intended to do : / I hope that maybe we can move past it and I once again will be apart of the group.

I loved SG for the short time I was involved. Absolutely LOVED it! I wish I was in a good enough figure to once again take pictures. But since I've had my son, I've not been able to do it. I think it would be kind of embarrassing compared to my first and only SG set. : / LOL!

On that note: I need to start exercising....(but I smoke tooo much weeeed) I have no motivation! and I need TONS!

Anyways. Have a great day SG! Love and miss ya'll

Izmerelda

Had the baby boy, Layne Braxton Melton, Nov 21st, 5.7 lbs, 18 3/4. Was induced, that was awful. They had me wasted. And with tattoos, the epidural wasnt shit. Pretty easy labor tho considering. Did real good the doc said, no rips or tears! lol. Not that anyone cares. But oh my are my tits leaking milk all over the place. Never thought I'd have to wear pads on my breast! Turned 21 on the 2nd. And considering I had the baby, it wasn't the best 21st. Ill have to celebrate it next year when the boy is a year old. Don't drink and here in ohio, you can get into bars at 18. Just can't drink, so it's really no big thing to go out to a bar. And considering I worked at one, it's not the highlight. I want to go gambling tho. The only other thing I want to do is rent a car and I still can't do that till Im 25. My mom is coming in from Philly next monday, and def. not looking forward to that. She'll be here for a whole week too. I hope she takes over baby duty and cleaning and cooking for the house. Havn't had much time to get around to it, nor have I had enough sleep around here. The demands of a newborn are serious! lol. Sleep is not really a word a around here anymore. But they all say it's supposed to get better. I sure do hope so. lol. But pregnancy didn't do a toll on my body, which is awesome and would be great if I had a photographer to take my pictures. lol. I have two lil bitty stretch marks where my belly button rings were, but that's it. I gained 36 lbs with the pregnancy but already lost 18 with delivery. Pretty damn good if you ask me. I look a lil thicker, but not bad at all! Heres some pics of the newborn! Hope all is well with the SG community. If someone wants to take my photos here shortly and is in the Ohio area let me know!

I know that no one really reads my blogs, so I'm just writing because Im bored. Life has been so hectic lately. It's summer and I have not had a vacation. I feel like Ive got cabin fever. I wish I would have taken some classes this summer so I wouldnt be so f-in bored. But ya know. I had puppies this summer, 9 of them lil bastards. I only have one left, and shes a pain in my ass!
So, I would have loved to be able to turn in more sets to SG, but apparently Im a gay basher and therefore been banned from the all girls group! Which sucks because this experience was a lot of fun. I would turn in other sets, but no ones work is as good as Alissa Bs. Shes phenon....and she produced amazing photos of me. BUT........now, Im 5 months pregnant and expecting a baby boy. Which is scary as hell! So I think my photo taking career is over. I mean it's been over since November, because of some stupid comments that were taken out of proportion. Which I apologized for, but I'm still the SG black sheep. And thats okay with me. I think i have much more to worry about now. But I do want to thank Alissa B and Radeo for the awesome time and photos that came out of it all. But now Im going to end up fat and stretch-marky and I don't think photos are going to be a wise idea. I do hope that my figure will go back to somewhat normal because my ass needs to go back to the titty bar after all this to make the money I need to support the little one. It's going to be hard but it will be worth it, at least thats what they all say. Then trying to pile school on top of it all. But Im a strong person, and I, just like many of other women, can do it and it will all be okay. It's just the hormones....I just have to keep reminding myself of that. Pregnancy sucks. It's supposed to be something beautiful, but It's rotten! You don't ever feel good, and a bazillion things are always running thru your mind which are causes for a breakdown.
Well, I think Ive blabbed enough about nonsense. I don't know If ill be on here to update, but peace love n chicken grease!

Sorry bout the wonderful blog last time, not such a great one to have up whn my first set debuts, right. Well ya know, 20 years old, life changing shit man.
Anyways, as you all know, I've got a case of the blues, but everyones comments have made me smile and Im so thankful for everyone who left a comment or sent me a message. As It is hard to get back to everyone with the mass comments, I think i managed....and you all have helped me not feel so bad! It's great. It couldnt have been a better time for my set to go up.
I'm real happy it did. yay!

