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JANUARY 3, 2013 @ 06:34 AM


Art has always been a sanctuary for me. I can't claim to be any good at creating it, but having any capacity for self expression is invaluable. Whenever the world outside is bleak and miserable, there's some kind of safe haven within.

When I was in middle school (maybe age 10 or 11), I started taping-pinning-gluing my collection to the wall. Little scraps of paper from my life. Little memories. The cartoonist style post-its from my brother. The origami flowers folded by the friend I've known since I was two. My own little doodles.

I finished messing with it sometime during high school. I'm not exactly sure when - during the times I was zombified by overmedication, my memories get a little hazy. But through all bullshit madness I endured or caused, doing this simple task gave me the space to sort myself out.

So all this time later I found myself staring at the remnants of whatever once was. It wasn't anything spectacular, but it had meant something back then. It was just a wall I splattered the pieces of my soul all over.

I settled on the idea of tearing it down mid-December.

I like the concept of temporary art. The sort that only remains in photographs after it's no longer present in the environment. The kind designed to deteriorate with time.

It was easy to take apart, piece by piece. I've come to a point in life where I favor change- sometimes drastic change- over the stability of a stagnant atmosphere.

These photos are all that remain of the pieces I created.

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Every once in awhile I still doodle, though nothing I've seriously spent much time on. I have enough other interests with writing, sewing, photography, modeling, archery, etc... and trying desperately to narrow my focus.

The most recent doodle on the iPad

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StCyr

StCyr

Louisville, KY
March 2007

JAN 03, 2013 06:51 AM

pshaw, you're WAY good at creating it!

It's funny my daughter is super creative, and pretty talented (if I do say so myself) but is all about the temporary; she loves to create intricate works on a dry erase board. And, as soon as she's finished, it's gone. For her, it's the creative process that she enjoys, not the finished product.
I hope you enjoy the process,
but your finished products are quite impressive as well.

Vayda

Vayda

SUICIDEGIRL

New York, USA

JAN 03, 2013 06:57 AM

doodling <3

jimcurt99

jimcurt99

Tucson, AZ
August 2010

JAN 03, 2013 08:17 AM

I must agree with StCyr- I think your work is wonderful, and even more because it helps you get through thingssmile I know if I didn't have my art right now- at this point in my life I would be so beyond crazy....

You're an amazing person my dear.... amazingkiss

Hemi_

Hemi_

HOPEFUL

Seattle, WA

JAN 03, 2013 09:09 AM

OMG...all these pics are great! biggrin

Hexxus

Hexxus

HOPEFUL

San Jose, CA

JAN 03, 2013 09:18 AM

<333

i dont really have any of my old doodles. i did keep the back cover of a journal from high school though that had doodles and quotes on it. kept moreso for the quotes.

Trills

Trills

United Kingdom
December 2004

JAN 03, 2013 09:47 AM

I love the colours you use, very vibrant, great smile
Happy new year!

MacAnthony

MacAnthony

Bismarck, ND
December 2012

JAN 03, 2013 10:09 AM

Call them doodles if you want, but I think it's great! Hopefully you can find time to keep that something in your life. Art is a great outlet.

Eveski

Eveski

HOPEFUL

Worcester, MA

JAN 03, 2013 10:34 AM

thanks!! love you too girly!!

bringyouhell

bringyouhell

Jackson, MI
February 2011

JAN 03, 2013 10:39 AM

Those are excellent! I agree about the expression, only I really am terrible at creating anything. smile

Ilanna

Ilanna

SUICIDEGIRL

Colombia

JAN 03, 2013 10:42 AM

You're really talented and these are some great art pieces <3

cudnovati

cudnovati

Mexico
January 2005

JAN 03, 2013 12:39 PM

thank you Miss!

Anjave

Anjave

Australia
May 2007

JAN 03, 2013 05:25 PM

Nice art and sentiment. smile

thebeliever

thebeliever

Santa Rosa, CA
November 2008

JAN 03, 2013 05:56 PM

Gotta box full of doodles. They're some of the best things I've ever done/said. The subconscious mind jumping out, not giving a fuck.smile

JohnnySniper

JohnnySniper

New Zealand
July 2010

JAN 03, 2013 06:08 PM

temporary art's a really interesting idea, especially when you consider it in the digital realm - pixels don't deteriorate in the same way that paper and paint does. But does that make a digital image more or less permanent, given that it never has a physical existence in the first place.... once you tear the picture off the wall it's gone, but the photo you took of it will (theoretically) live forever

NerdMachine

NerdMachine

USA
May 2008

JAN 03, 2013 06:56 PM

You seem pretty good at creating art to me.

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