Well. things may be looking up. i have a few places i think i'll be able to stay around here, and if worse comes to worse.... dozing at IHOP or Denny's. lol. but really, i think things will be alright. i'm feeling so less stressed than i have the past few days. and i'm going to bed early, sleep will help too.

mmmmhmm. SO. someone decided to "phish" my myspace. meaning they tried to break in and alter my account and/or create another login. so myspace has frozen my account until i change the password. i think i'm well aware of the asswipes that would do so.... (REAL EFFING MATURE YOU RAT BASTARDS... and that's apparently the best you can do, WHICH MAKES ME LAUGH, because you're gonna get fucked over so bad. apparently, you violated alot of laws you apparently weren't aware of. good job fucking yourself.) (apparently is the key word in phrase.... or maybe i should use the term "ignorant to" instead... it's way more fitting) anyhow, at least they froze my account before anything could be altered... so, yeah, you suck you idiots. i win again.

(sorrrrry had to vent a little ) (and i apologize for the language.... )

i'll have my goodie package by the end of the week, and that will surely cheer me up. i am postively and completely intrigued as to what these "goodies" are. i feel like a kid at christmas.

i have been completely charmed by quite a few SG's lately, and i want to thank all you girls for welcoming me so warmly. you've been amazing and it's nice to feel a sense of sisterhood though i'm pretty damn newly pink. Rosaleigh especially has tickled my fancy lately.

and thank you for everyone's concerns while i'm sorting out this huge mess. you guys have been mos def cheering me up and keeping my head up. thank you. thank you. thank you. it means alot.

i may actually be seriously considering moving to Cali or Florida. i haven't decided which. we'll see how this pans out......

many thank you's to all the well wishers




so now i just need to add some pics. i'm actually a sort of strawberry blonde now... ahaha. i change my haircolour about as much as i change my undies.

Rigel sent me a couple of pics to put up on my myspace profile. i'm not sure if i can post them here or not.... i'll ask. i'm just way excited for everyone to see. yay!!!

so i've decided to gage my ears. i'm told they can pierce up to a 2G before they have to cut, so i think i'll start at a 4 or maybe a 6 and go from there. i don't want to stretch any further than a 2.... which i know is small, but i like smaller plugs on girls. i'm excited. this before tattoos. and now i just have to make an appointment to get my SG tat. (yup, i'm getting one and yup, weird, but i don't have my ears pierced)

been talking it up with the ex, which is always awkward for me because we get along so well, even after all of the ugly stuff that's happened in between the breakup and now. sometimes it just doesn't feel any different... and that's the hardest part. but i'm grateful i still have his friendship.

ok. i'm gonna go eat pasta now. hooray!!

[p.s. i just saw Salome's testimonial and i blushed. Salome, you make me blush!

HI PEOPLE.


they merged my accounts. so wenchy isn't anymore... she died.

say hello to Itsy.


and thank you everyone for your good wishes and support. i'm here now. yay!!

hey everyone!!!! i'm here!!!!


thank you so much to everyone who's supported me and my dream for this.

i love you all.

still waaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiting on SG. story of my life. I'm nervous as hell. I just wanna hear something back from them that is more concrete then "we'll let you know the status of your approval within 30 days" or "your set is currently being photoshopped". gah! i'm dying up in hur.


so my friends are coming over tonite. yay! ryan and minkus. most fun. but i slept too long and didn't wake up in time to clean my room. so. we're all crashing downstairs in the den and there's nothing anyone can do about it. period. so there. hopefully no more scary bugs will creep up.....

my lovely friend Razzle_Dazzle's dad got into a car accident this afternoon. luckily he's ok. but the car isn't.

i'm gonna call her butt later to see if she wants to come over and hang with the boys and me.

i met someone i might be interested in dating. it's been a long ass time since that has happened. jebus.


if all goes well, i think i'll be contacting AlissaBrunelli and/or tubaart, the midwest and missouri staff photographers, respectively, to see about shooting future sets. we'll see loves!


hey!!! p.s. PUT UP CAMPBELL'S NEW SET ALREADY!!!

p.p.s. just so you know. someone hacked into WaMu's 800 number to call in and activate you ATM/Credit card. uuuuhhhh yeah. mine got hacked and i'm like one of 15 this week, the customer service guy said. they hacked $300 something out of my account. i get it back and everything. but still.