This is from a shoot i did last week in london.
i was standing under a huge bridge in between two busy roads wearing this, to a chorus of beeps and heckles.
enjoyment level; low.

it's my birthday in one month and one week,
teenage years over. wasted; unappreciated; and again, wasted.
i might lie and stay nineteen forever.
chances of sugar daddy coming and sweeping me of my feet, becoming a distant surreal fantasy and fears of riding the corporate horse forever, becoming realism.

damn.

i might go back in to the dark hole of vintage accessories and pointless denial in which i call my bedroom,
location; mothers house, if i return i remain defeated. typical. i once hid in there for a month straight and didn't say one word. not a hello, not a yeah not a sob, an empty shell lay in her own depression only venturing outside the four walls for ice cream and sushi related snacks.

i want to be spoilt, and idiolised, and treasured, and most of all loved.
but who loves a spoilt princess. no one. choking on my own contradictions once again, but if all else fails, get your tits out and smile, and the world is a beautiful place again.

if i havnt replied to you lately, im not mad, or arrogant, or even busy.
i just suck at keeping in touch.
through and through i am a let down.
sorry.

buy me hello kitty related goods, and ill let you own a piece of my heart for ever.
buy me..ill change your life.
i promise.

i might start swapping signed prints for stuff i want instead of selling them.
it sounds more romantic that way.


http://cgi.ebay.co.uk/HELLO-KITTY-2-Slice-Wide-Slot-Toaster-NEW-in-BOX_W0QQitemZ190141707912QQihZ009QQcategoryZ39568QQssPageNameZWDVWQQrdZ1QQcmdZViewItem
http://cgi.ebay.co.uk/GLOOMY-the-naughty-adult-bear-mini-wallet-handbag_W0QQitemZ320148368330QQihZ011QQcategoryZ45261QQssPageNameZWDVWQQrdZ1QQcmdZViewItem
http://cgi.ebay.co.uk/Cute-HELLO-KITTY-Children-Camping-Picnic-Lunch-Box_W0QQitemZ280143993461QQihZ018QQcategoryZ39568QQssPageNameZWDVWQQrdZ1QQcmdZViewItem


thank you and goodbye.
xxx