But anywho, School started yesterday, so Im super busy again. Damn dogs in heat, oh my. Just move move move move move! Always!
And for all the pretty lovelies out there, I borrowed the sweater dress! LMFAO! So sorry no, I don't know where It was bought ect.

Anyone good at chemistry? Not the best subject for me....Let me know!
Thanks for all the wonderful comments, Its been SWeeT!
Muah
xoxo

Life sucks
we live and die
fuck the world
lets all get high.


blahhhhhhhhh
happy f**k'in new years to me.

Sorry....pout session.

Set up....Thank you all!
muah
xoxo :

New Set up in MR! Thank you all who have already left comments you all have been very nice and welcoming! Continue to make new hopefuls SGs! And Love the sets! Thanks you!
xoxo

First set goes up tomorrow in MR! I hope you all love it love it love it!

My Birthday is on Tuesday! Happy Birthday to me! Ill be 20, im officially not a teenager anymore! Whoopie!

"I have been reading the threads in this group for quite some time. I have come to view our little group as a haven, like a little coffee shop with big comfy chairs. A place that only we know about. A small gathering of women.

Strong, quiet, beautiful, outspoken, troubled, flawed.

Saints, sluts, soccer moms, dykes, tomboys, and vamps.

We came here. To hold hands across great distances and share in a common truth. That we are here for each other. Through difficult relationships, impossible decisions, and outcries of injustice, we come together to say a great big "Fuck You" to anyone who would stand in our way.

We are sisters.

I have seen us hurt each other, and stage petty fights. This hurts me to the core. We cannot stand against the tides while we tear each other to shreds.

Merely because we were taught to hate each other from the cradle.

Maybe I wrote this to make you smile. Perhaps I did it to slap you in the face. But the one thing I want you to do is look around this world we have created. And tell each woman in this room that you will treat her like the Goddess she was molded from.

I ask you to always remember that each woman here has a story. And it aint yours. You've never been there, you can't. Whatever shaped her opinions and views did so for a reason. She did not pull it out of her ass. That ideal that she holds so dear? The one you say is bullshit? She thought long and hard about it. Give her the curtesy of respecting her view.

I also ask you to stand up for your sisters. When the boyfriends and partners leave us, these ladies are the ones who stay. When you get fired for being a girl, and you plant your high heel directly in a pile of dogshit, these faces will be the ones to clean you off and storm your boss's office. How about you return the favor?

Keep your damn mouth shut. There are people here who tell you shit they would never tell another soul. They do this because we have told them that this was a safe place to do it. And, believe it or not, most women don't have that little luxury. So respect your fellow gals (and yourself) by not telling anyone outside this group what goes on here. We women are on our fucking own. Develop some pack mentality or be dragged under by our wrath.

I ask you to sign this below. by doing this, you are looking every woman here in the eye and saying, "I will not hurt you. You're my kin."

If you decide not to sign this; if a single word of this long ass statement doesn't ring true in your heart, get the fuck out. There is no room here for enemies. We have enough of those when we walk away from the computer screen.


Stand together, ladies, least we fall."

This was wrote by Rowan who is no longer active on the site. I just wanted ya'll to read this.
xoxo

So, I havn't been on here, I've been busting my ass for school. But winter break is coming up, my last class is Tuesday, Thank God! So I should be on here a little bit more. Apparently I pissed people off the last time I wrote a blog, so I haven't done that either. But hell, WTF, I'd give it a try again. My set goes live soon and I'm excited about it, but apparently no one is going to vote for it. Poop on that. But I'm still excited anyways, and shouldn't be worried about that, the majority will vote! I'm just super excited about it. It's an exciting thing. I've been looking to meet (network) with people out of the West Coast. I figured I could get to know some people out there associated with SG that I could meet up with whenever I get my happy ass out there. I don't want to be in this shit hole of a town forever. Gotta do something, be somebody, and I've been trying my damnedest, so hopefully my set will get accepted and get me somewhere! That would be awesome! So Anyways, gotta go I guess. Ttyl!
xoxox
Izmerelda