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i've spent the past two days stressed and worried, in tears, biting my nails, trying to better my puffy, staypuft man face. and what i have to show for it is what i think is the loss of a friendship. it's not that i don't understand where the other party is coming from, it's just that i don't feel my feelings were appreciated in the slightest. i've been a wreck. and even the outcome is better than what i expected, i still will have a sleepless night again, i imagine. i vowed a long time ago never to let anyone force my hand or hang my dreams in the balance. and i will keep it that way at all costs. perhaps it is a bit selfish. but i won't rely on anyone else. and if i can't fall back on myself... i won't put anyone else before me. not at this stage in my life. i can't afford to. and rather than seeing that as "selfish" or "unprofessional" or the like, i think of it as reckless, tenacious and determined.
once again i go to work looking like hell. puffy face, red rimmed eyes. and for what? it isn't right.
still. things may work themselves out. and i hope that i gain what i've been gunning for.
on an upnote, this did prove itself to trouble me more than did overhearing an acquaintance say to someone "that's sarah, i fucking hate her". well then why bother calling me? duh. that's just plain stupid on their part. at first i felt a little betrayed.... and an hour later i found out it didn't bother me at all. so at least that explains itself.
i'm broke as fucking hell this week and it sucks.
someone take me out for a well deserved drink. i promise i clean up nice. 
signing off ladies and gents.
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APR 05, 2007 10:27 AM
, realllly??
Wellll, I have a couple interviews set up already, I have had a few mini online interviews,
and I know that upon arrival I'm hired back into the Dance studio I used to wirk at, part-time, so thats a huge plus!!
I know finding a job wont be hard, it hasnt ever been before,
I'm coming with $500 to get me through, my own grocerys for over a month, but little to no furniture...
I need to stand on my own, I need some stability.
Geoff is housing me up until I can find somewhere, and to tell you the truth, finding a place kinda creeps me out, you never know WHO or what people are into until you live with them.
You seem realllllly nice, I've read a few of your journal entries and you have my attention.
Please?
For a struggling lady that wants to get out of a dying/rotting city-
Lil' Ari.
