i officially hate aim.


and the internet.

both keep booting me and acting like bitches.

happy post!!!!!!




my day got better.... things are resolved with a friend of mine.
**edit**
nope they got stupid instead. gotta love gluttons for punishment. but i'm not going to let it bother me because i'm not the one being shady.

and i'm listening to my fave albums of.. well.. the week anyway:

The Strokes - Room on Fire
The Strokes - First Impressions of Earth
Placebo - Meds
The Bravery - The Sun and The Moon
The Fold - Secrets Keep You Sick
Taking Back Sunday - Where You Want To Be
Kings of Leon - Aha Shake Heartbeat
Kings of Leon - Because of the Times
Garbage - self titled
Garbage - Version 2.0
Regina Spektor - Begin To Hope
Wax On Radio - Exposition


some are older than others. all much loved. <333



nothing gets me in a better mood than music. in general. i'm still pissy about a few things, but overall, i'm well. just really fucking awesome.

best part is... my set's in the process of being photoshopped. what more could a girl ask for? even if i don't officially go pink, i've gotten this far... it can only get better from here.

disappointment abounds. i really try to steer clear of drama, but it always has a way of catching up with you.


someone i considered a close friend, and someone i liked alot, not only betrayed our friendship, but my trust. i admit, that assuming things on my part wasn't right, nor fair. but i also think that i have a right to be concerned about the things that i am.

(i'm trying to think of this logically, from both sides)

i've done nothing to directly insult, harass or be rude to this person. yet they felt the need to make it clear how they felt about me... by way of involving everyone and anyone and talking shit that wasn't true to begin with.

i feel hurt and betrayed and a little violated. and like i've lost something. i seriously respected the hell out of them. and now i'm not sure where all that stands.

p.s. i love the new Bravery album. love love love. lissssten

i'm currently most in love with track 10: "split me wide open"
enjoy. <333 it's making my day a little better. <3333

JeremyWilliam & Clementine: get your butts back here. <3 chicago loves you. that goes for Carina too.

annoyed. you know, i really don't trust people anymore. in all honesty.


those who say they're into me especially. partially because they're so into everyone else with a cunt.

i'm just annoyed. and i'm comfortable with that.

here's one girl who won't give you easy access.

(p.s. no more "you'll find out most guys are dicks" comments or msgs please.... nukka i've known that since i was 12..... in fact, i know most PEOPLE are dicks, regardless of sex. there's just a select few i thought i trusted....)

i think it's about time for a new post.




really, i've been doing a whole lot of working and a whole lot of staying up and weird random hours of the night. totally in love with this kid named kyle. he's awesome to the max. if/when i finally go pink, him and his friend randy are hooking me up with the guy they get inked by. i'll go down to panama city beach to get my SG tattoo. that: will be awesome. i've got friends and family there already and i'm overdue for a vacation.

i'm not homeless anymore... everything worked out thanx to anacron.

however, my phone has decided to not work. tmobile is insisting that i leave it with them and take a loAner. (thank you anacron.... but geez, can't a girl just be tired and spell bad??) why is the loner phone always the one that's scratched, scraped, ghetto and 8 years old? fuck. i might rather take my chances that my phone *might* work again than take that dumb thing. it barely works itself. maybe i'll just bite the bullet and buy a new phone.

almost time for my new friend Max_Gnar to come visit. his flight gets in on june 3rd and he's staying for a week. i'm way excited. shit. i gotta clean my room. we'll talk about future set ideas, which my friend kevin and the very kind fight_evil will be helping us with. aaannnddd we gotta party it up with Salome and Dorsal, because both girls are just adorable and sweet hearts. <333

my roots are growing in. and i'm in dire need of a hair cut. and dye. think i'll bleach it and dye it the same color as Cookie's. i LOVE that color. so. hair cut this week (it getting WAY too long) and then i'm dyeing it up. heeeeyyy

and i'm talking to Campbell on AIM. (WE REALLY WANT HER NEW SET UP ALREADY!!!! i needs me some new Campbell, thank you.) Chicago, and i, miss her.

so i'm dying. of a really bad cold. there's shit going around at work and of course i get it.

my head feels like it's about three feet wide, my sinuses are completely plugged and wrecked. i can't see well out of my left eye (that's the side where my sinuses are the worst) and it feels like it's a good 5 inches out from my head or something cuz of the pressure. i have a migraine to beat all migraines. and on top of it i'm blowing my nose and coughing constantly.

i found some left over darvs from a previous injury i'm assuming. i'm taking those on top of my cold and sinus meds and hopefully it'll knock me out for a few hours.

special props to Salome, Arielle, Razzle Dazzle, kittyvalentine and writeboy for being lovely, amazing people. i love you guys. <3 for reals. BrightRedScream you know i loves you too. if i forgot anyone, it's cuz i'm high on drugs.

and now if someone could kindly call me a hearse. i'm pretty sure i'm dying.....

also, there's two freakishly big flies swooping at my head and trying to take me out. i hate flies. gross.