so this week has been one of the most difficult of my life. my best friend vanessa has been diagnosed with cancer. she has a very large tumor on her ovary. she is defintily going to lose it, and maybe her unterus. we do not know if it has spread, we should find out this week. maybe tomorrow. thsi is all very shocking and devestating to her, myself and all our friends. she is one of the greatest people i have ever had the privilege of saying she is my friend. i am very scared for my friend. i had to watch my mother suffer through cancer and its treatments, and the idea of seeing vanessa go through that just makes me so sad. my mother did not survive but vanessa's situation is very different and the outlook is optimistic but difficult. but in both cases, not knowing what was going on is the worse part....hopefully by the end of this week we'll have more answers.

in other news:
my friend camilla just got diagnosed with diabetes last month. totally sucks. she is handeling it amazing. really. huge adjustment, but she is really just dealing with it.

just found yesterday that my friend mark who i was suppose to party with on friday was trying to break up a fight at some house party, when some drunk mother fucker picked him up and body slammed him. totally UFC style. broke his pelvis and now is stuck in bed unable to walk.

WTF?!?

be carefull out there guys.

i think i am starting to hate this place..........

i am having a sober sept....so far i got 3 days...just decided on this....i keep getting sick...cant get rid of this strep throat..so i am going booze and smoke free for a while. i hate it....i am miserable....but i am so sick of going to the damn doctor...something has gotta give......what the fuck do people that dont drink do?? i mean i used to be straight edge but that was different...i went to shows every night...

well i have been looking a lot at the internet...my current favoite video....god i love phil collins.....


i really want to see Britany's VMA performance a couple nights ago..anyone got a link on that bad boy???

saw the movie halloween last night. really enjoyed it. didnt go with other halloween fans so i couldnt talk about all the references...but i still had a good time. i suggest going...rob zombie's wife is horrible but totally hott so all is forgiven.

bored..gues i'll go read something..is that what sober people do.....i mean i guess it is better then when the page is in double and i dont really know what is going on....

fuck 3 days no booze or parliments....this is going to suck....................is this one of those long months?......fuck.

i bought a new camera. i love it. i loved my old one...but someone in france loved it more and stole it....so i found a great deal on craigslist and got my new camera. wish i would have done it sooner cause i missed out on a lot of fun photos. but i thought i'd share some of my new photos of my summer...so enjoy.



been kicking it at the park a lot. my friend found that boom box on this sidewalk, polished it up and it plays perfectly. lucky dog.



post park i went to the Front Porch in San Francisco. it was their year annivery or opening. it was a blast and is definitly one of my favorites...here one of the owners/bartenders/nicest guys in SF



i have been going to a lot of baseball games. i normally go to oakland to see the A's with my friend Paul, but this is when i went to Giants with some friends. it was a boring game but such a good time....little secrete. we hollowed out some french bread and stuffed a bottle of wine into it....security was none the wiser.



this little guy has been an awesome part of my summer vacation. i went to visit him and his mom and taught him how to make funny faces. he didnt really "get it"..but he thought it was funny to jam his food into his mouth...i totally agree...that's pretty funny.



my and my best friend got wasted.....we're so wasted here we're just drinking ginger ale with bitters....yikes and it is like 11pm......god bless that sometimes i can say no to more beer...but i coul never say no to that face. one of the greatest friends i'll ever have in my life.



yep more park. picnic style. there was a huge red tail hawk flying around too....it was a kick ass afternoon.



got more foster kittens.....there adorable...so fluffy and fun. matteo and solange...i didnt name them but i do snuggle them...



see how small they are....



thanks for stopping bye....off to have more fun......

this NFL Vick asshole has got me pretty pissed. i am so glad that he pleaded guilty. i am glad he apoligized for not being honest. i am glad the NFL is suspending him. i hope he gets 5 years in jail (i doubt it...but i hope) but when you say that participating and killing dogs in an effort to make money or entertain yourself is immature, you're a fucking asshole and obviously have no concept of cruelity and no repect for other lives. i hope his hell is an eternity with a bulldog chomping on his nuts.

He also said: "What I did was very immature. That means I need to grow up." fuck you.

in other news...it is beautiful i am going to the A's game.

i had a dream list night that i totally did it while the movie ghostbusters played in the background....what the fuck. they amazing thing is that the sex, making out, was really really vivid and totally hot and amazing. i know where the sex thoughts came from....i mean that isnt surprising that i am thinking about fucking...but Ghostbusters.....strange.

well this sucks. i tried getting onto myspace and it says there is like a runtime error. something aboutthe server...but i dont know shit about computers......is that my computer..my internet connection......my friend at herr house can get on...i feel detattached from the world..someone fix me........



this photo makes me smile. he's so proud. love that lil'fucker.



there is a bunch of shit that i want to be doing right now...but alas i am here on my couch on the internet. sometimes when i feel like there is too much to do i enjoy not doing ANY of it. boycott it all just as a little reminder that it doesnt matter. i did clean the litter boxes...that that did matter.

i am sick with strep throat.....again. wish i didnt have these damn tonsiles.....they are pointless. i need to start a fund to get them taken out. do a bake sale, or benefit or just auction my crap.....course that probably wouldnt cover the cab ride to the hospital.

i am out of movies and getting bored with my 3 tv channels....what are some fun website? entertain me...please.........

whoa it is been a while. my computer ate shit but i got it all up and running.

my summer has been disappointing. i have only been to the river once, minamal amount of cookouts, one bro-too, one vacation to my grandma's house (it was awesome, she turned 90 years old), only one romantic fling, 4 foster kittens,3 out of town visiters, 3 break-ins into hotel pools, 5 hang outs with lil tuffy, one letter for jury duty 9 ( i didnt go), one invitation to my 10 year high school reunion (no way i am going), and countless beers and pints of amazing blueberries (my newest obsession).

and you????

i am fostering kittens.

there is nothing that smells like kitten shit. it is awful.

b&w is my boy bolt, orange is my lady cloud.

i get to keep them for about 4 weeks. they have taken over my life.

enjoy.