Yes it's about damn time I make a new blog..Only problem is I don't have a whole bunch to update with...

So here lookie 2 new pics till I have something else to post




On a good note, I'm feeling a good deal better...
And........
Beau and Dorsal have a super hot multi set in MR .. wow wow woo wee

Ok well next update will be much quicker, promise ♥

I thought it was about that time again..So I have a few things to cover..

First.. I want to see Repo the Genetic Opera sooooooo bad.
This will be the fist time I WANTED to see a movie with Paris Hilton in it.
But check it out:




Also super randomly These are really really tasty as a Lower Fat Potato Chip alternative.


Yummy! eating some now as I type

My fave Twitter friend: themtyThor who is also a youtube big wig sent me a super cool Thor hat, I love it.. It's really high quality.. so i thought I'd pimp the hat out..




Ok on to the semi serious stuff..

So since I've gone over a year sick as shit and taking meds that make me nuts.. I've had alot of Depression, Anxiety and Bitterness as of late. So rather then just sit and stew in it I chose to go to the local Mental Health.
So yesterday was a big official sit down with lots and lots of questions 2 and a half hours worth of them.
So my case manager says well seeing what you are dealing with we need to get you on meds but I can't imagine what you would be able to take with your current sickness..So she said wait here and I'll go talk with the doctor and we'll figure something out for you..

30 mins later she comes back (after I heard her arguing with the doc in the hall) and she says:
"The doc doesn't think you can take any meds like you need with that stomach issue you have sooo he says you need to come back when you have that taken care of but until then we can't help you"

OMG WTF! I talked with her for 2 and a half hours to the point she knows damn well that IF my stomach issues were healed I wouldn't fucking need to get help from them in the first place.. That's what's MAKING me depressed..

So I talked to her a little more and she said oh well maybe some other agency can give you counseling, but we just don't offer that without medicating.. We used to but now we don't. State funding sets that we only deal with severe cases. again WTF?

So yeah this getting help thing not working out so well..I wish I could say otherwise but this is indeed the story of my life.

So who wants to see Repo? Do ya dig my hat? and Do ya think I'm wrong to be upset with how the visit with Mental Health went?

Guess What??







Yep.. Pictures of me...Who ever would have guessed...


I'm feeling oddly creative and don't really have a way to express it right now..Hmmm what should I do.. Sing, Dance, Make more pics?? oh before you go there.. no I can't draw worth hell..

More later

Bored??? Wanna watch me sing dance and act like a retard???
Well if you said yes to all those..I'll be on cam at blogtv in 20 mins.. so come on over and chat with us..

http://www.blogtv.com/People/Ilectra

I'll be taking song requests and playing show and tell as well as some would you rather and answering personal questions.. No Question off limits..

I'll be on at 9pm till 10pm or so unless you guys convince me to stay on longer


I will also be recording this show so if you miss it don't you worry..lol
Love to see you there..

-Ilectra

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On man guys that was a blast thanks so much for coming and rocking it .
You guys from SG filled the place..
Thanks again to you all..
You miss it??? Well there is video of the whole thing here....

See what you missed?? or just relive the moment..lol

Oh and this one too, I get with the booty shaking.

♥ you all

For a year and 3 months I have been sick.. Some days good, Some days bad but so far neverending....
I'm now taking a bag full of meds and am I any better??? NO. I get some new meds from the doc yesterday and took them today.. What did they do.. Make me 95% worse then I already was.. I went to another doc today and he gave me more new meds so who knows what tomorrow will bring..

For as strong as everyone says I am and seems to think I am.. I am not handling this well. One thing I feel for sure is that a person can go only so long like this without some sort of relief or pain management or something..

I'm trying everything I know how to get myself better but I can't afford all the doctors and medicines, This sickness has made me unable to work for the most part so I can't afford to continue to be sick so much..

Side effects ever notice that alot of meds have side effects just as bad as what you are taking it for..What the hell is that all about..it's like a pick and choose what problem you are willing to live with..

So anyways things seem to keep getting worse rather then better.. I never imagined in a million years all this would have landed on me like it has..So you guys just have to understand that life has managed to get in the way of me being around as much and posting the updates that I promise..

Reading back through this blog I feel like i'm just complaining and should save you guys the reading and scrap it.. But I won't cause I want to be honest bout whats up with me..even if thats not always positive..

Thanks for being the coolest people I know.
-I

Taking a big leap and booked a plane to Philly for tonight, be back late Sunday night.

So to Philly I go..have fun kids and remember......






EDITED: Trips off

Lastnight my computer crashed and crashed hard..soooo I lost a buttload..
I had to reformat and my comps still not working right..So what pics I didn't lose will take a bit for me to recover.

I'm just lucky I did a backup of a bunch of files about 2 weeks ago.. but I still lost 20% of my stuff

Yay! for having a laptop cause my comp won't let me back online at all it's being a twat!

Sooo my vain blog will have to wait a while longer.. but till then.. ponder this:





Back to tackling my paper weight comp, wish me luck...

I'm pretty sure I've fallen into the 6th dimension.



and I'm also pretty sure that when I come out I'll post purely vain content that is sure to delight.
Until then enjoy The Mystic Knights of the Oingo Boingo (above)

Hi de Hi de Hi......

We kicked MM and ACDC's asses. Youtube community FTW! Plus we got featured on the front page of the tube.



I made it in at the top right corner at around 3:16 or so. I'm in purple..

Just a quickie, much love